i am probably not okay :)

vent blog to get pent up emotions out. please dont worry about it. ~ all my posts are queued, for in case i disappear for awhile.... they/them

[i-probably-hate-myself]

pinned post! this blog can sometimes have kinda sensitive topics. this is a depression blog and suicidal thoughts and ideation are posted frequently. i know some people who would be extremely triggered so just putting it out there.

this is my main blog, my side blogs are @pockyg0re and @deserts-of-mushrooms

tagged with the tags most relevant on my blog.

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i didnt think id have to say anything but a few people have asked so i figure i should say something. i am not really comfortable with you coming onto my blog and digging into my personal life.

i do not want to talk to you about why my url is what it is or why i have depression. i have plenty of people in my life who care deeply about me and it is with them i talk about topics such as those with.

i have had depression for many years, no i dont see a therapist, and no i dont want to. im not at a low point in it, im actually doing really well at this point in my life.

this blog is a vent blog. i made it to let out more sensitive content than i want friends and family to be faced with. i queue things when im upset or in a mood. many things i post just because they are aesthetically pleasing to me.

my queue is usually backed up over several months so what you see is not currently relevant to me unless its tagged "not queued".

i would love to chat with people and make friends. but im not going to talk with you when these are the only topics youre interested in prying into.

[onderbewuste]

[yms1]

“u hard to deal with” good leave me alone

[dreamwaitinghope]

[thoughtkick]

“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.”

— Robin Williams (b. 21 July 1951)

[consecuences]

[girllbossing]

Sorry for being a bitch earlier, I needed to lay in the dark with my headphones for 3 hours to feel better

[0202020202020202020]

hahahaahahahaithurtssobadhahahah

[depression-healthy-carrier]

Mom: so if ur friend jumped off a bridge would you do it too?

Me: mom i AM the friend that jumps off the bridge

[pennamepersona-deactivated20190]

someone: where do you picture yourself in ten years?

me, convinced i won’t live another five years: what exactly do you mean by that

[painpoetry]

My body is alive, but my soul died years ago

[stay-close]

I'm sad; not the kind of sad that fades away next week or next month. The kind of sad that shows up one day ten years ago out of the blue and seems to stick with you. The kind you cannot seem to shake. The kind that no one ever talks about.

— Lynette Simeone

[onlybandlyrics]

I had a life and I had friends, and I miss all of them.

- Have Mercy // Two Years

[angelbabymikaa]

a million tiny daydreams about you

[youngestdaughtersyndrome-deacti]

my heart is a ripe fruit rotting in my chest

[librapetal]

[neckkiss]

Café de flore