Life and all that stuff

Just stuff

[iamnotyourstar]

Drunken (K)nights

Drunken (k)nights

 They started as a bit of fun, And me trying to fit in

At first I may have been unsure, But I grew to love my drunken nights for all they were

Pure, young, innocent, exhilaration coursing through our veins, staring up at the shining stars- oh so bright

All the memories made never to fade

 And I’ll never regret my drunken nights, But I do regret yours’

Your drunken nights caused you to forget that there is a girl who is already yours (who already calls you home)

And when you did remember the night ended with a hole in the wall and you saying that I didn’t count

Well that seems contrary to what I heard you tell them…

That you loved me

So, as your once friend I ask you this: how did I break your heart when all I did was be your friend?

Because you exhausted mine with your drunken nights

No, I never loved, never even particularly liked you, but you were a friend

Well, you will never be my drunken knight

 We happened to be friends but it seems your drunken nights brought that to an end

So I will continue with my drunken nights

Yes, I will continue with my pure, young, innocent, exhilaration

My foolish before and after pics, my getting even, betting on pong gamed with kisses, all the 3a.m McD runs, my nights of fun with friends… my drunken nights

My drunken nights without you

 They started as a bit of fun and me trying to fit in, But I grew to love my drunken nights for all they were

I love my drunken nights for all they are, All they are without you

 P.S. Might I just add that I was right about the skew roads and no I do not want to hear you apologize because you never apologize right and trust me I was one of the first to figure out that you lied

You will never be my drunken knight

[iamnotyourstar]

Homesick Notes

HOMESICK NOTES

 I feel a million miles away

I suppose approximately 8800 miles can make one feel that way

I just wish I could be closer, to hear your laugh and share the good times

But right now I wish I could be there to help dry your tears and hold your hand

I call you my best friend but 8800 miles seems to have disabled me

I feel a million miles away

  It is at times like these that I am reminded of the harshness distance can enforce in our lives

It is so unfair

 I am crying now because I know you are crying

My heart is aching because I know your heart is aching

But we are 8800 miles apart

It may as well be a million miles

 It is not quite what I would call me being homesick

It is just me wanting to be home

[iamnotyourstar]

Little Fish

Little Fish

I was a fish swimming free in the ocean

Swimming far and fast

But I was made to swim too hard for too long

And now I am a fish unable to swim anymore

Does not being able to swim mean that I am no longer a fish?

 I was a fish swimming free in the ocean

Swimming far and fast

I gave it my all

More than I had to give

But now I have nothing left

And now I am a fish unable to swim anymore

Does not being able to swim mean I am no longer a fish?

[iamnotyourstar]

So High-So-Low

So High-So_Low

(My-High-Low)

 I messed up two nights ago… and now I am allowing you to walk me “home”…

WHY?

And why did I allow you to get me talking about that night so many months ago?

Now you know- most of those tears were over you;

Over me and over you

 ‘Cause it hit me with the force of a hurricane-

I had known you for a while but never once realized how much I liked you,

Or that I liked you at all,

And when I did, I looked up to see you making-out with her,

It was the last straw,

Which lead to me taking yet another shot of Strawberry Burrnets…

Which only lead to more tears

Over you

Over me and over you

 Now we are on the road walking back to her house, to her room, to her bed,

My reality seemed to fracture when you said the words “I think we should F*@# now”

I have never felt so inapt

Am I just something to be used, to make you feel better?

Am I some second place prize?

You just spent the whole walk saying how much you still “loved” her,

And then you say those words to me?

 Now we are in her bed, in her room, in her house and you say those words to me?

I am sorry but I will not be your way of getting back at her!

I will not give you a part of me for you to throw it back in my face!

Don’t fuck with my love- your heart is so cold!

Yea, you might say that by ass is cold but it ain’t as cold as your heart!

 All I wanted was you to understand, maybe to just hold me once

I have never felt so inapt,

Am I just something to be used, to make you feel better?

Am I some second place prize?

You just spent the whole walk saying how much you still “loved” her,

And then you say those words to me?

Don’t fuck with my love- your heart is so cold!

Yea, you might say that my ass is cold but it ain’t as cold as your heart!

[iamnotyourstar]

AS THE SNOW CALLS

So I sit here as the snow falls

As the snow calls

As the snow falls

 And the prof. talks

As my mind goes for a walk

As the snow calls

As the snow falls

 But the snow ain’t sticking

And my mind is slipping

And my vision is blurring

The morning caffeine fix is stalling

And the snowflakes are whirling

 So I sit here as the snow falls

As the snow calls

As the snow falls

 Now the air is clear

And the snow ain’t falling

But it is still calling

[iamnotyourstar]

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