The Soldier
Bucky Barnes x Reader
Summary: This isĀ the only way Buckyāll live. Words: 1,288 Warnings: language Notes:Ā HELLO IT ME HWKEYEWRITES ANYWAY this was a request from that blog but yeah idk enjoy frensĀ
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The Soldier
Bucky Barnes x Reader
Summary: This isĀ the only way Buckyāll live. Words: 1,288 Warnings: language Notes:Ā HELLO IT ME HWKEYEWRITES ANYWAY this was a request from that blog but yeah idk enjoy frensĀ
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NEW BLOG
yooooo okay so basically I canāt log in on my laptop like at all soooooo I made a new blog: http://sgtbbvrnes.tumblr.com
prolly gonna be posting a thing later so yeah follow it!! or donāt, I mean itās your feed :ā)
they tell you to give up. they tell you that heās past saving, that there isnāt anything left for you to do. they tell you that the man that you love is gone. they tell you that he is no longer himself and that he doesnāt know you, that he probably never will remember you again, for it had taken months upon months for him to even remember the blond-haired lad that heād grown up with.
hellā youāre pretty sure if the universe could speak, itād tell you that the man you love is lost forever.
but youāve never been one to listen. youāve always been stubborn, even steve said that you and bucky had that in commonā heād said so with a shake of his head but his lips curved up into a smile and his eyes shining like there were stars trapped in them, dancing and dancing around.
even now, with natasha and maria hill and nick fury all telling you that you might as well just give up now, you canāt.
not when the only reason buckyās like this right now is because of you. because you were the one to say those words. because you were the one to trigger him back into the weapon he was crafted into, like he wasnāt a goddamn human being. because you were the one to flip the switch that turned him from bucky barnes to the winter soldier.
so itās your fault. itās your fault that heās restrained and not saying anything and glaring at the security cameras like he knows that everyoneās got their main focus on him. on the winter soldier.
āyou did what you had to do,ā natasha comforts you, tone placating but nearly emotionless, as she does.
āheās dangerous.ā maria hill barely looks away from her files as she speaks.
āi understand why you did it, and i donāt blame you.ā steve says as he puts a hand on your shoulder, but his eyes are so dim and his brows are furrowed and heās lost his best friend all over again. because of you.
āi do,ā you say, quiet, but they all hear you. you get to your feet, looking at them individually before youāre focusing your eyes onto steve. āiām not giving up. iāll bring him back.ā
āheās too far gone.ā
āi donāt care.ā
āheāll attack you,ā natasha has her eyebrow raised, her tone like sheās telling you something thatās a known fact.
āi donāt care,ā you repeat, advancing towards the door.
āyou walk out that door andāā fury starts, but you wave him off, turning on your heel to look at him.
āyouāll have me arrested?ā you very nearly mock.
everyone in the room looks at you like youāve gone insane. maybe you have. you wouldnāt know. all you do know is that the man that youāre in love with, the man that protected you even whilst not himselfā heās in the situation that he is now because of you. he saved you.
and now itās your turn to save him.
so you clench your jaw, tilting your face upwards slightly in an almost arrogant move. (itās definitely an arrogant move.)
āi donāt care. heās in there because of me. heās⦠heās like this because of me. iām going to get him back. watch me save him.ā
Are you okay? Havent seen any posts from you in. Long time. Hope all is well!
hiiii hahaha been super busy with school and I still canāt log in on my laptop and I havenāt gotten round to writing the drabbles (bc I suck as a human being) but yeah Iām good (ish) thanks for asking fam :~)
Prompt: Winter soldier sent on a mission to bring y/n in (for whatever, you make that up, she could be a mutant or smthing idk) and after he does they form a bond of some sorts?Āæ and after shield goes down they both escape ((separately)) and then they find each other? make it just as sad/angsty as all the others please and thank you
no promises but Iāll add it to the listtttt
HAVE A GREAT FUCKIN DAY (sorry i havent been on for a while! been busy)
thanks fam hope you had/have a good day š»
Hiiii, I have discovered your blog and I have read almost everything, it's precious, your writing, everything *-*, there would be any chance that you are at least thinking of doing another part for The Edge of the Night and for I Wish (It was me)? No pressure, love you anyways, you're the best, mate <3
ahh thank you fren but Iām afraid Iām not gonna write a part two for either of those!! Iām soz
I AM NOT AFRAID TO USE PHYSICAL FORCE I AM ALSO NOT AFRAID TO ROW A SAMPAN ALL THE WAY TO SINGAPORE SO YOU BETTER GET YOUR ASS IN LINE BEFORE YOU GET YOUR ASS HANDED TO YOU ONE MORE TAG LIKE THAT AND ILL DRAG YOU THROUGH HELL BY YOUR PONYTAIL
COME ON BRO ROW YOUR SAMPAN YOUāLL PROBABLY GET A FINE AND WHY ARE YOU ASSUMING I EVEN HAVE HAIR LONG ENOUGH TO TIE INTO A PONYTAIL HMM
YOU ALWAYS PUT YOURSELF DOWN IN YOUR TAGS AND THIS MAKES ME ANGRY BECAUSE WE ARE SOUTH EAST ASIAN BROS AND BROS TAKE NO SHIT FROM OTHER BROS SO QUIT IT BEFORE I COME OVER TO SINGAPORE AND BEAT YOUR ASS INTO NEXT WEEK.
