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26 | HE/They/It + comfortable with most neopronouns just ask | Queer

Comfortable with questions via DM or asks

Dissociative disorder(s) / Autism / PTSD / Psychotic disorder(s) / Scizoaffective / Religious trauma / Bipolar / OCD / Sexual trauma

I am not professionally diagnosed because I live in hell and can't afford it nor do I want it on my permanent medical records, but I do however do my research

The Gang Thus Far

❤️🤞 - Scotch/Scottie/ Vash if you wanna be really niceys to me♡ - the suffererrrrrr, I own this blog, technically

✨️👍- Host👍 [SC] - pilots the flesh, more ok with being here latley but is usually more active on their other blog (hey please blog here for sysstuff so we dont have to cross reblog for record keeping)

🗡📯 - Nails - doesn't want to be here but may be active sometimes, complicated individual

💥🖤 - [PJ] - doesn't want to be here but is being included anyways

🦊🔥 - Fox - functional👍

¿¿¿ - guy editing this for you all

We don't have definite roles but we do influence the fronter(s) mood/behavior/speech patterns heavily, idk:/

Honorable mentions:

Geir 2016-2018 our love our life our anger

PB 2019-2021 furry

MD/N 2013-2016 Scared little girl

Pre-2013 me, whoever you were

#pinned post #this is a work in progress #❤️🤞#✨️👍#🗡📯#💥🖤#🦊🔥

Ex friend kill yourself challenge

#💥🖤#FUCK THAT GUY I HATE HIM I HATE HIM SO MUCH HE SERIOUSLY NEEDS TO FUCKING JUMP OFF A BRIDGE #the most passive aggressive abusive retard on EARTH literally FUCK HIM #he sits there and bitches and moans about how hes sooo unlike his parents and hes broken the ancestral curse and shit #and then IS LIKE “OHHH YOU BETTER NOT BE FAKING YOUR SYMPTOMS OR IM GOIJG TO BERATE YOU” KYS KYS KYS #no one has been more deserving of being cut out of my life than him not only was he abusing ME but also MY OTHER FRIENDS #piece of shit fucking loser i fucking hate him so much i hope he chokes fucking scumbag

"The incestuous sexual and emotional abuse is actually integral to my ✨️lore✨️"

#❤️🤞#trying to make friends with other systems and other fictives and im like...#damn i think i might be too fucked up for yall i dont want to uhhh make anyone depressed

Fox fronted last night after making 3 phone calls for us (thank you) but its really unfortunate how bad he dissociates and how tired he is:/

#✨️👍#i just feel bad that hes the self proclaimed “functional” one out of us

Also we got excited for the Soul Eater Brotherhood tease and I wanna state this before anything actually happens, but if Geir wakes the fuck up because of this hes gonna end up amalgamating into a Trigun fictive Also and it will probably be Livio. Place your bets now guys

#❤️🤞#i think its gonna be livio like almost certainly #1 vote for WW from Nails and a vote for no one from Fox #host also thinks WW you people are crazy

Apparently played disco elysium for like 2 hours longer than i remember? I just dont remember talking to a few ppl at allllll rip

#mañana is my favorite character too... sad #❤️🤞

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💥🖤 was fronting? I think... idk latleys been weird we've been feeling WEIRD and its because of the weather... the sun always does this to us and the first few days of good weather are always kinda intense

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Continuing the Sun is Evil theory, we had another warm day with full sun and one of my ex boyfriends refollowed me on Instagram and it genuinely made me feel like i was being killed

#the sun has it out for me and rhe summer time always has some stupid shit happen that scares me really bad #✨️👍

I think one of my biggest fears is that my brother might assault me again, either............ the same way or with violence this time, either way, im actually terrified of this happening and the only thing I can really do to prevent it is avoid him. Sad.

#hes shown me time and time again that hes not mature enough and is too chronically online-#and does all his moral posturing from the position of someone who LOVES harassing people (lolcow enjoyer)#so like... i know deep down that our realtionship was fucked from day one #its just unfortunate that hes harassing me Again and is trying to destroy my relationships Again and is calling me crazy Again #i thought things were going fine actually! i got him a sentimental gift because i felt like he really has improved himself over the years!#but he gets so wrapped up in his own unhappiness that he has to make everyone else around him miserable #and he HAS to try and ruin my life because IM happier than he is and he HATES that #i dont know... i just dont know #i cant talk to literally anyone in my family about it because my mom is kinda an idiot and my dad is out of the picture #i could talk to my other brothers about it but one of them is younger than both of us and i dont want to put all this on him #and my older brother is also a fucking idiot and in the middle of a divirce because he keeps abusing his wife and kids #maybe everyone in my family is all fucked up and none of us should like... talk or be around eachother #because its whats best for all of us #idk... idk...#i understand all the nuance that goes into sibling CSA and how damaging it is for everyone involved and how it stems from auxiliary abuse #like i Know what hes been through and i know hes been hurt too but he insists on taking it out on me? like... why #i know im not a good brother but i also dont deserve this and i dont do anything to hurt him anymore #yet he still hurts me constantly #idk man #✨️👍#❤️🤞

Let it be known, I picked the name Nails way before stmp/gze came out. Do not associate me with him.

#insane coincidence that Nai is the name they gave to him in stmp/gze #idk why im posting this i just thought of it and was like “do not ever compare me to Nai i am not him one bit”#im like Way more normal #“and im a 98knives fictive” yeah yeah that too #🗡📯

#💥🖤

I dont even know why im upset man everything is literally fine

#the horrors...#idk rn its all of us

Self visualization made easy through the medium of Picrew

Vessel/Host, whatever you want to call it:

Scotch:

Nails:

Pj:

Fox:

#this was fun:)

*snaps fingers in the headspace* Ok focus you guys, who all here is a Trigun Fictive be honest

#Scotch and Nails are obvious but the rest of you... fess up #✨️👍

Today was so ass man jesus christ

#im dspressed as shit again today i hate this #🗡📯

I get this feeling sometimes as if the world for just a moment feels more real than usual, ill look out at the sky and feel like everything crawled to a halt for just a moment and nothing in the universe moves for even a second

#a beautiful sunset or the slow fade to gray from my living room skylights #i dont know what it is #✨️👍

Mh the divorce, how did i forget

#turns out having parents who hate eachother is actually deeply traumatic oops #my fears of confrontation and asking questions and wanting to understand but not being able to... mhmhmhm...#ruh roh #✨️👍#❤️🤞#🦊🔥#<- brother idk we are all sitting around together rn

✨️👍: trying to log into their blog

Scotch: My blog

#please let me log into my own blog please #No♡#✨️👍#❤️🤞

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