spencer ⌖ @idealscape - Tumblr Blog

⚐ blog intro

talk to me ;

⁰ ∝ my name is spencer (♂) ..

✇™ music i like - brand new , earl sweatshirt , glassjaw , frank ocean , la dispute , a$ap rocky , cults , phantogram , circa survive , dance gavin dance , death grips , freddie gibbs , schoolboy q , steve lacy , lucki , mac miller , neon indian , etc .

i dont watch much tv or movies but i like a lot of adult swim and i like almost any movie i watch

im into cameras and fashion and really anything art can do

デ #journal19 ( my posts ) ܀ ∘

#intro post #journal19

every time i sip a little fast and i start to feel my head get warm with nausea, only then will i again experience the embarrassment of my vulnerability and what i once meant. its insane how long it took to see shallowness and deep talent for indifference and pretentiousness. i was profound for the version of you that said id never leave your system; i don’t believe youll leave mine entirely, though—there will always be lacerated areas in what my life was going to be and words i still hold onto from you in my perception. youll keep me sick over how committed i could be to someone who cries for love while i stood there endeavoring; i really never will be in your position of understanding. your awareness will be a secret i never get to find out. everything between us has gaps, and only did blinding me with words and itches feel like narcotic samples keeping me dependent. i put your essence into my skin just for my body to feel synthetic; never would you now have a moment to show some empathy towards me.

#journal19 #writing #this account is gonna just become my livejournal #corny but we need to get feelings out

Justin, if thats you and just a new account, pleeeaaaseeee kill yourself

i’m never on here BUT IM NOT JUSTIN.. i knew him though . funny enough i had this username before him and he begged me if he could have it, when i changed my user he took it and then he got banned yadda yadda and i got it back .. strange dude though 😭

i wanna disappear for a week

#let me travel or some shit #i just want to be alone by myself for a week #left with a car #plus aux and money #journal19

daily affirmations

i will get high again soon

everyone besides the people i love will forget me in the future

ill get a job soon

ill make it in life even if its just barely

my dad cant do shit

my dads side of the family cant do shit

people can actually smell my cologne

my voice wont throw off the fact im not an actual boy

ill keep to myself in school