F L I M S Y

—I write best when I am either, falling inlove, or falling apart • Autres temps, autres mœurs ★ hiatus

[i-amdelilah]

i’m way more complicated than i thought i was. i tend to do the things no one would expect me to do just to go against the usual thing. i tend to be a bitch sometimes and i'm afraid people can't handle that toxicity of mine.

who would dare? i woudn't even tolerate that from the others yet here i am wanting to be understood. no reason can justify the bad attitude i possess which scares me because i might actually end up having no one— no friends or anyone but myself and i will never be ready for that.

but maybe i deserve it for being impossible. for being such a jerk to people. can i call that mood swings? will that fit into the description? i want to reason out and justify my actions but truth is, i don't have a way out. i know deep down I was wrong; already amitted it and asked for apology.

i guess i'm just afraid one day they won't tolerate me, cause they don't care anymore. THIS. MAKES MY HEART HEAVY. AND I WANT TO CRY. BUT I CAN'T. I WON'T. I'LL SAVE IT KAPAG NANGYARI NA LANG. BUT I HOPE THEY KNOW I LOVE THEM AND I'M SORRY IF THIS IS HOW THE WAY I LOVE

[i-amdelilah]

oh wow you're still here.

hmm, yes but not that active.

[i-amdelilah]

Let’s agree on one thing, you guys....

Women should have the right to choose how to represent themselves on their own terms and they should not be blamed for being victimized.

START dismantling the sick societal conditioning & double standards that have kept victims of sex crimes voiceless for ages and STOP making women bear the burden of other people’s responses to their bodies and clothing.

[i-amdelilah]

Citing clothes as a cause of sex crimes is the result of patriarchal mentality 🤮🤮🤮

Everytime somebody in a position of power makes a statement that justifies sexual-agenda based violence through a process of victim blaming, they’re excusing violence. The amount of skin shown or the length of skirt is not an indication of consent, get your asses outta ur heads.

[i-amdelilah]

The most fucked up thing with the minds of these bigoted enablers of patriarchy is their complete awareness of the negative inclinations of the ideology they follow, but continue to maintain an "it is what it is" attitude in several situations.

They realize (or not) that there is incongruence in reasoning out that voluptuous clothing is the instigator of evil, yet resort to that reasoning because it is the only thing that can be changed, from their words, instantly.

In a world where everyone wants instant gratification, blatantly blaming the way people dress as the cause of rape is because it's EaSiEr tO SOlVe is horrendous, disgusting, and delusional. Dude, people get raped even by wearing modest clothes!!!!

If you think that you can get away from this kind of THinKiNg and ReAsONiNg today and in the future, YOU WILL NOT.

Rape is CAUSED BY RAPISTS.

Victims have suffered enough to be blamed for a crime they never wanted to commit.

LET US EDUCATE PEOPLE WHO THINK LIKE THIS AND TEACH THE RIGHT MINDSETS TO OUR FUTURE CHILDREN!!! LET US ABOLISH THIS NEW KIND OF THINKING!!!

[i-amdelilah]

it's important that you keep your feelings and your self worth in different places because when feelings get hurt it shouldn’t change how you view yourself.

[i-amdelilah]

Wow you deserve an appreciation! I enjoyed reading your blog posts 😌🥰

aww, this really means a lot! thank you so much!! <33

[i-amdelilah]

I hope the next time you’re happy, you won’t get so low when it’s gone.

I hope you find something that heals your soul.

I hope you trust the universe that it has a plan for your next smile because it does, you’ll see.

[i-amdelilah]

i’m not sure which is worse: intense feeling, or the absence of it.

[i-amdelilah]

I'd open my eyes and rush to the sea.

Coffee in hand, I'd think about what lies beyond.

The day will come where this is what every morning will be like.

But for now, I'd think about what lies beyond.

[i-amdelilah]

i don't know but sometimes, everything seems so tiring that i want to be on somewhere i can find solitude, somewhere i can be alone and stay for a while— just to appreciate the silence.

[i-amdelilah]

to be an ocean and to be the closest metaphor poets use when writing about love at 3am.

happy world oceans day! 💙

here’s to years & years of loving & fighting for the dagat no matter how many times we get burned under the heat of the scorching sun during coastal cleanups.

[i-amdelilah]

I never really understood why ppl would go to protests and risk their safety before. I had always thought it was a dumb move and that being an activist is a bad thing. And that’s because I lacked knowledge on the matter. So now that I am educated...

I can understand why people are doing it and I will fully support each and everyone one of you! I may not live in the Philippines anymore but it’s my home country and I will fight for the freedom of my countrymen. SO #JUNKTERRORBILLNOW

[i-amdelilah]

In between hearbeats and minutes the view has changed.

More intense, yet calmer.

More alive, yet still.

Orange and yellow and gold,

I hope to cup them in my hands.

For I have been weary

and these days have been for dreaming of distant lands.

[i-amdelilah]

Life was so simple back then, everyone was just singing “party in the usa”. Now, the world gets darker and darker. I hope we can make it brighter and colourful again where no one is left behind . The world is in our hands, we need to stand in solidarity with one another.

Our diversity should be our unifying force. Our institutions, laws, and the rule of law are all important but base on these, if we can’t even draw a distinction between members of our society who should gain a significant amount of trust and can’t even feel greater security along with susceptibility to all sorts or violence, discrimination, and marginalization then we need our collective strength and resilience— the backbone that supports our community. We need to stop letting the dominant narrative define who we are and limit our abilities.

Our values as human beings & our shared lived experiences tell stories— stories that should provide the connective tissue, allowing diverse communities to thrive. If we are unable to do this right now, can’t wait for the next generation to dismantle the threats to our existence.

[i-amdelilah]

Coronavirus has not suspended politics— it has revealed the nature of power. -David Runciman

Link to the article: https://t.co/9b9dXV4jKa

Coronavirus has not suspended politics – it has revealed the nature of power | David Runciman

In a lockdown, we can see the essence of politics is still what Hobbes described: some people get to tell others what to do, says David Runc

The past months may have been deadly but it's deadlier now. Destructive protests in the USA, intensified police brutality, China's law subverting and claiming HK, Rohingya refugees drowning in the seas, the approval of Anti-terrorism bill— everything is just so appalling

2020 will always be known as the year when the world collapsed on itself. When it protruded a massive political, social, economical, and cultural maelstrom.

And the thing is, 2020 is not even close to ending yet. will we ever survive?

[i-amdelilah]

Instead of oppressing, focus on nationbuilding. Instead of division, why not integration. Its time to solidify the melting points of our society.. Foster love & unity. Empower everyone, especially those who have been marginalized & looked down upon..

Racism makes societies feel less safe. Racism results to more division and dominance. Racism presents a huge problem as they weaken inclusion and equality through sytemic oppression and discrimination. Racism should not have a place in our communities.

We need treat one another humanely. Despite our differences, it is viable that everyone should be respected and valued equally. No matter where you come from or whatever type of skin colour you have. Its time to battle negative prejudice, intolerance and hate.

We really need to start individually, within ourselves. Recflect about your lived experiences & try put yourself in others’ situations. Do your own research (really!) & be more critical. Don’t spread any misinformation.. Be better & help others even in the little ways you can.

People are in pain & anger because the current system has let them all down. Reveal the truth & give the justice that people deserve. If we have the will to change it as quick as we can, this can lead to immediate conflict resolution; more openness & acceptance of our differences