BUT LIKE WHAT I WRITE IS NONSENSE MAN C'MON DONāT LIE TO URSELF FAM ITāS ALL SO MEH
What you wrote for 11 which vee requested honestly gave me so many feels, why must you make me a ball of emotion... It was so good, I need more
ahahaha thank you fren Iām glad you liked it š
3/13 for bucky
Heās been unconscious for three days and it hurts to see him like that. He heals faster than average people, but heās not invincible.
So heās healing, asleep, and he looks peaceful, but he looks like heās in pain, all at the same time.
You stay by his side, only ever leaving for the toilet and a shower and cups of coffee. You talk to him, too, because they say itāll help, but you think itās causing more damage to you than it benefits him because this is everything that you didnāt say whilst he was conscious and you donāt know if heāll wake up even though they all say that he will.
āIām so fucking in love with you and it scares me so much because I know that you love me too and thisāll end with both of us getting hurt and maybe I shouldnāt love youāā is the last thing you remember saying before youād left the room in a panic of realisation about what youād finally admitted to yourself.
You come back to blue eyes looking back at you from a hospital bed and you halt in your tracks.
He licks at his lips, āYouāre still here,ā he sounds surprised.
You canāt help the frown that comes across your face as you make your way back to his bedside.
āDid you really think Iād leave?ā you ask, voice soft as you peer at him, your fingers brushing through his hair. Itās greasy and fairly disgusting, but you think you canāt bare to not touch him in some way.
Bucky shrugs, as best as he can with his broken⦠everything. āDidnāt see why youād stay.ā
He looks like he wants to add something else, and it makes a part of you thinks that he heard what you said before you left the room.
āHow about the fact that I love you?ā you retort anyway, raising a brow.
He looks back at you, eyes wide and so blue and he looks like he thinks heās heard you wrong. Itās the first time youāve said it to him, and he knows that, too.
Heās said it to you before and all youād done was kiss him because you were scared and you didnāt want to say it even though you knew damn well that you were falling in love with this beautiful broken man.
āI do. Love you.ā You say again, never looking away.
Bucky licks at his lips, parting them to say something, but then seemingly deciding against it. He clears his throat, darting his eyes away, his metal fingers messing with threads of the hospital blanket.
āWhy now?ā His voice is gruff, but weak.
Your fingers pause, then you shrug a shoulder. āI think I always have. I justā I never said it because⦠I was scared. But then this happened andāā you trail your fingers from his hair to his metal arm.
His eyes follow your movement, then heās looking back at you, but itās your turn to look away.
āI thought I lost you, Buck,ā you breathe out. āYou couldāve died, and you wouldāve died thinking thatā that Iāā you canāt finish your sentence.
His palm turns and then his fingers are slipping in between yours. Theyāre cold, but you feel a warmth in your chest that you think you never want to get rid of.
āYouāre not going to lose me,ā he says it like a promise, and you look back at him to see him looking back so intently at you.
You donāt believe him. Because you know somethingāll happen and youāll lose him, especially in this line of work.
You must look a little disbelieving, because he presses on: āYouāre not. I swear. Iām not going anywhere.ā
You get off the chair youāre sat on, pressing your lips onto his forehead. āI love you,ā you whisper against his skin.
āI love you so, so, so much more.ā Bucky whispers back, and you think: maybe weāre all still meant to lose the ones we loveā
But youāll fight for him till then.
11 ::)))))))))))
There is only one thing in his mindā to finish his mission. And when he does that, he finally comes back to himself, and heās standing in the middle of the room surrounded by bloodied bodies in slumped positions on the ground. He can feel something wet dripping down the side of his face, and his hands are each holding onto the handle of something, but the one thing he can focus on isā
Her. With the wide eyes and blood smeared all over her and her hand covering her mouth, barely even masking how horrified she looks.
He looks around again, and then he realises what heās done. Heās⦠killed them. Everyone. Fucking everyone. Even the ones that didnāt need to die. He killed them all.
Bucky looks back at her, and sheās already staring back at him, chest heaving up and down like she canāt get enough air into her lungs.
He staggers back a step and drops the knives in his hands. Her hand slowly lowers, taking a minuscule step forward. āBuckāā
āNo, don'tā donāt come near me.ā
Because heās a monster. Heās a murderer. Heās⦠heās let her down with how heād promised over and over about how he wouldnāt ever kill again, because he never wanted to in the first place, and sheād trusted him to do the right thing and not kill anyone anymore, butā
He didnāt have a choice. They were going to hurt her. They were going to kill her. They were going toā
He had to save her.
Bucky looks back at her. Her eyes are still wide and bright and there is a stray tear dripping out of the corner of her eye. She looks scared. (Of him.)
āI had toā Iām sorry, I didn'tā They were going toāā he canāt get a proper sentence out.
