IamLoveItsSelf

[iamloveitsself]

FIRE ESCAPE!!

It seems like The world's fire escape seems to be my Heart..

Like when the fire around everyone gets so out of control and they reach the fire place.. they run right through me...

Some with manners of asking for permission to share their depths with me as I allow them to run through me away from their own burning pain..

Others with out question just know I'm wide open for them through it all.. Run through me..My heart will carry your pain with you and for u..

And then those with only thoughts of themselves to save out of the mist of their Chaos ..so they run through fire places that not only look like my heart but anyone's heart, whether there is Love there to carry them through or not.. whether there is space there to push them through their next step or not..

You see.. fire escapes are the spaces of a Healer..

The spaces of a healing.. loving.. compassionate heart owned by Empaths..

Yet Empaths with no inner balance suffer the most.. because at times there is to much to carry through their fire escape..

One by one all that come get stuck in her own fire..in the depths of her own pain.. her process become heavier because her fire escape is full of others trying to get through..

She never cleaned her fire escape after her own fire.. she never lead her own pain out through her escape.. now the smoke that's ment for her heart to guide them out has them all choking in her pain.. while she burns.. she hurts...for them... for her... for the answers she seeks within herself while they wait on her to save them..as she tries to save herself.. To heal her own heart from all the years of molding smoke on the walls of her heart.. of her fire escape...

One at a time she carries out the few that are left..with the bit of strength she has left she chooses them..

She chooses to save them.. to empty her space.. only when her fire escape is empty again will she have the space to chose herself..

To close her chimney.. to clean it out and inspect all the damage.. and patch up the dents left by all those who ran through her heart..

Her healing hands will heal her and the strength she mastered in those tough moments of carrying others..will carry her through her own pain.. The light in her Tunnel will light up her spirit once again!!

@iamloveitsself

[quaintobsessions]

prodigal / pelican

you’ve hidden your face in the underworld and piloted only

visionaries for too long to surface easily;

but you are braver than you were when the sky scorched you.

when your wing burned you fell no harder than the rain,

you stayed there just for a little while, to drench the flowers.

don’t be afraid of the eyes wrought into the iron fences

and furnaces of the breaking world. we all try to escape;

you, coming in on gentle feet cradling your wing,

can send that fire back towards the sun, nourish starving mortals

with your heart’s blood, glean hope from wreckage too warped to recognise,

because you survived without greed, without pride.

[weltenwellen]

“Sometimes you get so close to someone you end up on the other side of them.”

— Richard Siken, Editors Page: The Long and the Short of It

[weltenwellen]

Joanna Klink, from “On Diminishment”, The Nightfields

[weltenwellen]

May Sarton, The House by the Sea

[iamloveitsself]

I will Never Fucken Understand Why!!? Why you and why like that!! You didn’t deserve this shit!! I wake up in a panic and then I feel you everywhere but I don’t see you!! I don’t hear you!! And I swallow my cry because if I hear my own cry. It becomes the worst reality I’ve ever had to face!! And then I feel you everywhere again but I don’t see you!! I don’t hear you! And as the next person asks me “Jaki, are you ok”!? I realize I’m fucken living this!! It’s real!! It really happened and ur fucken gone William!!! And as that question sinks in “Jaki, Are you ok”!? I break!! Each and every time, sometimes with tears and other times inside where it feels so heart wrenching that it’s like ur heart is sinking to the back of ur back within urself and Heavy isn’t even the surface of the feeling and painful don’t cut it either!!!

💔😩😩😩😩

And No!! The answer is No!!

I’m not fucken OKAY!!😭😭😭😭

I’m holding on to the fact that I Feel you everywhere!! While not even being sure if that is real to me just for the sake of holding on to you or to something to stay in this world!!

Idk shit about shit anymore!!💔

[behind-the-veil-of-sanity]

The Four Leaf Clover

crossroads, the basic belief

carry only four options

veer to the left

steer to the right

head straight on

into

the unknown

or

return

from

whence

you

came,

but beyond the basic belief lies

like little diamonds dancing

in the autumn breeze

across a pastoral pond

— the truth of infinite possibilities.

[smakkabagms]

O, immobile dark and I am lost again dawn cinches no routine like a thick red cape to her narrow shoulders the sea shudders with night coughs up stars I am there standing with my long shadow imagining my imaginings elsewhere, other countries, places my heart has never seen but in those dim easy-forgot dreams tasted; and thus I know grief, and lanterns that go out over landscapes never to be lit again

[muscle-museum]

I once loved

the way a mother loves

a child.

But she never loved me

the way a mother loves

her pride.

“the map of my brain in the red book” (2024)

[letters-to-dreamers]

Hi 👋 🚨plz don’t scroll 🚨

Iam writing to you, appealing to our shared humanity, to help me to share and reblog my story and my family’s fundraising campaign. 🙏

Iam Samer Abu Ras, my wife Shorouq, and our three children, including a baby 👶🏻 who is not yet two years old.

We are enduring unimaginable suffering due to the ongoing war, constantly moving from place to place in search of safety. We live in harsh conditions within tents, having lost our home and everything we owned. Our eldest son, Qusay, has had heart problems 💔since birth and urgently needs medical 💊follow-up after undergoing several surgeries. I humbly request a donation of 50 kronor more if you can my friend and if u can’t just support us enough for me.🌹 to help us travel to a safe place where we can continue Qusay’s treatment and provide a better life for our children.

In conclusion, my family and I thank you 🌺from the bottom of our hearts for accepting our message. ❤️🌹❤️

Note: My friend, if you wish to donate, note that the currency used in the fundraising campaign is the Swedish krona. Every 50 kronor is equivalent to 5 $dollars, 100 kronor is equivalent to 10 $dollars, and so on.

My friends, my appeals may seem repetitive to you, and I apologize if my requests cause any inconvenience. However, I need your continuous support. Thank you for your understanding.🙏🌹❤️

I hope you are able to get the help you need.

Please help if you can.

[letters-to-dreamers]

What will be of poets without a muse

Or artists without a soul

Oh what will be of the writers without a heart

Tell me what will be of us

[letters-to-dreamers]

I am hungry

For food I haven’t tasted yet

I am thirsty

For a drink I haven’t put near my lips

And just like that

I crave

A love I haven’t felt yet

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— David Foster Wallace

[mournfulroses]

Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley, from a letter to Jane Williams written in February 1823, featured in The Letters of Mary Shelley

[mournfulroses]

Adonis, from a poem titled “Unintended Worship,” featured in If Only the Sea Could Sleep

[what-iz-life]

I confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage

[quotemadness]

Love yourself as much as you want your soulmate to love you.

Elizabeth Daniels

[remanence-of-love]