epiphanies and among other things as well.

I'm Jonathan. I'm boring sometimes, and im okay with that. I'm chillin.

[imagjonnation]

epiphanies and among other things as well. turned 13 today!

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epiphanies and among other things as well. turned 12 today!

[imagjonnation]

10 year anniversary.

Kinda crazy that I’ve had this blog for 10 years. So much has happened. I was barely on this here in 2020. Maybe I’ll change that this year.

If anyone is still here and following me, thank you very much. Sometimes it’s easier to talk to strangers on the internet than people in your own life. Less judge mental.

[imagjonnation]

2020 recap.

So 2020 was crazy. Not for me personally. It wasn’t too bad. I was blessed enough to keep working throughout the pandemic. My best friend got married this year and I was a groomsman. My first time being one, and it was fun. For his bachelor party a group of us went to Vegas. That was fun time. Not as fun as previous adventures there, but still fun. I really gambled for the first time not slot machines. Let’s say I broke even and paid for my whole trip. I saw my close group of friends than my own family minus my mom and brother. This pandemic brought us all closer together.

I resigned up at a gym in February was actually going everyday and eating better. Then of course mid March covid hit and everything shut down. 😑🤦‍♂️ My gym reopens next week and hopefully it’ll stay open, but then again LA County is dumb. 🤷‍♂️

As for my love life it was alright. I meet a few girls through dating apps. Went out a couple times during the summer, but none vibes enough to keep it going. Ending up getting ghosted, but that’s the norm now. Doesn’t surprise or hurt me as much as it use to.

A best friend of mine basically cut ties due to her getting a boyfriend. It happened right when covid hit. I had a plan of telling her how I’ve had feelings for her for a long time, and that I’ve had to suppress them because she didn’t feel the same way. I felt like she and I were dating minus the physical stuff. We would go out to dinner and go to new places and go see movies. This happened over the course of almost 2 years. We we first met we didn’t feel a romantic vibe, and decided to just be friends. She was a dope person and I didn’t want to lose her back then. The week I was going to tell her about my feelings, she told me she had started seeing someone for like a month. She had become my best friend. Going through the pandemic without her for the first couple months sucked. She and I use to talk almost every day and sending each other memes and stuff. All of that stopped. It was an adjustment I had to get use to. It wouldn’t have been fair to their relationship if I had kept in touch so much with her. I had to tell myself that a lot. We still follow each other on social media so we’ve seen what each other has been up to. She wished me happy birthday and to be honest I kinda got a little upset because she and I haven’t spoken since March and that’s the first thing she says after all that time. Which is good I suppose. It could’ve been worse. I didn’t expect her to text me is all. I haven’t told her about how I felt, but I plan on doing it soon. It’s the last thing I need to put closure on 2020.

Thank you reading this. Cheers and happy new year!

[imagjonnation]

2019 recap.

It was alright. Nothing special really. Just worked a lot. I didn’t travel much which I’m fine with. Love life was nonexistent.

I noticed that I find just about everything annoying. People have annoyed me the most this year. Majority of those people are people I work with. I’ve gotten really close to quitting a few times. I may actually quit within the next few months. It’s not worth it. The management as communication is laughable. It’s hard to take my job seriously when 2/3 of the bosses don’t really give a shit. I don’t have much respect for them on how they run the department. If I do end up quitting I’ll still have my main job. I’ll be fine. I stay there only because there’s only a couple people there I actually tolerate.

One of my oldest friends got married this year, and I wasn’t invited. I plan on asking her why. Friendship of like 25 years. I would’ve flown across the country to watch her get married. It’s been bothering me for about 3-4 months.

Well that’s what’s been going on for most of 2019. There was some great moments like watching my best friend propose to his lady in Las Vegas.

Thanks for reading if you did. Happy new year.

[imagjonnation]

I went all the way back in my messages and my blog from when I started my tumblr back in late 2010. Geez, I complained a lot. Like a lot. A lot of memories and flashbacks.

I wish there was a way to find someone who deactivated their profile. I would like to see how they’re doing. So many years have gone by. I’ve stayed in touch with a few people from back then because of Instagram and Facebook.

I doubt the ones who haven’t deactivated their profile are still active or even have the app. I’m barely on here myself.

[chiquiwitchy]

🌻🍍

[agencyobservation]

[imagjonnation]

Yeah, I have a few.

[gold-kushkloudz]

[delfiotero]

[recaption]

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2018 recap.

Nothing really happened to me this year. I didn’t travel much. I mostly just worked this year. Which I’m okay with.

I went on a couple dates. Nothing serious. One of the girls I went on a date with didn’t turn romantic, and we decided to be friends which was fine with me because she’s cool. We talk a few times a week and still hangout.

I turned 30 in 2018. That’s pretty crazy. I am no where near where I thought I’d be at this age, but that’s life.

I’ve been looking for a new job because I can’t really stand my current jobs. The inconsistency and the politics is really annoying.

I’ve pretty much become Ebenezer Scrooge in the fact that I dislike being around a lot of certain people, and prefer to be by myself. I am planning to make my circle of friends smaller.

My 2019 New Years resolutions:

Get a better job.

“Eat healthy” However with all these recalls on vegetables I don’t know. I can start by drinking more water I guess. 🤷‍♂️

Try to travel more.

Save more money. Cut back on unnecessary purchases meaning alcohol and fast food. Eat at home more.

Golf more. I don’t consider that an unnecessary purchase because it’s become a hobby of mine. I don’t know why I defended myself haha.

Thank you reading this if you did, and have a good day/night, and happy new year.

[night-dawn-day]

“I never thought it was such a bad little tree. It’s not bad at all, really. Maybe it just needs a little love.”

[imagjonnation]

12/24/2018

I’m 30 years old today. It’s crazy. 🤷‍♂️

[moonenjoyer]

just need a girl to be…..boring with. boring ladies blease interact

[cwote]

Stop beating yourself up. You’re a work in progress, which means you get there a little bit at a time not all at once.

[teenageers]