Esraa

I don’t mind having a ghost in my bed

[iisraaa]

“I’m waiting to live,

Waiting to die.”

- Charles Bukowski

[iisraaa]

Giving more.. giving up more

[iisraaa]

What was the very first thought that hits your mind when you wake up in the morning?

Nothing just wishing I don’t wake up

[iisraaa]

What's your best hidden gem spot you've ever discovered on a random drive?

Idk, Anywhere away from responsibilities

[iisraaa]

في غرفة تمتلأ بالفراغ

أشعر بالوخز في قلبي وأظنه نبضا

أضحك كأني سأجد الراحة قريبا

[iisraaa]

اتساءل إلى متى يمكن لذلك القلب الضعيف ان يصمد؟

مرت الفكرة في رأسي سريعا، سنة؟ سنتين؟

متصالحة مع الفكرة، كرهان عابر عادي على الجو

[iisraaa]

I hoard pain just like people hoard money.

[iisraaa]

Clearly, the process didn't have enough matcha or a good playlist to guide it. Want to vent about it?

Venting sounds healthy but I tend to choose distraction

Thanks though :)

[iisraaa]

Look at the bright side, at rock bottom, you don't have to worry about falling. What happened?

Well I trusted the process, the process had a very dark sense of humor

[iisraaa]

What's the next destination on your road trip bucket list?

At this point? Rock bottom

[iisraaa]

can be like this, you wake up wanting to die but you reach out for a healthy salad

[iisraaa]

This week has been probably one of the worst and I don’t think I fully understand what’s been happening. I feel like I’m still in denial, clinging to a foolish hope and making silly compromises to maintain my current comfortable status quo. A whirlwind of negative thoughts and feelings buzzes through my mind like bees and I can’t seem to figure out what to do.

[iisraaa]

AI is that stupid

[iisraaa]

I wanna fade away

I want my atoms to dissolve to loosen into something lighter, lighter so the wind carry it away

[iisraaa]

This urge in me to heal the world, kiss every wound, love everyone, swallow every sorrow.

I can’t tell where I end and where suffering begins.

This is not kindness, it is an erosion.

[iisraaa]

grandma mode

[iisraaa]

You can’t get panicked in a jungle

[iisraaa]

اسوا حاجة في الاوقات دي انك بتضطر غصب عنك تشوف الاراء الخرا بتاعة الرجل الابيض