the damned

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Send me three names + a number...

fuck, marry, kill

marry, cuddle, sleep with

fuck, take a bullet for, murder

adopt, be adopted by, marry 

kill, betray, have on your zombie apocalypse team

seduce, steal from, serenade

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[shadxwwalker]

Affection

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Maxine has been unfocused the following days. The night during the vampire attack when she thought he’d lost Otto was buried in her head. In reality, after all these months looking for her family without results, she realized the possibility of them being gone forever. She couldn’t lose Otto, too. Otto was the only family she has and she couldn’t risk separating from the other fae again. Stuck in her own head with fear confusing her even more she didn’t know what to do next. Should she run away with Otto far away, hide from the vampires? Or does she continue searching for her realm and her family when she knew they could’ve been gone a long time ago? During these deep reflections and questioning, the Shifter hung around. Many nights from afar the skinwalker watched but tonight he approached and Maxine could sense her emotions rising, confused, worried, on defense. She didn’t expect the attention given to her and she flinched, moving away with a wild look on her face. “What do you think you’re doing??”

He didn’t have an answer for her. Not one that would make sense to him or the fae staring wildly back at him. It was something he would have done with Max, taking the chance to steal a touch but this wasn’t Max. His relationship with Maxine had been tense. She made it a point to share how much she hated him and why his place in Max’s life was unnecessary. What he should have done was walk away but there was something that remained in his mind. He’d told Max that he was his pack and by way of his connection to Max, then so were Otto and Maxine, even Ace. His curled his fingers into himself, unsure of what to say. Swallowing the uneasiness in the form of a lump in throat, Shadow shook his head, “I’m not doing anything.” He wasn’t. It was a natural reaction to try and comfort her. Why? Still he couldn’t put it in to words but it was still natural for him. “Why do you keep avoiding me?” Shadow couldn’t stop himself from asking. He moved closer to her, waiting for her answer. “Do you…Are you afraid of me?”

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[ OTTO ! i'm covering ma'x ears coz -

maxine is enjoying it tho... i think big otto is maxine's companion, honestly. they're both slutty. ]

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Send me “Drink up, baby” and my muse will make a drunken confession!

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PUT A NAME IN MY ASK AND I’LL TALK ABOUT SOMEONE I KNOW/ONCE KNEW WITH THAT NAME

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[burningbodhi]

eye of the beholder

Timeline: 17th September 2023, Sunday, some time after dinner Location: Madam's Brothel Mood: Curious Attire: White tee, dark jeans, barefoot, glasses, Ace inspired bun

It was the perfect opportunity and as soon as Bodhi laid eyes on the brothel's temporary residence he struck. Well not immediately. He took a moment to do what he had caught the stranger doing, more than once, Bodhi stood and stared. With his arms folded over his chest, he took in the thin frame, delicate features, and long hair. He didn't introduce himself when he entered the greenhouse. It was one of his favorite places on Madam's property. There were plants but by far what soothed him the most were the various herbs, his nose detected. Tonight they were overwhelming and before he could make either a proper or improper introduction, a sneeze ripped through him and the silence around them. He shrugged, deciding not to over his hand after that display. When widened and what he could only assume were frightened eyes, met his, Bodhi smiled, "I promise I was staring. Just like you. Probably not as good as you." Was that weird. It was definitely weird but Bodhi didn't stop there, "Why do you stare? I'm not that weird looking am I?"

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It was a quiet night and even though Max wanted to go out again, he didn't dare to go by himself. He wanted to go with Ace again but he didn't think the human would like that very much. He already tagged along last night and well, although it wasn't bad, he was unsure how the human would take it if he acted clingy... He didn't want to be clingy. He misses Otto - and, looking around the brothel's greenhouse, he thought of his friend more, tears peaking from the corners of his eyes. Otto would've loved this place, he thought, jumping in fear when he heard a loud noise. It sounded like some animal was hacking something from the depths of their guts. Chest still pounding, Max turned to look and found one of Madame's children staring at him. "Okay..." He remarked after they disclosed they were staring at him. Max was cautious and kept his eyes on the other. "I don't stare," he lied but he didn't care. He didn't know this person to be having any type of conversation with them. "Might not be weird looking but you are weird," he said without thinking, head tilted to the side. "You look like a puppy...." He continued and thought of Otto once again. This person reminded him of Otto. And if Otto was here, Otto would yell at him. Otto would tell him not to talk to strangers.

[acexbrenegan]

remains of the day

Timeline: 16th September 2023, Saturday, late night Location: Outside Madam's Boarding House, Sanguine, Louisiana. Mood: Exhausted, Sad, Slightly overwhelmed Attire: See above

Can I - can I go with you wherever you're going tonight? I... Just don't want to be alone..."

