'Fuck. I feel so horny. Again.'
The again part was the important one.
As you are trying to stop edging, to stop touching and rubbing so much.
Or at least to cum again.
You dont know exactly why all of this is happening.
Why you just cant cum anymore.
Why your thoughts always drift off to something that involves edging.
Why you are just getting hornier and hornier each day.
Why you always end up with at least one hand between your legs.
Why you are unable to resist.
'You know exactly why all of it is happening.'
The voice you hear could be your own conscious, trying to convince yourself that it was your decision in the first place, so you can decide to stop.
But what if it isnt your voice exactly?
More like the voice of lust, the voice of your cunt you are already able to hear in your mind?
What if it shows just how much control you lost over the last year?
A sudden burst of pleasure makes your eyes rolling back.
Positive reinforcement at its finest, shortcircuiting your brain with pleasure for another small change.
As your mind just absorbs it.
To be fair, you are only awake since 5 minutes, but at least you didnt touch yet.
Last morning you touched after 10 minutes.
And now you already feel your will weaking, your resistance fading more.
You wanted to last at least the 10 minutes, maybe even longer.
But after 7 minutes after you woke up your fingers touch your pleasure button and your mind goes blank.
Your mouth opens up as your eyes are rolling back, already conditioned so well as you spread your legs a bit more.
Just like your mind spreads more open for your cunt.
Only for you to wake up later after the session, realizing that you got even hornier.
