a little messy and too emotional to be considered as normal meta but hear me out pls...
i don't really understand why haru is called more masculine and aki is called feminine (in terms of behaviour)
yeah sure his physical appearance closer to classic masculine but
girlfailure vibes + he's a literal housewife both in zeno remake and zeno daily life true endings + a real man from our world who experience such deep emotions and be able to analyze society so well from the point of view of cognitive empathy is a VERY rare case and it's not masculine at all in traditional masculinity context (usually, toxic masculinity and a desire to compensate for what they've experienced make them incredibly aggressive, dominant assholes) + his behavior is extremely helpful, comfortable, and convenient due to his trauma + he's emotionally passive and obsessive as fuck at the same time and the main theme of his lore is romantical love
AND I HAVE NOT YET MENTIONED THE MOST WEIRD THOUGHT.
UNLIKE AKI, HARU SUBCONSCIOUSLY DESIRES TO CONSUME EVEN WHILE IN REMISSION, WHICH IS MUCH CLOSER TO MONSTROUS FEMININITY IN ITS ESSENCE THAN TO CLASSICAL VIOLENCE MORE OFTEN COMMITTED BY MEN (there are not so many cannibals among criminals in general, and it often happens that they act in tandem with women who do help them hide not simply out of fear + women eat the meat themselves and sometimes even goad their partners in crime)
haru's motive is an obsessive, all-consuming love. he doesn't want to destroy the object of his affection; he wants to merge with it, to make it a literal part of himself forever.
I MEAN.... this is a VERY twisted and fucked up version of the feminine-coded ideal of unconditional, all-accepting love and unity. look at the myth of demeter and persephone, the vagina dentata, the image of dysfunctional, «devouring mother» or simply the lover who says «i love you so much i could eat you up»âand literally means it (dostoevsky, bataille, crane and a bunch of other authors writed about this feeling!!)
haru doesn't really want to kill aki. he wants to keep him. permanently. internally. a love so absolute it cannot tolerate separation, only union.
tldr idk for me haru is more female-coded than aki who's literally positions himself as his protector/mentor, is much more active, aggresive and drives the whole action almost everytime xD (plus haru literally supports him through most of the game events by verbally comforting aki, insisting that they should continue).
p.s. yeah he's A VERYYY BIG SCARY ALPHA MALE in maduzu's official works.
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