secret side blog no one knows about

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blog for posting stuff I don't want to post on main. will probably be mostly angry rants, vent posts, and probably stupid takes.

pronouns she/they, call me whatever

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when you realize you lowkey think your friends are annoying af but you also think everyone else is annoying af and you don't wanna be stuck with no friends so like what do you even do

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hate it when people make posts about mental illness and then get upset when people talk about their mental illness on it. like you can't make a post linking the suicide helpline and then get mad when ppl mention having suicidal thoughts in the replies

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in theory I'm a danger to myself and others however in practice I'm a coward and an idiot who can't properly follow through on anything

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fucking hate the word whimsy for some reason

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lowkey I hate all my friends and I wanna leave everyone

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crazy how you'll be imagining killing yourself and then like 20 minutes later you're just laying in bed watching a funny youtube video like a well adjusted person

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google search how to explain to someone that they are being very sexist rn without pissing them off (they have anger issues and have crashed out over being called sexist as a joke before)

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I am incredibly stupid

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lately I've been having trouble saying "I love you" back to people when they say it to me. specifically my parents but thats also bc they're the only ppl who regularly say they love me. idk why but I just can't get myself to say it most times even tho I know thats what you say in this situation and I do love these people. idk if this is a new issue or just one I'm just now noticing but its really annoying

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I've heard some people say stuff like "I could listen to [person I care about] talk for hours about things they enjoy and never get bored bc seeing them excited makes me so happy!" and I just don't get that. like if someone is rambling about something I don't care about yeah I'm gonna get bored no matter how enthusiastic they are. I'll still listen and respond bc I'm willing to tolerate some boredom for people I care about (also I'm bad at getting out of conversations dgsdfg) but like. how can you not get bored of that.

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my favorite people are the ones I barely know

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I was joking about calling you sexist but also the way you responded to being called sexist as a joke kind of makes me think you're sexist

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I was joking about calling you aphobic but also the way you responded to being called aphobic as a joke kind of makes me think you're aphobic

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I was joking about calling you sexist but also the way you responded to being called sexist as a joke kind of makes me think you're sexist

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trying to figure out whether my friend has a crush on me bc on the one hand they're very aroace but on the other hand they keep Saying Things

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oopsies I caught myself wanting to live for a second haha. better fix that asap

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I am stupid