The People Pleaser

❝ 'No' just isn't in my vocabulary...though it should be. ❞ Hayley Chen. Eighteen. New York Prep

[candace-pelletier-blog]

“I’m not all that big on parties, more of a lounge and drink type of person so I think you’d have to ask someone else,” Candace shrugged, eyeing the other briefly.

[hxyley-chen]

“Lounge and drink? Do you do that often?” It was curious to Hayley. Most of the people close to her own age would never just stay in and drink without going out and partying too. Maybe there was something to it.

[kaya-kurosawa-blog]

“Alright, let’s do that,” a big grin spread on Kaya’s lips as she held out a hand for the other to hook hers in. “We’re gonna have so much fun, I promise!”

[hxyley-chen]

Hayley grinned, nodding at the girl. “I could use some fun right about now!”

[nickkennedyhere]

“Of course I would.” Nick grinned. “I’m always in the mood for a good party, there’s nothing more fun than it after all. So, do you want to meet somewhere then or just go straight away?”

[hxyley-chen]

“Let’s go straight there...if you don’t mind?” She had almost forgotten her manners and was just assuming he’d be ready to go just because she was. “Would you meet somewhere, really I don’t mind, you’re the one being helpful enough to go with me.”

[thejaseygillenkerk-deactivated2]

“This is New York fucking city Hayley, there are always parties and bars to go to.”

“But did I hear it right, does the goody two shoes want to be a little reckless?”

[hxyley-chen]

“I don’t know why everyone keeps thinking I’m a goody two shoes, I’ve been known to do reckless things before.”

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

Dirk was scared for a split second when she pulled away, but grinned at the words. When she had her back pressed against the wall, he used one hand to brace himself on the wall, moving the other to the back of her neck. He looked down at her with a small smile. He wanted to say something, but had no words, so he leaned in to kiss her again.

[hxyley-chen]

His smile meant the world to her and there was a pause and it seemed like he might have wanted to say something but the moment passed. He kissed her again and she smiled into it before getting taken over by the need to get more from him. His hand was on her neck but her hands were free. First, she placed them on his hips, pulling him in ever closer to her. Once his hips were against hers, she ran her hands up his sides before sliding over his chest.

As she pulled back from him, only slightly, she caught his bottom lip between her teeth gently. Her eyes looked over his features, looking to see what he was feeling, looking for any kind of sign to stop. She knew she didn’t want to, she was hoping he didn’t want to either. Her lips met his again, this time her tongue slipped between his lips, exploring a familiar territory. 

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

Dirk let everything fade away except Hayley, This was all he had been able to think about for so long, that he wasn’t gonna miss a second of it. As he kissed her he moved a hand to her hair and let her deepen it, just wanting to stay like they were for forever.

[hxyley-chen]

She was lost in him. And as cliched as it sounded even to her, she didn’t want to be found. At least not for a long time. However, it did occur to her that they were still in the middle of the dance floor. She pulled back from him, reaching down and taking his hand. “Follow me.” Hayley pulled him off of the dance floor, back towards the wall where they had started the night. She had her back against the wall, as she pulled him back to her.

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

Screw it. Dirk was done thinking, it hadn’t got him anywhere that night. He kissed her back, he kept his hands on her sides, holding tightly, not enough to hurt her, just enough to keep him convinced things could stay how they were for at least a moment. He could care about everything else come morning, right now all that mattered was Hayley.

[hxyley-chen]

Hayley could honestly say nothing else mattered in this moment. All she could focus on, all that she wanted, was him. The fact he was kissing her back, she never thought this would ever happen and she didn’t want to let him go. Her hands gripped him harder, she deepened the kiss just wanting to taste more of him.

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

As he watched her he tried to remember why they couldn’t just be together. Why? Stacy, he started reminding his mind. Stacy, Stacy, Sta-ley, Hayley, Hayley… he looked down just in time to see her eyes close before he felt lips on his. His eyes slipped shut and for a second he was at complete bliss. Then, it was gone, his lips chased hers before opening his eyes. He knew he should shove her away, tell her he understands it was a mistake, but he isn’t sure he can do it. So, he just says what he’s thinking, probably not the best choice, “Don’t.” he shook his head. “Please don’t apologize, please.”

[hxyley-chen]

She glanced up and met his gaze. In his eyes she saw he was being honest, sincere...or at least she thought he was. And that was good enough for her. Hayley didn’t hesitate to kiss him once more, this time not pulling away from him like she had before. Her hand rest gently on his cheek, her other still on his chest, her fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt.

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

Dirk let his eyes slip closed. Somewhere in him knew the safe feeling with her wouldn’t last, but he was going to do his best to make sure he kept her happy. When she turned, he moved so that one hand was on her lower back, keeping them pressed together, moving the other up to brush some hair out of her face and tuck it behind her ear without  thinking. “I missed you, too.” He said, not even considering the damage those words might cause in the future. “A lot.”

[hxyley-chen]

She could feel herself blushing in the dark room and was grateful he probably couldn’t tell. Her hands were resting on his chest, she could feel his heart beat and made note that it was in time with her own. Was it a sign? Probably not, she didn’t believe in that, but the alcohol was convincing her it was. And where there was a sign there was a move to be made. Without thinking it through, which she doubted would be possible at this point, Hayley pushed her lips against his. But only a moment later she pulled back, “oh God, I’m sorry.” She looked down lifting one hand to cover her face. “I’m so sorry.” Even though she was apologizing, she was still smiling, not really regretting it, even though she should.

