Georgia On My Mind

[imissyou-angel]

I was what, 13? 14? Going through the angsty new teen years. I was struggling a bit. I had been for a few years by then. But that was nothing compared to what would follow or even now. So yeah. I added you. And it all began. You came for me ready to rip my throat out and stab my heart and ruin every fiber of my being. But that part comes later. For now it was about meeting you. Being trapped by you. That one night probably around the same time as it is now, I made a choice that has followed me from being a young, naive teen to an adult who is completely broken by you. And I see no future of myself being fixed or healed.

[imissyou-angel]

I remember the exact moment I found you. I was at my best friends house. They lived next door to me. I was scrolling through Facebook on my old ass phone. I came upon a post by a girl I sorta knew. One of the comments was from you. I thought you looked cool. Add him, why not?

[imissyou-angel]

I remember everything. It’s been years and I remember all these little details. Things I wish wish wish I could burn from my memory. Things I regret. I remember how I found you. How you came into my life. And this was probably my first mistake. Or was it? As much as I wish you had never entered my life and caused me so much pain, I can’t help but feel like it may have also been a gift. Even though I’m still suffering and I don’t believe it’ll ever end I’m stuck in an endless loop of cherishing you and hating you.

[imissyou-angel]

You have no idea