a pocketstarfield too

just another speck in the starfield. a scorpio. sometimes too dysfunctional over the reality or nonreality of lhj. Because this is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been. photos and gifs not mine unless stated

[hyukcienn]

Perhaps this is why one stans. Because you are always there despite unknowing of each other's life's pains?

[pocketstarfield]

[pocketstarfield]

Suddenly I realized how hard all these must have been for you. But here I am only thinking of myself and being a cynic of your reality.

pocket starfield

[hyukcienn]

Who Are You, Lee Hyukjae?

Who are you really?

I cannot seem to pinpoint and grasp your reality.

This is pathetic. I know.

Sighs.

This is just a question to the ethers after all.

Are you real? What are you even?

I need to know

So that I can move on.

Who are you Lee Hyukjae?

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U-KISS Standing Still Lyrics in English

Cause I’m on fire – you’re standing still I’m burning down – watching over me

Only I didn’t know about your cruel ending I didn’t notice your kerosene yeah I am burning to the bones

Cause I’m on fire but you keep on standing still Ye I’m burning down but you keep on standing still

In this endless maze I have lost my way out I wait for it to end But you keep on standing still While you keep on standing still

Cause I’m on fire – I’m standing still

I close my eyes and pray, asking to turn things back

Only I didn’t know about your cruel ending I didn’t notice your kerosene yeah I am burning to the bones

Cause I’m on fire but you keep on standing still,

Yeah I’m burning down but you keep on standing still

In this endless maze I have lost my way out I wait for it to end But you keep on standing still While you keep on standing still

So cold when you do it to me like that Frostbite but karma’s gonna bite back I can’t believe all of the lies Building inside now I know why

I am burning all of your traces that remain in me Burn it down, even the last tears Burn it up, turn it into ashes and go far away

Cause I’m on fire but you keep on standing still Ye I’m burning down but you keep on standing still

In this endless mazeI have lost my way out I wait for it to end But you keep on standing still While you keep on standing still

[hyukcienn]

Life Cycle

i was   

        then

          for a little while

shortly afterwards 

now 

forever 

[hyukcienn]

You have to live pretending to be the lead. That's the only way to keep yourself sane.

[hyukcienn]

im gonna be far away. so far away. as always.

1890.4 Miles

3042.3 Kilometers 

1641.6 Nautical Miles

[hyukcienn]

What happened??? Why am I so affected with the From U comeback stage perf?

Yaaah! Hyukjae is what happened. Rrrrrrrrrrr I don't know why this is affecting me so much. Him being my bias and all, I should've known he could and would do this. Arrrrggggghhhh!!! My heart!!!

Then it dawned on me. The song From U is mostly sang by KRY, and Hyukjae's dance moves were easily can be likened to that of the choreography in Sorry Sorry Answer which was also sang by KRY. And we all know what he did with the song. I mean, well, you know what I mean I think.

The way he dances in From U... it's just different. waaaaaaaaaa all these feels i couldn't quite figure out. Or perhaps it's just me? kk im keeping mum now.

Oh gosh Hyukjae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[pocketstarfield]

I wanna be one of the ELFs who'll sing/fanchant From U with Super Junior during their comeback perfs

but how???? I live in Narnia. 

[monkeilii]

[hyukcienn]

EunHyuk’s Thanks to:

 Firstly I have to thank God. We recorded this album very sincerely, thank you to those who bought our album.

To my dear parents whom always used their tears to help pray for me, and the prettiest noona of all times, my noona, and Choco who is very cute like me! Thank you , really, and I really love you all.

Now it is really the world’s SMTOWN!! Teachers Lee SooMan, Kim Youngmin, Jung Changhwan, Nam Soyoung, Yoo Youngjin, and  alot more of our family staff, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Even at some place that I cannot see, you guys are always working hard for me. Now it is my turn to respect you guys in a place where I can see! The ‘Zhuo sama leader’ who always lead the very kind members of SUJU, (and he added alot more nicknames for this person that i dont know how to translate LOL) , You are our Dongjun hyung! Even though we already did very well, and there are really nothing much to worry about us, but we will still work hard and do our best. And those staff that spent their nights just to help us with our outfits! Although it is tiring but please continue to only make a effort on my clothes~

Beatburger hyungs who are leading the kpop dancing world! If i work hard i can do it too~ Good luck! Really dance very well~ but your faces..and your bodies…your personalities too…ah.. really dance very well~this summer you must challenge the legend of the hometown~!

