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Tien Nguyen. My blog lacks consistency but that's OK. Youtube Channel

[kosmogrl]

[lastgirlonearth999]

[skye-of-euphoria-deactivated202]

[kosmogrl]

[kosmogrl]

it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and it lingers and

[kosmogrl]

[kosmogrl]

[achillesinhighheels]

[achillesinhighheels]

[halzune]

YOO TEO as HAE-SUNG PAST LIVES (2023) dir. Celine Song

[iartien]

I may not be the prettiest but I hope I am the kindest and the softest and the person people can open up to and trust and rely on and turn to when things get rough and the person that always makes people feel loved and warm and never left out or lonely.

[kosmogrl]

[iartien]

as we were ending the call I said,

"good bye, love you."

and you just laughed

and hung up the phone.

a few seconds later you called me back

and said,

"love you too."

you probably didn't know it then

but that meant the world to me.

[iartien]

the truth is, I look for you everywhere I go. I look for you in every single person that I meet. so much of me exists because of you. and it makes me sad that I lost someone I grew up with. someone who saw so many sides of me and still stuck around.

I know it's beautiful to have a once in a lifetime friendship that can never be repeated, but how come it couldn't last forever?

[reemillustrated]

[iartien]

isn’t it so sad how lonely people can make you feel.

[iartien]

if I killed myself I wouldn't have to deal with any of this any more.

I wouldn't have to deal with the anxiety of confrontation. questioning if my friends actually like me or not. thinking about if I said too much, too little, too many stupid things

wouldn't have to deal with low self esteem and feeling ugly all the time.

wouldn't have to deal with feeling inadequate, like I could do more.

wouldn't have to see how ugly this world is. how we could solve homelessness/poverty and have world peace if not for human greed and anger.

wouldn't have to ask myself what I did wrong. why don't people love me. why don't people care for me the way I care for them. why don't people reciprocate the energy I give out. feeling alone. feeling left out. feeling like I'll never truly belong anywhere. feeling tired.

I'm tired.