fuck you

[idontcarethough]

relapsing after over a year? or more? feels so stupid. like why do i feel the need to cut myself for something like this. he probably wishes i was dead or wishes i never existed or wishes our lives never touched and im here still suffering deeply two years later incapable of feeling anything but unlovable. cause she’s so pretty and of course you’d wanna marry her and of course you wouldn’t wanna marry me when i’m this sad fuck worthless fat mess of merely a human being

[idontcarethough]

fuck i cant believe i relapsed over this piece of shit

[anxietyproblem]

[idontcarethough]

one of these days i gotta kms man

[toastbutteregg]

[inkskinned]

come back! i can be likable i promise. i can be tepid and entertaining and funny and woundlike i will fit in your palm and you can hold my against your heart and i will sing perfectly and sure it will hurt .

no please love me, everyone in the room has to love me i have to be pink and soft and delightful, terribly edible. it is how i photosynthesize, yes, i drown on land otherwise; i can be so graceful and giving and bittersweet. please, i don't know how to exist gently, you need to pick me up by my spine and when i breathe it needs to be lovely. i can be lovely!

magic. i am going to be magic for you. i will pour out of an empty space and into your throat! my dad talked once about his friend's dead wife - that's what he said, my friend's dead wife - and how the whole town turned up at her funeral and said she was such a good dead wife and how the church filled up with his friends and his family, all there for the still-living widowed groom. i can be like that! i can be in a box with no name! come back, please.

please, i'll be so good and loveable and wonderful. it will be like i am not even in the room.

[idontcarethough]

i wanna relapse soooooooooo badddddd what the fuck

[thebelfry]

Hi, I’m here to propose that A.A. Milne’s distinctive syntax in the Winnie-the-Pooh books is a major origin of modern Capital Letters Used For Emphasis On The Internet. Observe:

(in which Pooh wryly self-deprecates)

(in which Eeyore masters modern sarcasm)

(in which Eeyore is vagueblogging)

(in which Owl says something i would absolutely type in the YOOL 2017)

(In which Eeyore continues to be a shining example to us all)

(in which Pooh describes a Big Mood)

(in which Piglet has a Relatable Experience)

I could go on, but you can read the books and find your own. It’s a weirdly modern-feeling layer to an old, thoroughly enjoyable story and most of the original Pooh books are online for free. I cited from this online text upload of the book. Enjoy!

[idontcarethough]

would it have hurt!!!!! to have said goodbye!!!!!!!!!!! just a goodbye nothing else just so i wouldnt be waiting. or like why did you say all those nice things??????? why did you say you care when you clearly didnt!!! why did you act as if i was important to you. i dont get it

[idontcarethough]

im always amazed at how life can get so incredibly worse even when you think you’ve hit rock bottom

[oddlyunadventurous]

[cyberxbattalion]

[segamascott]

[barryhbo2018]

Bill Hader, Andy Samberg and Jason Sudeikis by Art Streiber for Cargo Magazine, May 2006

[littletonomanners]

maybe all i need in this life is Andy samberg in tiny shorts

fucking Jesus H Christ on a bike

[idontcarethough]

i think im so bitter and such an overall bad person that im not capable of building a real human relationship and im inherently broken and rotten at my core and should push myself away to stop myself from hurting others with my self destructive behavior

[idontcarethough]

relapsing after like 1 year and a half clean is so pathetic i should literally just kms lmfao