Rice 🍚

[ilove-riceyum]

Just some random lil spewls 2

I was stupid to let you get a hold of me, you tricked me.

To think that you were the one, the one that was right for me.

I’d really thought, “Did God finally hear my prayers?”

To even let you go on ahead, take advantage of me.

You in your pretty talk, it swayed me like clouds.

I felt like I was saved from my despair.

You had me believing that..

You could also return my feelings back.

But you didn’t, did you.

Those feelings you returned back were merely some pitiful “lust.”

Disgusting.

And yet, I was too blind to notice.

[ilove-riceyum]

Just some random lil spewls

The amount of times I wanted to say how sorry I was.

The simplest mistakes can lead to such horrifying tragedies,

Ones where you regret the choices you made throughout your lives.

I was well aware of the outcome, of course.

But, I guess I wasn’t well aware enough.

It's like…

Everytime they pass by, guilt runs throughout your body.

Hitting every part of your meat on your bone.

Then the whole wide world stops for a good minute, letting you feel every moment of it.

It’s not a nice feeling.

Because you know you were in the wrong.

And you don’t have the guts to admit it.

All you want to do is push it all away, and hope to live another day.

Then you get so upset, you cry.

But why are you upset?

You question yourself, you’re rather confused.

Then you make excuses for yourself, backing up your statements.

On why you did such careless action.

You’re in denial.

Deny it for so long, judgment will come.

And you'll be guilty.