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compilation of the trashy/horrible things I jot down

[ifalltoohardtocare]

just heard a song a boy sang to me when I was 16 and then he broke my heart and now I'm crying about it and I don't understand why because I found the love of my life who would never hurt me ever so that's neat

[ifalltoohardtocare]

thank you

I hope you're happy, but

the sky is still the sky

without you, and I'm not

surprised by that anymore.

I've found the one whom

my soul loves. I no longer

ache for you.

You've found someone too,

and for the I'm genuinely

happy for you.

I hope you treat her better.

And don't lead her on,

or cancel dates,

or remind her of why it won't work.

I hope you appreciate the

love she gives you, even if

you didnt appreciate mine.

I sincerely hope it

works out

and that you may one day

know the love I do.

The love I hoped you'd give me.

My best friend is

one million times the

man you are.

He loves me and

respects me and

prioritizes me.

I'm glad you hurt me,

because you led me

to him. And I'm

never letting go.

[ifalltoohardtocare]

I love you

There were craters in my heart from everyone before you

But you came around and filled them with love, and suddenly I'm brand new

Thank you

[generationgenevieve]

I Deserve

I deserve someone to love me so much that they can’t be without me.

I deserve someone who knows all of the useless trivia about me.

I deserve to be loved so effortlessly and beautifully.

I DESERVE SO MUCH.

I deserve to be taken on spontaneous dates.

I deserve to have songs written about me.

I deserve the sun, the moon, and all of the stars.

I DESERVE TO BE LOVED.

and to not be taken for granted.

and to not be used.

and to not be a play toy.

I DESERVE SO MUCH.

and I finally understand.

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Reblogging for relevance.

[ifalltoohardtocare]

Fuck dude I really just wanna kiss someone and love on someone

[ifalltoohardtocare]

[ifalltoohardtocare]

Still passionate about education but wanna be a doctor dude

[ifalltoohardtocare]

[generationgenevieve]

They will tell you you’re pretty or interesting or wonderful until they see your body and then they stop

[generationgenevieve]

I still feel like I’m never enough.

[generationgenevieve]

Kiss me in your car when the ac isn’t working and we’re sweating and gross but you still think I’m beautiful

[generationgenevieve]

There’s a lot that I don’t understand and I’m not gonna pretend I do, but I know that I’m lonely as fuck and I need someone to love me.

[generationgenevieve]

“You drink to love me and I drink to forget you.”

[generationgenevieve]

the land of 10,000 reasons to stay

I live for the summers.

The warm, sunny,

 humid days.

Days spent on the lake, 

catching fish, failing at water-skiing.

Bonfires with people that matter.

Endless days and long nights.

I live for the Octobers.

The dry, crisp breeze that 

blows through the autumn colored trees.

Haunted amusement parks 

that get less scary as I grow older.

Hot tub parties and pumpkin spice lattes.

I live for the winters.

The call of Christmastime,

the peppermint hot cocoa

we drink as we decorate the tree.

Cozy sweaters and Ugg boots.

Seeing family members, sometimes 

for the first time in a while.

Lefse.

Watching the snow begin to

melt, and hoping spring will one day come.

I live for the Marches,

and the Aprils, and the Mays.

For seemingly endless 

thunderstorms.

The ones that knock out

the power.

And the day when life returns, and

it is once again lush, 

and green, and wonderful.

I live for Minnesota.

Love, family, security.

The frigid cold, the humid, 

disgusting heat.

The good, the bad, the ugly.

I live for it all.

What I need to know is,

can I ever live for anything else?

[generationgenevieve]

And just like that, I wasn't ok anymore

[generationgenevieve]

It’s okay darling, for I too have the days when I don’t want to get out of my bed

[generationgenevieve]

but the sky is still the sky without you. And I’m not surprised by that anymore

[generationgenevieve]

I’m always thinking about you. It eats me alive. I think about how much I want you. How much I need you. I think about how I can’t have you. I think about our future. How one day you’ll hold me and tell me you love me. How one day we’ll watch our kids playing in the backyard while sipping wine like the classy ass adults we’re gonna be. I think about what I would do if I hadn’t ever met you. I think about what’ll happen when I see you again. I think about you. Only you. Us. And it hurts. But I like the pain.