Not sure how to make a pinned post exactly but here it is! This will be edited indefinitely to fit current information.
Introductions!
Call me Icarus or Sys, use he/him pronouns 98% of the time, I am what I call a "nonbinary male", I am in my 20s, I have a lovely girlfriend whom I will be calling Bean or Beanie online ♡, and I am but a typical queer artist.
You can ask me anything, but it doesn't mean I will respond and I reserve the rights to ignore or even block you should it suit me.
If you want to filter out reblogs, search my artwork using the tag "Icarussys artwork", and search my writing and thought posts using the tag "Icarussys rambles", you can filter by all my content with "Icarussys" (important you spell these right, with three 's').
My projects:
HermitImpact - A Hermitcraft x Genshin Impact art series where myself and commenters decide which Genshin characters fit Hermits the best, and I draw the Hermits cosplaying as the Genshin characters.
BbnoCritikal - It's seriously just a Dispatch au for me to ship Bbnos and MoistCritikal (Sonar).
Card Arts - A series where I draw the Genshin Impact character card arts in my own style with my own headcanons.
I do not take commissions. I draw what I'm currently interested in, when I am able.
I do not consent to any reposting of my artwork to other sites or usage of my artwork ESPECIALLY in monetary gain or AI.
I (we) are a DID system, meaning that I (we) have a disorder that causes our brain to split personalities into parts and these parts are different people, 9 times out of 10 these people are comfort characters from media. We have hundreds of people at this point but only about 20 are incredibly active, and sometimes we may end a post with the name of whomever is in control at the time of posting. If you care about who is most active, that would be Schlatt and Leon first and foremost, seconds will change every once in awhile, currently it is Sonar and Alastor.
This is our main-blog if you want to meet the people of IcarusSys, go here: "IcarusSys The Collective".
You can read more about DID here: Plurality Hub, More Than One, About Multiplicity, OSDD.
Artwork!
I do all my art with paper and pencil, hardly ever using an eraser. I then take a picture of my artwork with my phone and use editing to brighten and contrast the lines to be clearer and easier to work with. I upload the picture to IbisPaintX or Magma and begin the process of colouring, which is much like painting the way I do it.
I'm still experimenting with every art piece to find my favourite style, and I do not often digitalize as it takes HOURS over multiple days.
I draw fandom content mostly, as fandom content allows me to express my love for something, practice my art, and it doesn't require NEARLY as much thinking and planning as original characters do. That said, I do have a massive world building project I work on called Erisia (not based off the Deepwoken game, I have been working on this long before that was made), and this world is where all of my original work, characters, and ideas exist within one universe. Use the tag "Icarussys erisia" to filter that content specifically.
I LOVE TALKING HEADCANONS PLEASE ASK.
Current Fixations!
This is here to give you an indicator of what you could expect me to draw and post on my blog currently:
Hermitcraft, Genshin Impact, Sonar Dispatch, Alastor Radio Demon, Ocs.
Fandoms!
Whewwww boy this will be a ride, I never truly leave a fandom, I just hyperfixate stronger on a couple and it changes every few months.
PREFACE that I do not engage in any of the toxicity often observed in some of these fandom spaces, I am a multishipper, I am open-minded, and I do not waste my time arguing on the internet about characters and toxic artists, I am here to enjoy the media and the fanarts the community offers and the gays. Oh, also I don't watch anime anymore but still enjoy the characters.
