that's a question I have asked myself a lot throughout my entire life.
»ᴡʜᴏ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ɪ ʙᴇ? ᴡʜᴏ ᴀᴍ ɪ?«
in my 25 years of existence, you may assume that I have an answer to that. Or you might know how difficult that question is. All I can say to this: No, I never found an answer. I just live. And I am who I am in that exact moment. I will never be the person again I was 2 seconds ago or the person I will be in the next 5 seconds. I'm constantly changing, evolving and growing.
If I feel like brown hair with beachwaves and flower dresses, I go for brown hair with beach waves and flower dresses. If I feel like blue short hair and a male appearance I can do that within seconds with almost no effort at all. I lost myself so many times to all the possibilities that I could be. That I am.
I never fitted in anywhere even though I could make the perfect fit everytime I wished to. But that's kind of the point. I don't want to fit in, I want to belong, be accepted and loved for who I am. But »ᴡʜᴏ ᴀᴍ ɪ?«
ᴘʜᴏᴇɴɪx ᴇᴅᴇɴ ᴋᴇɴꜱɪɴɢᴛᴏɴ also better known as "ɴʏx" was born in Cambridge, UK, raised in Melbourne, Australia and later moved back to the United Kingdom. Although Nyx was assigned male at birth, they are most seen as the indie girl with dark blonde beach waves and a rather feminine appearance, sporting an edgy-boho look.
ɴʏx was the middle child among their six siblings (Gabriel, Maxine; older adopted siblings); (Nikita, Jonah, Moses & Ava; younger biological siblings). Yet, they were a special one, the first biological child of both their fathers, with the shapeshifting incubus abilities as well as vampires genes, which caused them a lot of trouble in her younger years, struggling significantly with their identity.
ɴʏx attended architecture school and graduated with honors while raising their five-year-old son Asher. Despite completing a degree in architecture, Nyx works as a freelance artist, photographer and musician with no commitments other than to their son.
random facts: two bengal cats, lives in cambridge, loves everything sweet, coffee addict, plant lover.
even if I identify as non-binary any pronouns are fine! I tend to vary with the pronouns a lot. I'm open to anything: plotting, smalltalk, roleplayers, etc. semi-selictive. 21+, mild gore, sexual themes, gender and apperance varies a lot.
One massive, legitimate way to improve as a writer or artist or in any creative endeavor really, is to become absolutely obsessed with something and to allow yourself to be weird about it. Genuinely mean this btw.
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“A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.”
- Albert Einstein