Ace thought he'd gotten away. Even believed that he was crafty and stealthy enough to slip away every morning and night before Max roused himself to wake. It was a foolish thought. This wasn't the past. Years of military training had started to fade and yet he liked to believe that he was still that person. Honorable, brave, and even innocent.

His lips still burned from the warmth of the slim cigarette between his lips. He didn't finish it, instead tossing it to the ground and putting it out with the toe of his boot. He knew the moment he looked around at the voice behind him that he wouldn't be able to say no but more than that he'd be reminded of his failures and even his sins.

Slowly, he exhaled, turning to finally face Max, "You sure you want my company?"

Insecurity plagued his words but there also existed a sliver of pettiness in his response. He could see the desire that lingered in Max's eyes and it wasn't for him. It was the home he once had with Otto and the love or something like it that he had with the wolf. Internally he chastised himself for caring and more than that allowing himself to sink into a hole of despair that prompted him to attack and hurt those around him. It was his own loneliness. His heartbreak. Even his shame. He too longed for someone, something. Maxine often visited him in his dreams and while he couldn't explain it, there was something missing in his life due to Shadow and even Otto's absence. He seemed fractured. Missing a part of his whole self that he was desperate to find and yet too proud to admit.

"I don't leave because of you."

The words could seem trivial but they were important for him to say. Explain his constant absence.

"Its hard for me to sleep..."

Stopping there and not daring to speak of the images that lingered in his mind. Half loss and mostly shame. A blood bond that continued to fade and yet left him with images of another fae, his abduction, and the pleasure and pain he'd endured at the hands of their shared captor.

"I don't want to disturb you."

He'd yet to look away. Yet to walk away without Max.

"Just this once. You can come with me. Grab a jacket. There's a breeze tonight."

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"You sure you want my company? I don't leave because of you. It's hard for me to sleep… I don't want to disturb you."

Max blinked and for a moment, he wondered if this was a mistake. He's imposing and pushing his company onto someone who probably didn't want him. A responsibility. He almost turned around after hearing Ace speak but then the last words spoken somehow he knew, even if he couldn't explain it, he felt Maxine had to do with it. He stood staring, waiting for Ace to turn him away. But he clung to the last words, thinking he felt the same. He didn't want to disturb the human but at the same time, he longed for the attention. The company. And no, not just by anybody. Maxine brewed inside him and reminisced the time she spent with Ace.

It might've been the cold of the night that colored Max's face but he knew they turned red. He needed to suppress Maxine and her invasive thoughts.

"Just this once. You can come with me. Grab a jacket. There's a breeze tonight."

Max's eyes widened after hearing that the human was letting him tag along tonight. He ran quickly to get his old jacket and ran as fast as he could almost tripping, in fear that it was a tactic to get rid of him.

He sighed a breath of relief when he came out and found Ace still waiting for him. He stepped next to the human, stuffing his hands in his pockets ready to match the other's stride. He wasn't going to be a burden and he'd try to keep up.

After a minute, he finally spoke again, "Where - where do you go? At night? When you leave?"

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The Hunter's Moon - October 28th Shadow's Return

Also known as a sanguine or 'blood' moon, the term Hunter's Moon is used traditionally to refer to a full moon that appears during the month of October. Traditionally, hunters used this full moon of October to stalk deer and to spot foxes at night as they prepared for the coming winter months. With field reaped and bare, visibility increased and created an ease with their hunt.

What does this mean for Sanguine?

With the days quickly passing, friends and foe from the past will make their return for both feast and hunt. An Alpha of sorts will reclaim what he's lost while introducing those who have earned a semblance of his trust in the search for safety and survival.

It will also serve as a season of new beginnings for beings both blessed and cursed by the moon.

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Timeline: 12th October 2023, late afternoon Location: Secret Location Pacific NW (US) Mood: Insomnia infused frustration Attire: See above…

Shadow is aware that a return to Sanguine is necessary and he's been counting down the days, unsure of what he'll find or discover upon his return to his former home. Years have passed since his last conversation with Max and the fae's exit from his life. He was left with Otto as his protector/guardian of sorts. Their circle grew, encountering other beings, supernatural of course, who were displaced by the calamity that occurred within the various realms. Among their new acquaintances and companions was a novice witch and seer by the name of Navin. An inexperienced and reckless being who had become more of a younger sibling to Shadow and Otto. Their visions were helpful and their growing confidence in their craft had protected Shadow more than once. They'd also inherited an even more reckless vampire who was in disagreement with the attempts that had been made to bring down the fae realm and while their presence was less than ideal, they were still welcome. Navin and the vampire were appealing to benefactors, who eager to give and support. Shadow was still unaware if this was a natural occurrence or some type of spell. It wasn't until they settled in the western states that he encountered a wolf. Young and abandoned by their family, Shadow also took them in. Stressed by Otto's decision to leave first and return to Sanguine, Shadow had to prepare the rest of his companions for their journey. Out of them all, only Navin was aware of the possibilities they were facing.

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