SO THAT SAID HERE'S THE FANDOMS LIST:
Genshin Impact
Honkai Starrail
Dispatch
Insym (youtuber)
Hermitcraft
Dsmp (dead)
Cult of the Lamb (mostly dead)
Naruto (dead)
My Hero Academiya (dead)
Tokyo Ghoul (dead)
Black Butler (dead)
Resident Evil
Arcane - League of Legends
Final Fantasy (I'll be honest I haven't played any yet but I own some games and I just love Cloude smh 😔 gay boy)
Baldur's Gate 3
Stardew Valley
Dark Souls
The Arcana (dead)
Legend of Zelda (breath of the wild mainly, mostly dead)
Elder Scrolls series (will never post)
Detroit: Become Human (mostly dead)
Warrior Cats (nothing canon)
Hazbin Hotel + Helluva Boss (absolutely will not interact with this fandom beyond myself)
The Witcher
Middle Earth - Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit
Scream movies / Ghostface
Hannibal (show not movies)
Sherlock (bbc)
Good Omens
Our Flag Means Death (will never draw)
Lucifer - Netflix (will never draw)
Marvel
Southpark
Avatar the Last Airbender (will never post)
Star Trek (all series, but I'm watching in timeline order and I'm not done yet haha)
Disenchantment (dead)
Supernatural (dead)
Night Vale (dead)
Other Info.
I play Minecraft (modded), Sims 3 (modded), Project Zomboid (modded), Cult of the Lamb, Satisfactory, Medieval Dynasty, Clangen, Sunless Seas, Black Ops 2, Dave the Diver, GTAV, House Flipper 1 & 2, Long Dark, Ooblets, Resident Evil (2, 4, 6, 7, 8, none of them are remastered and I own like 9 more but don't play them rly), Shadows of Doubt, Slime Rancher 1 & 2, Terraria, Universim, Wobbledogs, Borderlands, Dredge, Subnautica, Age of Empires, Spore, Phasmophobia, Diablo 1 and 3, Niche, Don't Starve, Fallout 4 and Fallout New Vegas, The Forest, Sons of the Forest, 7 Days 2 Die, PlateUp!, Red Dead Redemption, Wuthering Waves, Apico (modded), and ARK SE & SA (both modded).
My minecraft modpack I made myself is my pride and joy, it has 361 mods, 27 resource packs, and 8 shaders. Yes it is actually playable, I get 60 fps (my set limit) with a render distance of 15 or 16 (my comfort zone), but the pack only runs on a really good PC, I run with 16000mb memory allocation (but I have gone to 12000mb and it runs fine if you aren't exploring much) and my build is a Nvidia GeForce RTX 2070 GPU, AMD Ryzen 7 7700X 8-Core CPU, and MSI X670e Gaming Plus Wifi Motherboard.
I drink tea and coffee, obsessed with noodles it's my favourite. Fav colours is generally speaking blue and purple. My favourite thing to draw is hair and eyes.
I listen to hundreds of bands while I draw, current go-to songs are Ugly Story by PhemieC, Brittle Bones Nicky series by Rare Americans, anything by AJR, anything by Lovejoy, anything by BoyWithUke, and various Avenged Sevenfold songs from the early 2000s.
Huge fan of angst and my art will dabble in things like gore, sensitive themes, suggestive themes, hurt/comfort, I will put appropriate warnings on posts that require them.
If I do ship art of Hermits (hermitcraft) understand it is the characters of their minecraft skins that I have created in my head, and I do so with the knowledge of the Hermits consent to this kind of artwork, if I do do artwork of a Hermit ship and one of the creators has requested it not to be done PLEASE tell me, it is guaranteed that I am just unaware of that boundary they've set as I don't watch the hermit streams or use twitter.
I legitimately think the first video game to ever say the word "bisexual" out loud was Metal Gear Solid 2: Sons of Liberty. There is a nonzero chance it was actually the first video game to print "bisexual" in a text format.
