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foreverwithtswift

us: PALM TREES THEORIES!1!1!1!1

taylor:

wildestdreamsss29

My one and only Christmas wish is to get a follow from my idol @taylorswift 😭❤️

illrememberthismoment

I have never related more

My one and only wish as well taylor

speaknow

Why She Disappeared - poem by Taylor Swift

jacie-loves-taylor

No one will ever be able to take away my bond with Taylor because she helped me when I was voiceless and had no friends. She showed me light when I was on the ground crying. Forever thankful for a role model & friend like you, @taylorswift 💗💞

diagon-alli

Taylor Swift + tweets about Christmas (1/?) (x)

illrememberthismoment

Quality and quantity here

illrememberthismoment

Hey Taylor,

I know you are probably still extremely busy even though Tour is over. I know you are probably enjoying some long awaited sleep and relaxation that you completely deserve. I know you are probably with your family and friends or in the studio making more music for us to listen to. However I was wondering if you could take the time to read this message from me, not even respond if you don’t want to, just read it. I know I’m probably not the only one who messages you. However something if going on in my life and you are the only one that I feel like can help me, that can give me advice through this.

Yesterday I had I believe around ten people who I believed to be my real friends. People who I thought supported me unconditionally, text me awful paragraph messages. Saying things like “you’re not pretty”, “you can try to lose weight but you will still be fat”, “your skin condition makes you even more ugly.” And more things about my appearance. I myself am Already extremely insecure about my appearance. I think it comes with being a woman and how we believe we need to look like other woman in society that are painted to be this perfect figure that is sometimes not realistic to every body type. Being short myself, I won’t ever have the lean y’all figure that you’re gorgeous self has Taylor. I have had people say things about my appearance wether it be about my skin or my weight in the past. However I think the other things that people said to me hurt the most.

To give some background, I have been songwriting since I was ten years old and got my first guitar. I have been singing longer than that as I found your music very early on in my life. Once I knew what a recording artist was, exactly what your career entails, I knew that is exactly what I want to do with my life. I want to be singing in front of people like you do Taylor. These girls sent me messages saying “you can’t sing”, “your voice sounds like someone is dying”, “when you sing I want to bleach my ears out”. Not only that but they attacked my songwriting as well. Saying things like, “your lyrics could be written by a two year old.” “Your lyrics don’t make sense”, “you try to hard to make things rhyme”, “reading your lyrics makes me want to die”, it goes on and on Taylor.

When I go to school everyday I sit at a lunch table alone, I don’t get invited to parties, I have had rumors spread throughout the school about me. I’m deemed as the worthless loser in the corner.

I come home everyday and I lock my door, cry and write song lyrics.

However I don’t know if I can anymore. This has tore me down. I don’t know anymore if this dream of being a recording artist is even possible for me anymore.

Your music has helped me through this difficult time as your music is always there for me unlike people. However what I really need now is guidance from the woman I look up to the most and that would be yourself. I need a hug, mainly just for you to say it’s going to be ok. Because right now “I might be ok but I’m not fine at all”.

I love you and thank you for listening to me, that is if you even know who I am.

Love you Taylor