Hyelim noona! You are always tired when you are recording for your new album~ Please find someone to marry!

And Heejun noona which is like a mum ~ please find someone to marry too!

Tuesdays’ nights Kangshimjang! Yoojihyuk’s fanclub and staff, thank you, and Park PD nim~ Yoojihyuk’s first bangsong of his new solo album will be done in Kangshimjang! and KTR family~ Now that I am not around, you guys know how valuable I am right? Just do well when I am around ~ You must be with the genius Hyuk DJ too~

Dreammaker who made Supershow the best show ever, which includes every staff from Seoul who are in charge of the sound effects, thank you too~ even though I am sorry, please continue to do this well together even until supershow 25!! the days when we rest, when it is raining, all sorts of anniversaries, no matter what day it is, if I called you you will come immediately, zhongsuk hyung! really really thank you~ So please buy rice too ^ ^

The dorm ajumma who cooked good food for her sons once almost every 10 years, i like kimchi soup ^^ even though we dont meet often, but we will meet soon, X society! because i am too busy, so please come over and visit me~  And our Ashtrays (86 Club)… I’m sorry^^ Hehe….^^ We’re still a group that exists… Hehe… We’ll have a gather in a while, in just a while… Hehe… Although this is the 2nd year saying ‘in a while’… Servant-ah I’m not sorry to you at all. Treat your hyung-nim well, like a good servant does… 

Thank you to YunYoung too, who revealed Yoojihyuk’s birth , please be careful when walking on streets at night ^^ there are still alot of people who i want to thank, but I can’t write anymore, I am going to cry now.. wait..and Kangta sunbae, DBSK sunbae, SNSD, SHINee, f(x), EXO, everyone in our SMTOWN family. and everyone who is in the kpop industry thank you~ and lastly, my brotherly members, my girlfriends ELF, and those who lent Eunhyuk a helping hand before, thank you and i love you guys ^^ cr.

[hyukcienn]

live with your own tune and keep it as carefree as possible

My friend called me upon getting off from work and right after learning about the 6jib teaser photos being released.

I told her about the album title, "Sexy, Free and Single". Something I, at first, hesitated to say because I am shy like that. 

Anyway... She then asked me to describe the picture.

I said, " It's okay. European effect (i guess). Eyes are covered..

...

"Hey! Stop staring!!!!" she shouted over the phone.

"Ha?" I came back to reality. "No! I wasn't staring!" :-#

Truthfully, I never realized I was until then.

It's just that. He was so peaceful. It feels like I was lulled into reverie with the photograph's effect. It was beautiful, indeed.

I just want to get this off my chest. Haha! Because amidst and before all those SPG and warak comments I made in fb and tw, this is how I felt. 

There is this photograph with faded, graying corners and bubbled lenses of a man whose eyes were covered in flowers. It was like a painting from hundreds of years ago you see in museums and you'd want to live in the specific era and time captured in the painting.

I felt that way.

The morning-after-s** hair, the side view, the jawline, the unbuttoned shirt, the uncaring posture are nothing and in itself cannot be separated from the beauty of it all.

And thank you, dear photographer, in helping capture this beautiful art with Lee Hyukjae in it.

[hyukcienn]

I wrote to you.

I wrote to you .

you are not the same.

But I need you  just as true.

One is to hug.

The other to embrace.

Someone to assure.

Another to tell me off.

you didn't and will never meet

'Cause one is high in the blue sea.

The other drowned in my tears.

[hyukcienn]

Has it been fun? Totally.

Is it worth it? Definitely.

How? I don't know how. I can't seem to measure or explain it. Do I even need to ask that question?

I'm thankful and grateful that I have come to know these people. I do not regret every single second I have spent in the past year for these people. Because they are not just these people.

Looking back, somehow I feel that they have always been a form of distraction. 

They distracted me from the realities of my immediate life at first and then slowly awakening me to what is going on right before my eyes.

I just cannot go on staring.

The thing is, I feel that I need to do something in my life. Something is lacking. I have some idea what it is but. But there is a but. And I hate it.

So I am going to figure out that but. If it can't be figured out, at least I tried. I hope it will not take time. But to be safe, I know it will take time. Guide me.

I do not want to say this. But I am saying this just because.

JUST BECAUSE.

[hyukcienn]

The saddest thing is that people die, they leave.

The saddest, saddest thing is that people go on and forget and they don't have to care.

[hyukcienn]

[hyukcienn]

[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in] i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

BY E. E. CUMMINGS