exposed;

fathers, be good to your daughters. daughters will love like you do.

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Callan just called. She is on her way here from Plumfeld with Carlyle. They left... they really did it. They’re on their way.

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sorenroth​:

You had different circumstances with the whole cult thing, man. By leaving you also gave them the opportunity to leave and start a new, better life too. It’s not your fault they didn’t follow. 

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Yeah, but I could’ve stayed. I chose my siblings over my wife and child and that’s fucked up. Just between you and me, I’ve been thinking about going back so that I can be with them. 

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sorenroth​:

Yeah, I’ve been thinking about a bunch of shit – how Colbie’s a real life superhero for delivering him at home and how I never knew I could love someone so much and how shitty of parents I had. ‘Specially my dad. I don’t ever want to be shitty to Moon.

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I feel like since I moved out here and didn’t tell Callan that we were leaving Plumfeld that I’ve been a royal jackass to Carlyle. Like shittiest dad of the year award goes to me, probably. 

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Y’know, I really thought I enjoyed being a night owl until Moon was born. I never believed people when they said, “you’re gonna be exhausted.” Now I’m humbled to admit, I get it. I fucking get it. I’m beat, but I guess he’s worth it.

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You feel any different now that you’re a dad? I won’t even forget when I realized I had a kid. I mean, I watched my baby come out of Callan, I was in complete shock, but when then realizing that she was like... mine. I still can’t comprehend it. 

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savyscott​:

Really? I feel awkward ‘n shy.

Um, he’s studying and working and taking care of his kids. I just try and stay out of the way. Every time we talk, I get lectured, and I’m not about it. That’s pretty much it, I guess.

Well you’re not awkward. And you don’t seem too shy to me. You know, I’ve never realized just how pretty your eyes are...

I get lectured by Cal all the time too. 

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leahsimms​:

If it makes you feel any better…I like to say I’m living life for the both of us. For Koby and I. It keeps me going, you know? Experiencing all I experience and living life to the fullest. Because I know that’s what he’d be doing. 

And you don’t feel guilty?

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jacimaes​:

You would have to drag me back to Plumfeld. I can’t imagine ever, ever going back there. It was awful. Don’t worry. I got my own brains. Unwell how? 

She thinks momma and daddy are still alive. And Tinley and Matty too. She doesn’t remember anything about the night we left. Cal’s worried, but Britton isn’t. I just wanted to tell you what was going on. I know they forget to clue you in on what’s happening sometimes. 

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bogoodacre​:

Nah, he could fuck it up somehow. Don’t underestimate him. 

Don’t hold ‘em to a low standard and maybe he’ll rise...

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calabrahams​:

“Hey, watch it,” Cal teased, slapping the back of Ilia’s head, “But for real you should see her naked. Whew.” The redhead smirked to himself, the image of an unclothed Maisie in his arms whirling around in his head. He’d go over to her place after dinner, as he did most nights nowadays, and he could hardly wait. “Ah, I don’t know if it’s so much miss as I worry about her…” He shrugged, “She was my wife. I want her safe and free and happy with or without me. I don’t think that’ll ever change.” Cal still regretted that last night he spent with Oaklyn more than anything. As beautiful and romantic as it was, it had ended so tragically he wished it would’ve never been done. He wished he’d spoken quieter, his lips pressed against her ear. He wished his family could’ve stayed safe. A rock felt like it was forming in the center of his chest, and Cal coughed, quickly changing the subject before he thought about it too much, “So…what’s going on with you, man? Any girls?” 

Brothers were more fun than sisters. At least to Ilia. Growing up, he ran around with Sunny and Salley, mainly. After his first meeting with Pastor Plumfeld, he felt too awkard being around his brothers. They still worked in the slaughter house together and joked around at dinner. They would still sit next to each other in the living room for a real bible study with their parents every night, but something about knowing what he did made being around Cal and Matty tense. He still wished he would be included in their little group, but he couldn’t get past his own shit. Now that they were in Brooksville, and had been for a few years, Ilia was feeling more comfortable around Cal. That, and getting to talk about girls with his sisters was awkward. Sunny didn’t want to hear about the girls Ilia was seeing. Cal talking about Maisie naked made Ilia blush and giggle a little bit. She did have a ridiculous ass. “I miss Callan, but damn, I wish Carlyle was here. There’s not a day I don’t think about her. Or miss her. Or wish Callan would just bring her to see me.” Being a dad was something Ilia loved back in Plumfeld. That’s the only thing he missed though. “Girls? Uh, yeah, I guess. I’ve been hanging out with Savannah a lot. She’s cool. Different than Callan... I’ve hooked up with a few girls I work with at the pub, but I dunno. I almost feel guilty about it.” Ilia felt like this throat was closing and he couldn’t breathe, but Dr. Amy talked him through how to handle anxiety attacks like this before. “Wanna take a step outside?” Ilia asked... he had picked up smoking and felt like he could use a cigarette. 

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savyscott​:

Mm, you’re so warm. Agh…I’m sober tonight, and I’m normally not. 

I think that’s why I’m a little weird. M’sorry.

It’s okay. I like you like this. You seem clear ‘n level headed. 

Hey, can I ask you something..... what’s going on with you and Miles? I know you’re brother and sister, but you sure don’t act like it. 

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jacimaes​:

Yeah, but only a little. I don’t really like to think about it, so we’ve been just talking about more normal sister stuff. Though, she did mention Tin the other day too and I couldn’t tell if she was joking or not. Why?

I just wanna make sure you know we’re never going back. Don’t... don’t listen to the stuff Salley says. Cal thinks she’s unwell. 

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leahsimms​:

Yeah, I hate the unknowns too. And it feels so weird to me that I’ll live longer than Koby ever did. He just seemed so grown up at twenty. I’m just curious to see who I’ll be then. Someday I’ll turn twenty-one and have a big, birthday party. I’ll get my own house, and live a real life and it’s just…weird and sad that he won’t. That I’ll get to have experienced these things before he ever did. 

Yeah. Same with Matty. He had two daughters and I have one and I hope one day I’ll have more than just the one, but it’ll be weird, getting older knowing Matty will forever be 21.