A Little Messed Up

ADHD, Autism, Dissociative Identity, Anxiety. I came out wrong and only got wronger.

[remanence-of-love]

[chronicbitchsyndrome]

whenever you stop and listen to self advocacy by people w cognitive disabilities we're always saying things like "i want to choose what clothes to wear" "i want to date without someone supervising me" "i want to have input into what medication and surgeries i get" and like that's really fucking sad and nobody seems to consider how fucking miserable it is for any class in society to be pleading for these things as a group

[im-internally-screaming]

Everything I thought I knew about systems, about what should and shouldn't be possible, has been changed.

I *watched* an Alter system hop. This is someone I trust, who has no interest in syscourse, who has no reason to lie to me, and through grief of losing a partner system split one of that system's alters, same personality and memories.

I've seen Alter Death. Call it long-term dormancy if you want but they never came back.

I've met endos, walk-ins, spiritual origin systems, systems with only two headmates and systems with hundreds.

Putting people in boxes doesn't work, and it restricts our ability to learn, grow, and eventually understand how the brain does... All of that.

[l0stvegas]

I wish people understood that with bad enough ADHD that things like pop-up reminders and sticky notes can sometimes stop working really quickly because it just becomes background noise after a while.

As soon as a self help strategy stops being novel it stops being helpful at all (for me).

[wheelie-sick]

sometimes people experiencing psychosis and/or mania will come up to you on the street and talk in confusing or upsetting ways. your job is to either have a regular human-to-human conversation with that person or politely leave. your job is not to call 911. do not call 911. you might kill that person if you call 911.

[systemscattering]

[ingridverse]

"God never gives you more than you can handle" is survivorship bias. People who got more than they could handle are dead.

[capricorn-0mnikorn]

Oh, dear. I can't reblog that fast enough.

[remanence-of-love]

[whoeven-caresssss]

it’s so fucking tiring to always be on the edge of destruction. like one small thing and then here i am again back in this hole.

[emotionalwords]

[k1ll1ng-mys3lf]

unfriendly reminder.

No, splits are not *only* caused by severe/extreme trauma. After the disorder is formed your brain will split as it feels is needed. Someone's for stress, sometimes to lessen the load of another trauma holder ect. If you are hyperfixating or watching a show and have strong feelings about a character it's possible that new split or fragment will attach to that characters identity. Stop Fakeclaiming and bring assholes to people who split easily, often, or are fictive heavy. You are only causing harm. Stop fucking Fakeclaiming in general. YOU ARE ONLY CAUSING HARM.

-Yugi

[schizoetic]

Being permanently mentally ill doesn't mean you'll be permanently unhappy

[editedantiendoposts]

just looked, checked out system stuff again a little because we were curious

dear fucking god I wish we didn't.

pro-endo traumagenic systems please interact with us and our other blogs we can't be doing this anti-endo shit

[im-internally-screaming]

Pro-Endo mixed origin system

[thequeenscoffin]

how some systems act when you are an actual person and don't define your systemhood by hatred of endogenics

[im-internally-screaming]

Me: I don't hate endos. The brain is barely understood and plurality is stigmatized enough as it is. Why does it matter how we experience plurality? The goal should be fusion or functionality regardless of origin.

Them: SO YOU HATE TRAUMA SYSTEMS? YOU WANT THEM TO SUFFER? YOU SUPPORT FAKING AND UNHEALTHY STEREOTYPES? YOU WANT TRAUMATIZED PEOPLE TO NOT GET HELP???

Me: No.... I.... What?

[ascilum]

[louisegluckpdf]

they won't tell you this in therapy but sometimes the best way to stop catastrophizing/anxiety is to interrupt your spiraling with "girl what the hell are you talking about"

[foxlungz]

I need to keep telling myself it’s not normal to look at sharp objects and wonder how it would feel to cut my skin open with them