Butts N' Guts

I'm Patrick. I'm 25.Solve for i:9x-7i>3(3x-7u)

[ichorousicarus]

The Highborn Seer, Harlequin Medic Specialist #paintingwarhammer #miniaturepainting #warhammer #warhammer40k #warhammer40000 #warhammerfantasy #ageofsigmar #harlequins #harlequin #eldar

[ichorousicarus]

Apothecary Verikas of Watch Fortress Orion. Iron Hands Aopthecaries are scary! #paintingwarhammer #miniaturepainting #miniature #miniatures #warhammer #warhammer40k #warhammer40000 #warhammerfantasy #ageofsigmar #40k #spacemarines #adeptusastartes #ironhands #deathwatch #apothecary https://www.instagram.com/p/BmB4HHeHjBs/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ou3938noffhz

[quarkmaster]

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[deviantart]

This 50-minute warm-up sketch perfectly captures the ferocity of the clouded leopard, maximizing shapes created with wide brush strokes.

“Clouded Leopard” by TehChan.

[ichorousicarus]

This isn’t any kind of goodbye. This is just me putting out thoughts and feelings.

I put an expiration date on myself when I was younger.

I said I wouldn’t make it past 27.

27 is getting closer and closer and now it’s just around the corner. I’m not that far away from where I was when I made that resolution.

I’m scared. I’m really scared.

There are people I love that I know love me, despite how difficult I can be.

There are things I really enjoy doing.

I’m almost 27. I haven’t met any real success or even clear signs of growth. I look back on the naive kid, the fumbling teen, the absolute monster I was in my 20s... They’re not gone. They’re just buried under miles of anger, self-hatred, and self-destruction. I haven’t changed. I haven’t grown.

I’m not really all that good at anything I can use to survive off of. I’m stuck working jobs I hate and that eat at my mental health even further.

I just don’t see a point in a continuation of this. My friends and family missing me, being hurt, crushed even, is a good reason, but it’s not a good enough reason. I can’t live for other people. I have to live for myself.

How can I live for myself if I don’t even like myself? If I don’t even know how to make me someone I can like?

That’s what hurts most about being alone. When nobody is around, I’m stuck with this person I hate. I bring up mistakes I make and just put myself through emotional agony. I shame myself. I insult myself.

Why let it continue? I don’t fucking know. But for now, I’m sticking around long enough to see why.

[ichorousicarus]

Unnamed Black Templar Deathwatch Veteran of Watch Fortress Orion. #paintingwarhammer #warhammer #deathwatch #warhammer40k #warhammer40000 #warhammerfantasy #ageofsigmar #blacktemplars #spacemarines #adeptusastartes

[ichorousicarus]

Drenn Redblade, Kill Team Cassius #deathwatch #imperium #warhammer #warhammer40k #warhammer40000 #warhammerfantasy #ageofsigmar #paintingwarhammer #miniaturepainting #spacewolves

[ichorousicarus]

Ahriman, Thousands Sons Sorcerer #paintingwarhammer #warhammer #miniaturepainting #warhammer40k #warhammer40000 #warhammerfantasy #ageofsigmar #thousandsons #ahriman #tzeentch #chaos #chaosspacemarines #horusheresy

[ichorousicarus]

I channeled all my love for 80s action heroes into this Sly Marbo - Punisher Edition commission. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #paintingwarhammer #miniaturepainting #warhammer40k #warhammer #warhammer40000 #warhammerpainting #catachan #astramilitarum #slymarbo #warhammerfantasy #ageofsigmar

[ichorousicarus]

Catachan snipers? Catachan snipers. #paintingwarhammer #warhammer40k #warhammer #paintingminiatures #miniatures #miniaturepainting #catachan

[ichorousicarus]

Took a break from commissions to work on something for my own collection. That's right; ya boy is getting into Sigmar! #paintingwarhammer #warhammer40k #warhammer #warhammerfantasy #warhammerfantasybattle #warhammerfantasybattles #ageofsigmar #warhammerageofsigmar #miniatures #miniature #miniaturepainting #sylvaneth #order

[ichorousicarus]

Part 1/18 of a Gloomhaven commission I'm working on! Unlucky you, though, you'll only get to see 1-6 initially. #miniaturepainting #gloomhaven #ageofsigmar #warhammer40k #warhammer #lushwithabrush

[ichorousicarus]

Had myself a nice break and painted up one of my figures from the Overkill box. Ready to get back to commissions! #paintingwarhammer #warhammer40k #deathwatch #darkangels #spacemarine #miniaturepainting

[ichorousicarus]

Post-game of an especially grueling Execution Force game. #culexus #mvp #goat #360noscope #warhammer40k #warhammer #executionforce

[ichorousicarus]

I HAVE COME TO DESTROY YOU #warhammer40000 #warhammer40k #dreadnought

[ichorousicarus]

New minis! I think this group of Gravis Armor is gonna look pretty rad. #warhammer #warhammer40k #warhammer40000 #spacemarines #adeptusastartes

[ichorousicarus]

I got a new crew #warhammer40000 #warhammer40k