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

Dirk let himself move with the music, allowing himself to enjoy being with Hayley. He moved his head so his forehead was resting against her hair. He’d missed her a lot, and being close felt so good. He knew better than to let himself judge, but he had also had more to drink than he’d planned.

[hxyley-chen]

She could feel him getting into it, his forehead resting on her hair and she smirked. There was nothing else going through her mind except the music and the feeling of him being with her. It wasn’t how she had thought the night would go, but she wasn’t complaining about it. After a few more minutes like this, she turned back around, her face coming very close to his. “I missed you.” Now Hayley knew better than to trust herself, the vodka was quickly altering her ability to filter herself. She was sure pretty soon she would start doing things she would seriously question while sober.

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

He was surprised by the change but said nothing. It was a dangerous position perhaps, forcing them to be pressed together, but he couldn’t seem to pull himself way. He held her a little more surely, resting his head against hers lightly as they moved. 

[hxyley-chen]

He didn’t pull away which she had been afraid of. She was starting to care a lot less about what anyone else in here assumed about them. Why was it any of their business? Plus, they weren’t doing anything but dancing. His head was resting on hers and it was a familiar feeling, being held by him and she could easily admit to herself now that she might have missed him. Her hands were resting comfortably on top of his, her thumb rubbing the back of his hand.

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

He wasn’t really focusing on anything so it took a second for him to process she had spoken, and longer to remember just what she was referring to. Dirk pulled back just a fraction to look at her properly. God, he had already lied to her more than enough, he couldn’t do it again. “I’d miss you too,” he promised, nodding his head to let her know he meant it. “No doubt about it.”

[hxyley-chen]

His answer made her smile, it warmed her up in ways it shouldn’t have but it was always nice knowing you would be missed. Without saying anything more, she turned around, leaning her back against his chest and pulling his arms around her. She moved to the beat of the music, her head falling back against him as her eyes closed.

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

She placed his hands on her hips gently, and began moving with her. He wasn’t much of a dancer, but it was club music and he could easily follow her flow and let that be his guide. He was glad to see her having fun, especially knowing he was helping. He let himself just enjoy the closeness, and not worry about how it might look for a second.

[hxyley-chen]

Her eyes opened slowly and she looked up at him with a softness in her eyes that she hadn’t had in regards to him for a while. She couldn’t really stay mad at him and she’d been in some serious denial if she thought she could. His hands were a warm welcome on her hips, it just brought back some of the happy memories of when they were together. “I would miss you...that’s what I was going to say before.”

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

Dirk left his own cup besides hers, not realizing that it was almost empty. He took her hand and led her to the floor. “Great!” He grinned. ‘You have  girlfriend, you have a girlfriend’ he kept repeating in his head. It was fine, people could have friendly dances.

[hxyley-chen]

The floor was crowded but they found a spot closer to the middle of it. There were groups and couples surrounding them but she didn’t really notice them as her eyes were focused on him. Dancing was fine. A dance was just a dance - it didn’t have to mean anything. Hayley held onto him, standing close and grinning as she started to move to the music. Her hips were on the beat and she laughed, just letting go for a bit. 

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

As he took another drink he raised an eyebrow. When she didn’t continue he decided not to ask, having a feeling it would get him into an argument. He stayed quiet for a minute as he watched the crowd, but it was getting awkward. He bit his lip in thought, “Do you wanna dance?” He finally asked. 

[hxyley-chen]

His question surprised her, to say the least. She glanced over at him and smiled. “Yeah, I would actually love to.” Hayley’s words were out before she could stop them but she didn’t mind. She didn’t regret it. Truth be told, she had been wanting to dance, she always liked dancing and if he was offering she wasn’t going to say no. “Let’s go.” Hayley took another drink and put her glass down on the first table she found.

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

Dirk tried to monitor himself carefully, a sip here, a sip there. But, he was more focused on the conversation, than the drink. “Yes, you know my parents, don’t want to keep me from school.” Dirk rolled his eyes. He realized he was leaning in close to her, but ignored it since it was loud nad crowded. “Plus, all my friends are here.”

[hxyley-chen]

“Not that that ever stopped you from missing school before though, did it?” Her eyes met his and she smiled sweetly. “You wouldn’t want to leave your friends for too long, I’m sure they would miss you. I -” she immediately cut herself off, leaning back to take another drink and let the moment pass. She couldn’t let herself get comfortable with him again. 

[extraablog-deactivated20160223]

His smile got more genuine as he talked to her. He’d almost how much he simply enjoyed her company. He knew it was a long shot, but if he was lucky he might be able to salvage their friendship. But, even then, could he keep himself in check? “Oh? Than don’t tell them how much my mom liked them when they met, they might just go insane.” He teased. “With the amount of crazy fans I’ve seen, your parents are probably the least weird.”

[hxyley-chen]

“Oh God no, I would never dream of telling them that. I wouldn’t want them to have an aneurism. I keep them on a very tight leash. I don’t need people to actually see what I have to deal with.” She laughed again but stopped herself faster. Now that she had drank more, she could’t keep the bitter thoughts she still had about him completely buried. She was still upset he’d ended it the way he did and now it hurt more. It had been too easy to forget how he’d broken her heart and how easy it was to talk to him, to feel comfortable with him...and she wanted to hate him for it, but she couldn’t. Even if she tried, and she had. “Are you back in the States for good now? At least for awhile?”