I have teased the idea of posting a personal documentation (as one could call it) since i was a kid. The far forgotten tweenage daydream of fame. it really came from being lonely. A repeating pattern apparently.
I think I want to do it. In a very modified version to what i used to think. I'm probably just going to do youtube short videos per week? Probably 10-15 mins. Mess around with editing and canvas stuff. I wanna really get out of my comfort zone. It'll be a secret for a bit. I'll probably only tell people once they ask. Who knows if it'll last, I am unmedicated.
I want to show my face but I'm always so worried that peoples face will reflect what I see in the mirror. A twisted reality and a fear of conflict? change? anything new at all???
I need something to be radically different in my life. Even though my entire life has completely changed. They always said the grass is greener. This grass is very green and sweet a warm hug. But now I want that clover lawn, an accent of a wildflower garden accentuating my completed goals.
Its that eternal human fear. I don't want to disappear.
Maybe I'll be brave enough to link the accounts. A preview of all my scripts basically.