Anabelle Lee

Take me to the lakes

[imlongsleeve]

Don't tell me I didn't try. I've talked to so many guys and none of them stayed and looked me in the eye. Am I boring? Ugly? I have used different personalities and none of them catches any of them.....is this my karma for being such a snub bitch when I was young??!!!!! Don't tell me I didn't try to look for love when it's all I think about! Don't tell me I stayed to much in my head that I left my heart unkept! Don't tell me I didn't make an effort to get out of my shell and propose a flower to a fucking stingy bee!!!!!!!!!

[imlongsleeve]

He doesn't ask me anything even though he knows I would answer with no hesitations. And I can't ask him too for whenever I try he seems to step backwards or just give me a thrift shop.

[imlongsleeve]

Is this the day he'll stop? I was anticipating this. Knew it from the very beginning. It's long overdue anyway. Almost a month, and I still have no idea who I'm falling alone to...

[thehopefulquotes]

“I didn’t lose you, you lost me.”

— Unknown

[imlongsleeve]

If love isn't for me, why am I so full of it?

[imlongsleeve]

Always

Wishing

You

Come

To

Me

What's

Taking

You

So

Loooooooooooooong?

Are

You

Dead?

[imlongsleeve]

it didn't matter how the road towards you look

In the morning,at night, it's all the same hook to tear my heart and lead it off the crook for fishes to gather round and laugh at

It's a bad thing to attach but I'm very good at it.

You're a good thing to my heart until you aren't.

----

He's a man who have become bored of me.

He didn't even want to get to know me more after a week.

He just stopped.

But I didn't.

-A.L

[imlongsleeve]

I know the ditch was there

Didn't know it will only take one step to fall and scrape myself

What did I expect from that connection?

A scratch turn to art,

A week to a lifetime?

A man becoming mine?

Ridiculous thought.

-A.L

[imlongsleeve]

he'd say that he likes me

and i wonder if he's lying to himself just to please me

[taylorswift]

The Tortured Poets Department. An anthology of new works that reflect events, opinions and sentiments from a fleeting and fatalistic moment in time - one that was both sensational and sorrowful in equal measure. This period of the author’s life is now over, the chapter closed and boarded up. There is nothing to avenge, no scores to settle once wounds have healed. And upon further reflection, a good number of them turned out to be self-inflicted. This writer is of the firm belief that our tears become holy in the form of ink on a page. Once we have spoken our saddest story, we can be free of it.

And then all that’s left behind is the tortured poetry.

THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT is out now.

https://taylor.lnk.to/thetorturedpoetsdepartment

[imlongsleeve]

ya!!! ugh this makes me bawl my eyes out! I can't believe I am crying with pure jealousy! HUHUHUHUUHU. why can't I have someone like him? LIKE HIM? why can't I have LOVE????WHY MUST I BE A TWENTY FIVE Y/O LONELY ASS DEPRIVED OF EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENTS AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHG AND IT'S ONGOING, I HAVE TO WAIT FOR EPS HUHU HOW Miserable (that's why I always opt to watch horror stuff why did i click!!! *I'm not regretting it tho I'm in PAIN. HUHUHU)

[taylorswift]

✨My name is Taylor and I was born in 1989 ✨

http://taylor.lnk.to/1989TaylorsVersion

[imlongsleeve]

It's 11:30 in the morning and I'd rather cocoon myself and cry but I'm at work holding it altogether, acting like a tough 25 should be. I dare not say anything to anyone. I just try to outlive these storms til they pass or I pass.

-A.L

[thehopefulquotes]

“I want to calm down, to rest, to outlive this nonsense.”

— Anne Sexton, from a letter to Dennis Farrell written c. June 1962

[thehopefulquotes]

“Tell me darling, would you still love me If I told you about the monsters I need to sing to sleep every night? If you understood the way I need to tiptoe across my own mind so I can fall asleep before daylight? if you knew where the nightmares came from, if you saw my scarred soul, would being with me terrify you? If you knew the full extent of the damage they have done to me, would you stay, would you still want to?”

— Nikita Gill, Questions I Am Too Broken to Ask

[imlongsleeve]

I am so tired.

[imlongsleeve]

i miss writing poetry like it's the easiest thing to do

i miss vomiting words that are as pretty as you

i miss rhyming the sunset, and the ocean to your autumn and blue

I miss falling in the crevices of love

and begging God to make him look my way too.

-A. L