Wow so I logged in to save this URL, nearing the anniversary of making a Hyoubu RP account, but I ended up with a lot to think about. All on Hyoubu’s and my growth.
I think it was about 2015 when I discovered Hyoubu through his seiyuu and a character song. I felt a connection immediately with Brand New Eden, the lyrics and vocals were touching. It got stuck in my head, I listened to it on repeat(still do!) and finally I decided to grab my best friend at the time and watch The Unlimited. This edgy, childish yet powerful psychic ended up stealing my heart. Not only is he a fun character, but there’s more to him than what meets the eye. He’s much much more than his strength and particular humor. He harbored pain and bitter memories, with a struggle to move on from the past which changed him completely. An optimistic boy with a passion to protect, to a pessimistic tyrant who swore on creating a psychic master race. Wow, so I’ve been writing Hyoubu for 6 years!
But it’s the manga where you really start to see him grow. As he makes connections thanks to The Children and Feather, his story as the antagonist shifts to that of an anti-hero. Slowly, those bitter regrets shift to resolutions. Towards the end of the manga, his works with his new found family, and his old family comes and tells Hyoubu how they always been proud of him since the very beginning. He finally is able to overcome his loss, grief and hatred: Hyoubu is able to move on.
I too, have grown since him and I first met. We both have timeless memories, and encountered many people in our lives. Both of us are reaching towards higher places, overcoming hurdles which feel like mountains. Eventually, Hyoubu was able to move on from his regrets and anger, and found his acceptance for the world he resides in. After so long, he’s able to carry on and enjoy life. I also don’t live with regrets, even if the memories are painful. I learned to accept things as bittersweet, treasures which still gleam. I can’t change the past or the losses I experienced, but the experience gives me strength to press forward. And boy, did this year kick my ass! Life is unfair, but beautiful. There’s so much more for me out there.
Now, those treasures I mentioned even includes love. I love my family, I love my friends. Hyoubu loves too, although he’s been bruised terribly from all kinds love. Familial for sure, with the fate of his parents and how his father treated him. But also, from my learning of the character, I believe Hyoubu has harbored romantic love. I can acknowledge that the fact is debatable, especially who Hyoubu’s first love was, let alone if he even had one. Going off the parallels of Minamoto and Kaoru, I say he has. His first love broke his heart, but I don’t think he regrets falling in the first place. Love made him the person who he is. Getting your heartbroken is a bittersweet reminder that you’re human, that your heart is capable of love. Myself, I don’t regret falling in love. I don’t regret being in love. I think I was blessed to have a first love, despite how it ends. I’m sure Hyoubu is in the same boat.
These memories here are precious. It’s how I began writing, to my journey of becoming an author. I don’t know if I’ll roleplay on tumblr again, but everything here will stay. I’m so proud of myself and Hyoubu, we been through pain in all sorts of way. But we’re still standing. We’re Outlaws.
Going to higher and higher places, towards paradise.
Stay positive, everyone.
