ToBeingThin

| ED Trigger Warning | 18+ | Relapsed | || UGW: 110-100 lbs ||

[fatpiggycal]

[ilovelyjojo]

Does anyone belong to a strict GC that keeps people accountable but not completely toxic?? Please let me know xx

[coquettekcals]

it’s never ending 🥲

[just-me-ashhh-deactivated202409]

litterly stuck in a cycle of this atm

[ilovelyjojo]

I think I found a way for me to stop myself from binging or eating things I shouldn't. When I get the urge I just eat really stong mints until the urge goes away because it makes me feel sick. The only problem is that these mints are 5 calories each 😥😥 so I bought packs of listerine strips on Amazon instead and they'll be here tomorrow. Im pretty sure they have less calories if any. Otherwise... fvk. Extra bonus is those make me feel sicker than mints 😂 I really hope this works because I'm so tired of having zero control. 🗣

[ilovelyjojo]

It's so depressing to think about how my body type will probably never allow me to be as skinny as I want :") thanks genetics. I don't want these thighs.

[ilovelyjojo]

I get so incredibly anxious when someone in this house buys sweets. I need to get to the point where it doesn't even phase me and I forget it exists.

[ilovelyjojo]

I hate getting dressed. It is literally impossible to make anything look good. But it's just a good motivator to keep starving myself

[ilovelyjojo]

I can't believe I'm struggling to prove that I'm stronger than a damn cupcake right now

[ilovelyjojo]

Tomorrow is my sister's birthday and I'm really afraid I will over eat or even binge. I've restricted for the last two weeks which is why I am terrified... so many trigger foods 😥 I just have to keep reminding myself to eat like the person I want to be.

[ilovelyjojo]

Greeeat I started my period now I get to feel even fatter for a week

[ilovelyjojo]

Ugh my face is so round what did I do to myself 🤮

[ilovelyjojo]

I've lost almost 6 pounds these last two weeks which I've always heard was too fast but no it is definitely not fast enough 🙃

[ilovelyjojo]

Rewatching PLL for thinspo 🤩

[ilovelyjojo]

I feel like I literally can't do anything I wanna do until I lose all this fat

[ilovelyjojo]

Next Saturday is my sister's birthday and I'm afraid I'm going to eat too much and destroy my progress... I wish I could control myself ::) I have no problem restricting until you put my trigger foods in front of me then I become a mindless zombie. I can't do that to myself. I need control.

[ilovelyjojo]

I just wanna look like the cute girls in my thinspo album wearing crop tops and short shirts zero fat... idc how I get there I just NEED to get there

[ilovelyjojo]

ED TW....

Eh... no matter how many times I try, I always end up back here on this little blog because I have once again relapsed. I gain weight and hate myself for it then plan to go on this "healthy lifestyle journey" but it quickly turns into an obsession and all I want to do is restrict and eat air. tbh I don't mind because I've gotten so fat and gross. Even laying in bed makes me feel disgusting. I just need a place where I can let it out and not feel so alone ❤