Based on what I found, the first ever bisexual character in a video game was Curtis Craig from Phantasmagoria 2 (1996) but I have yet to find out if he says the word "bisexual" in the scene where this is revealed
I once again have to point out for those who've never played mgs2 he says this when asked if another character that goes by the name of vamp is a vampire
HEY BUNNY BY BABY BUGS IS FOR POMNI AND JAX LISTEN NOW
Lyrics below for the lazy so you can understand what I mean
ESPECIALLY THE LAST FEW PARAGRAPHS MAN HOLY SHIT
Do be warned though it's dark and references self harm
hey bunny
please grab that knife right there
take it to the playground and the fair
hey bunny
don't you wanna rip off your fingernails
let the maggots feast while you rot in jail
hey bunny
what the hell is wrong with us
i want to scratch myself with infected rust
hey bunny
what if i lose you too
if we become the monster
together we can always be blue
[music]
hey bunny what's with those evil eyes
bloodshot and crying from pesticides
hey bunny
sorry to bother you
but i think if you're bunny then i'm bunny too
hey bunny
what the hell is wrong with us
i want to scratch myself with infected rust
hey bunny
what if i lose you too
if i become the monster
together we can always be blue
[music]
hey bunny
is that your name again
it's making me laugh 'cause we used to be friends
hey bunny
am i talking in the mirror
i only see myself as what we were
hey bunny
what the hell is wrong with us
i want to scratch myself with infected rust
hey bunny
what if i lose you too
if we become the monster
together we can always be blue
...
hey bunny
what the hell is wrong with us
i...
want to scratch myself with infected rust
hey bunny
what if i lose you too...
if we become the monster
together we can always be blue
Sometimes I wanna be a femboy but I know I would never let anyone see me dressed like that because the way it's been objectified and sexualized makes me sick deep in my guts
This coward went to my dms to bitch about how he's a poor baby who did nothing wrong and only wanted some love, knowing perfectly well, that if they write this bullshit in the comments, you guys will tear them apart.
Well, I'm putting this out here, because this behavior isn't okay. (Sadly i forgor to screenshot my reply before blocking them, and now dms are cleared, sometimes tumblr is a little bit too good with blocking people)
In short, my reply was "this ain't anyone else's problem but yours and you have no right to demand anything from another human being after they told you they are not interested"
Also, while we're on the topic of people being creeps and potential rapists, this one dude from YouTube.
I honestly i should have pretended to agree to take that commission, take the money and block them, because fuck that guy. And i need money.
I'm not encouraging you to harass any of these people, but I'm making sure to let you know about potential rapists, so you could be safe. just block them ffs
Thank you so much for the heads up @elsa-fogen , also I need to reblog this because this is a serious matter and it needs some serious discussion.
First of all, here's a wild idea for this fella: if your partner realises they're sex repulsed, or even just not attracted to you anymore, but you genuinely NEED sex in a relationship to be fulfilled... Just ✨move on✨. You're incompatible, it's not the end of the world. There's almost nine billion humans on this planet, I'm sure you can find someone out there who matches your needs and expectations, no need to hyperfixate on someone who doesn't want you like that. You would just be doomed to suffer, and make the other person miserable as well, as Elsa's comic is trying to show you.
As an aroace, I feel my pulse rising and my anxiety levels skyrocket when guys hit on me, and it's because of people like you and like Elsa's Vox in Incompatible Frequencies. Because I never know how the other person is going to react, sometimes they just drop it (and I guarantee you they all find someone else to date, eventually), but sometimes they will. Just. Keep. Insisting. One even tried to blackmail me into having sex with him. Do you seriously not realise how fucked up that is and how it's not even comparable to "being lead on"?
Also, and I can't stress this enough, it doesn't matter if consent was given INITIALLY. Consent is something that needs to be constantly updated and re-established, especially in a relationship with someone on the aroace spectrum. Many aroace people, in particular those who have never tried to interact sexually before, simply don't KNOW to what extent they are repulsed yet. Sometimes we think we might do it for someone we care about, that love/affection will turn it into a pleasant experience, and while some of us may eventually find it tolerable or even enjoyable, others find out that kisses disgust them, penetration just hurts, hugs feel constricting, caresses make our skin crawl, etc.
And I know that it sucks when the person you want doesn't match your fantasies and desires. I know it can be a blow to the ego, and that some people may even spiral into thinking they're fundamentally unlovable, or that the other person is just "playing games" and "saying nonsense", but I need you to understand this, so listen carefully: this is YOUR problem. And forcing someone into a sexual relationship isn't going to fix it.
