They way Wook gently brushes and presses his lips against Mu-deok’s is the perfect kiss for her and the perfect way to introduce her to this new profound intimacy in their relationship, because this moment has always been about her, not him.
He kisses her this way because he knows the girl he loves has been touch starved, love starved and emotionally deprived for most of her life which she had lived extremely closeted in a cold, dark cave and desolate, freezing place, heart-breakingly lonely in complete isolation, cut off from the whole world, during her formative years - her entire childhood, puberty, adolescence and the beginning of adulthood.
She had to grow up way too fast, way too soon, taking care of herself the whole time with zero support system whatsoever. Therefore, in some ways, especially regarding physical affection, she is utterly inexperienced, even more than a noble lady like Yun-ok because for Mu-deok physically closeness to another human always meant the danger of death and vulnerability she never dared to show or risk with anyone, except for Wook.
She even admitted to him she had never let anyone close enough to kiss her, so sheltered and guarded she’s been.
So for 15 years, she’s been untouched and utterly untouchable (and not completely by her choice, but out of necessity). And Wook realises all of it. He has never forgotten how she used to get startled, jumpy and frighten, looking scared like a deer in headlights, whenever he came too close or she thought he would initiate anything sexual or joked about physical intimacy in the beginning.
Taking all that into regard and making her his priority, he gives her the softest of kisses, lovely and undemanding, the perfect kiss she deserves in a sunlit garden full of warmth, far away from the cold and desolate cave she used to live, or rather, exist.
So while knowing about her past life, the mere fact, Mu-deok never even attempts to push him away or scolds him for kissing her reveals Wook has succeeded in giving her the first kiss she dreamed about, wanted and needed and how much she trusts him and loves him.
That and her blushing rosy cheeks, and her adorably scuttling away all flustered. Her opened-eyed stunned reaction is merely the shock from the new experience as she’s trying to process what has just happened between them.
After 15 years of loneliness, Mu-deok has found herself a loving and thoughtful lover prepared to give her everything she’s been missing and what was stolen from her.
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