Brown Eyes & Lungs Filled with Smoke

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[gh0vlz-deactivated20221002-deac]

[anthony-samaniego]

vlady's closet

[museiums]

autumnal wood

[overwelmd]

ren-o-graphics

[idefygravity]

I just really miss my dad.

[sixgrl]

[idefygravity]

I feel like I've changed. I'm more closed off to this world than I've ever been.

And do you think anyone in my life has noticed?

No. Not a single person.

Do you think anyone actually gives a shit about my grief and my overall well-being?

Not a fucking chance.

It feels like a lot of people expect me to be the same person. I've dealt with a loss every year for 4 fucking years now. Losing my grandparents was whatever, honestly. They were old. It happens. But losing my boyfriend? Losing my dad? The two most important men in my life.

How can I not change?

The world feels dark and so fucking hopeless.

Happy fucking new year.

[heavenpureheart]

[remanence-of-love]

[anthony-samaniego]

cleo's garden

[jorgema]

(suspiro)

[idefygravity]

Imma just start telling people to go fuck themselves like it's my job or something cause I'm fucking tired of yall. Straight up.

[halloween-sweets]

[maudit]

[idefygravity]

I HATE when people call you my "ex"

Just because you are dead does not mean we are exes.

We never broke up.

It was the opposite.

You were about to propose.

You are not my ex.

We were VERY much together when he died.

Like I had to pick out his suit to wear in the casket. I have his keys and wallet. I had to pack up all his clothes and shit into boxes.

We were not and are not exes.

He is my late boyfriend.

And if you can't respect that and the space I hold for him in my life and heart, then it's best we go our separate ways right now before this even goes anywhere.

[foxfaer]

Growing.

[idefygravity]

You're a shitty friend AND sister-in-law.

[uchihaitachi]