What's going to fix it? Here's some very general advice. Stop being delusional and believe people when they say they don't want you. Respect people's autonomy. Don't hyperfixate on someone and don't look for the manic pixie girl/boy who's going to save you from you loneliness (they only exist in fantasy). Start developing deep and meaningful connections that aren't romantic: love comes in many forms and maybe those other types are the ones you're actually lacking, and it's not a void that can entirely be filled by a romantic partner. And finally, for the love of all that is sacred, stop believing in the "one true love". It's just a fantasy, an idealisation. Do you seriously think that, out of billions of people, only ONE is destined for you? Just ONE? Don't you hear how ridiculous it sounds? That's why you don't need to fixate on one person who doesn't want you: find those who do! And if you have a hard time doing that, maybe there's something about yourself you need to change, develop or improve, don't you think?
You're entitled to desire a physically intimate relationship. You're entitled to want or need some love. Feelings, desires and needs are perfectly valid. What you're not entitled to is fulfilling them through extortion, violence and coercion. No person is under any obligation to give romantic and sexual love to you, including if, at some point, they thought they could. If romantic/sexual love is what you want, find people who are willing to give it and put on the work to deserve it. Learn how to communicate, how to listen, how to build a supportive community, how to express your emotions in a safe way, how to share the workload and responsibilities of a relationship. The fact alone that you defined sex repulsion "garbage" and that you're using this comic as jerking off material (why else would you want to see genitals?), instead of a cathartic or instructive reading tells me you're possibly lacking in a few of those departments.
One more thing: what Elsa's Vox did, fulfilling absurd, painful and humiliating requests just to have sex with Alastor, is not romantic. Nor dignified. It's pitiful, creepy and dangerous. Nobody should debase themselves, hurt themselves, or destroy their own future just for "a little bit of love". If a partner asks you to do any of those things, I'm sorry but they never loved you, they literally want you gone. And Alastor DID fulfill his part of the deal in the comic, but he found out it wasn't worth it. He didn't want the relationship anymore, once he had a clearer picture, and he was honest about it with Vox. It was Vox who insisted. Alastor was open about his feelings and regrets, he withdrew his consent (which again, totally fine at any point), and he tried to give Vox MULTIPLE chances to respect his new boundaries and call off the deal after their first intercourse. He even offered to help Vox restore what he lost to make amends, but no. The guy would rather rape him once a year. None of that is love. It's obsessions, disfuncional attachment, sexual attraction, emotional disconnection, not love.
If you've read the post down to this point, congratulation. Now close the internet and think about it. Do not interact, don't send me messages, don't post any comments, just leave a like or reblog it as it is, if you want, but don't try to argue with me. I'll block you without even reading. There's a time for discussion and a time for shutting up and just learning. This is a time to shut up and think. I won't allow any debates about this on my blogs.
HEY BUNNY BY BABY BUGS IS FOR POMNI AND JAX LISTEN NOW
Lyrics below for the lazy so you can understand what I mean
ESPECIALLY THE LAST FEW PARAGRAPHS MAN HOLY SHIT
Do be warned though it's dark and references self harm
hey bunny
please grab that knife right there
take it to the playground and the fair
hey bunny
don't you wanna rip off your fingernails
let the maggots feast while you rot in jail
hey bunny
what the hell is wrong with us
i want to scratch myself with infected rust
hey bunny
what if i lose you too
if we become the monster
together we can always be blue
[music]
hey bunny what's with those evil eyes
bloodshot and crying from pesticides
hey bunny
sorry to bother you
but i think if you're bunny then i'm bunny too
hey bunny
what the hell is wrong with us
i want to scratch myself with infected rust
hey bunny
what if i lose you too
if i become the monster
together we can always be blue
[music]
hey bunny
is that your name again
it's making me laugh 'cause we used to be friends
hey bunny
am i talking in the mirror
i only see myself as what we were
hey bunny
what the hell is wrong with us
i want to scratch myself with infected rust
hey bunny
what if i lose you too
if we become the monster
together we can always be blue
...
hey bunny
what the hell is wrong with us
i...
want to scratch myself with infected rust
hey bunny
what if i lose you too...
if we become the monster
together we can always be blue
