It has been a while.
It has been a while since my *wife* has angered me to the point of questioning my own sanity. Today, she muttered under her breath that she hoped I fell down the stairs. About an hour prior to that, she let me know she did not want to be around me. Probably because I had just asked what the hell was wrong with her after being fussy w me because she was thirsty and wanted āanythingā to drink. Ironically, I had just offered her the option to stop for a drink at a place to which she replied, ānah but donāt let me stop you.ā
Then she cried after we separated when she made her little didnāt want to be around me comment. When we reunited she continued to cry but Iām at a point where she can cry all she wants because Iām not sacrificing my feelings for her tears anymore. Especially after saying those hurtful things. To be honest the first comment I mentioned makes me feel very unsafe. She loves to throw around how unsafe she feels around me but cannot articulate why. I feel like it is one of those moments where she is emotionally manipulative and she is actually wishing ill will on me. It is what made it hard for me to trust her before and it has been 3 weeks and happening again.