Ridiculously long and annoying college/life rant under the cut, because if I don't let it all out I might explode
Like I said earlier, the course I wanted is not available in my city, and let me tell you why it sucks.
To get into college we need to take a two day test, which consists of all of the subjects they teach in high school + foreign language (english or spanish) + an essay. When I was signing up for that test several months ago, I had a plan.
My original plan's outcome was different from my most recent one's, but it started out the same: going to college to get a degree in english. After signing up, I was preparing myself to get a certain score which would allow me to take that specific course. Everything I did was with that particular score in mind.
Prior to the test, I changed my mind and decided I wanted to be a translator instead of an english teacher. It didn't interfere with my plan at all at that point, so I was fine. I could just focus on the test and think about the rest afterwards. Which I did.
I had a 5 year plan figured out, what I'd do during and after college, when I'd look for a job and how everything would work out. Until today happened.
While applying for college, I found out about the different english degrees you can get here. Now, I did some search a few months ago, even before the test, to help me figure things out, but I didn't find anything about all of the different types of courses. I didn't know. This is all my fault.
The one that's available here is for teachers. The one for translators is kind of far away from here, and it would be a huge hassle to travel for about two hours every morning and during lunch time. And four hours confined with other people with nothing to do everyday would make me go insane in no time.
So basically, my plan fell apart in an instant today. I have no plan. None. At all. And the bad thing about it is that it's starting to feel like 2011, when I was finishing high school and had no idea what I was going to do with my life. And that's bad for obvious reasons, to me at least, because I remember how I felt and how I handled things back then.
I have two options here: try my hand at another course (I'm currently signed for veterinary and psychology) and work out another 5 year plan, or I could just go with my original plan.
The first one would include trying to figure out a way to get the hell out of here and build a carrer in a different place (which was included in my previous plan, because fuck this country), and I have no odea how to make that work. The second one involves getting a teaching degree and moving to Japan because why not. But that would also involve me being a teacher and moving to a non-english speaking country. Plus, my japanese is shit. And I'm a shitty teacher.
I have until friday to figure everything out, and the pressure is driving me nuts.
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