āItās okay,ā her lips move, forming the words but no sound comes out. She tries to take another step forward, but itās shaky and hesitant, like she doesnāt really want to, so he takes a step back.
āYouāre afraid of me,ā he whispers more to himself than anything, but it echoes. Sheās afraid of him. The one other thing he vowed he would never let happen. Sheās afraid of him. āI broke my promise.ā
āYou⦠did what you had to.ā
Bucky shakes his head. āIām sorry.ā
āI forgive you,ā she says, her voice still so soft, and placating, almost.
āYou shouldnāt. I wouldnāt,ā he breathes out, taking another step back. And another. āI let you down. How am I supposed to forgive myself for that?ā
She looks like sheās going to say something else, but he turns on his heel and he runs. He runs and runs and runs because if sheās afraid of him, if the one person who makes his life worth living is afraid of him, then whatās the fucking point in living anymore?
I have the attention span of a goldfish lmao I'll write the rest tmrw I'm soz
can you recommend me some good avengers writer and fics? for any character? i'm in a mood and i can't find any good ones and i've read through yours too many times. xx
I donāt rly read imagines/fics ahhh Iām sorry fren!! I only know that @squishybucky and @writingbarnes write good things so check them out?
2 w Steve?š
Heās ignoring you. Heās actually legitimately ignoring you and it fucking sucks because the only other thing he does is look at you with that goddamn glint of disappointment in his eyes and then look away a second later.
(Having someone you care about so deeply treat you like that⦠it feels like youāre being ripped apart from the inside.)
You concedeā youād done a stupid thing. You put yourself in harmās way and you got hurt, even though Steve had told you to get to somewhere safe because he couldnāt (he wouldnāt) see you get hurt.
But you didnāt listen to him and you went out in the battlefield despite not being an agent and you got caught in the crossfire. You spent a week in the hospital.
A week that Steve spent with you by your bedside. You were out of itāloopy and on drugsāso you didnāt speak much, but you know that he never left. He spoke to you sometimes but you barely heard it because the doctors were pumping you with so much medication that it felt like everything was under water.
Then you got discharged and you were finally okay enough to walk around and look for Steve and thank him for staying with you all the while, but also ask how come he wasnāt there when you woke up the day you were to be discharged.
Onlyā he was completely ignoring you. Soā
āWhaāā is what he greets you with when he opens the door to his apartment.
āThis is an apology pizza. Please take it or I will start crying right here.ā And you probably will, because there is nothing that you hate more than being ignored, being treated like youāre fucking invisible.
āShould you even be carrying that?ā Steveās frowning and his mouth is down turned as he reaches out for the box of pizza that was, in fact, putting a strain on your ribs and arm.
āProbably not, but,ā you shrug. āIām sorry, Steve.ā
Steve rolls his eyes, stepping aside to let you in. āDo you evenāā he starts, then he shakes his head. You eye him, and he sighs. āDo you even know what youāre apologising for? Or are you justā is this you trying to get me to stop being mad?ā
āIām sorry for⦠being stupid.ā
He looks like heās expecting more, but you donāt know what else to say, so you stay silent. Steve sighsā that damn sigh that makes people feel like theyāve disappointed America.
āIām mad becauseāā he starts, voice hard, āā you werenāt thinking. You didnāt think before you acted.ā His voice has gone soft and it cracks and heās avoiding eye contact. āYou didnāt care about yourself getting hurt, about what it wouldā aboutā if youāā
āIf Iā¦?ā you prompt gently, taking a step closer.
āIf you died out there. You didnāt think. What it would do to⦠me. If you died.ā
āIām⦠sorry.ā
āThatā¦ā he shakes his head, sighing. āThat doesnāt make this better. At all.ā
For the prompt thingy, would you write reader inserts?
yeah dude
Writing Prompts:
Send me two characters and Iāll write you a drabble:Ā
1. āDonāt apologize. Thatās not the point. Did you mean it?ā
2. āThis is an apology pizza. Please take it or I will start crying right here.ā
3. āI thought I lost youā
4. āOkay, when you say love, do you mean love as in like loving pizza or as in love, love?ā
5. āThey donāt like dogs. It wasnāt going to work out.ā
6. āThe hills are alive, with the sound of bullshit.ā
7.Ā āI feel like Iām losing control.ā
8.Ā āOkay, am I drunk or did you really just say that?ā
9.Ā āIām too sober for this shit.ā
10.Ā āGod, I missed you.ā
11.Ā āI let you down. How am I supposed to forgive myself for that?ā
12.Ā āOkay, the blood isnāt mind, calm down.ā
13.Ā āDid you really think Iād leave?ā
14.Ā āThereās a difference between being brave and being stupid.ā
15.Ā āYouāre proud of me?ā
16.Ā āIf love was easy, weād be writing songs about better things. Like pizza.ā
17.Ā āIs this supposed to be this hard?ā
18.Ā āTheyāre going to hate me.ā
19.Ā āLike Iād choose the laws of physics over you.ā
20.Ā āDid you just blue shell me!?ā