teflon donna

42\ LA

[immolatemyself]

With mastery comes the risk of a corrosive kind of comfort. I've essentially done the same job for 15 years. A honkin chomk of my life. The ego i have about it comes from being able to do it underwater/ blindfolded /with my toes / both hands tied behind my back. But am i allowing complacency to eat out an elsewise fulfilling life or is it fine for a job to be perpetually just ok? How do I reconcile liking my bills paid from wanting to retire immediately to make elephant shit pinch pots? Can I use ai to outsource my life this way god damn it

[immolatemyself]

“While the rest of you dipshits argue about nothing, I’m gonna be over here rocking the fuck out. Rocking>Talking”

— Youtube Comment on Death | Politicians In My Eyes

[90sryder]

“I prayed for the death of Heather Chandler many times and I felt bad everytime I did it but I kept doing it anyway. Now I know you understood everything. Praise Jesus, Hallelujah.”

Heathers (1988)

[artfest]

[immolatemyself]

Mad Men Fandom consensus seems to favor the earlier seasons, but I'm partial to the latter ones. The music is better. The culture is no longer so tightassedly rigid. And Don's serial womanizing has consequences. People like him have hearts that drag dead bodies with them every where they go. They'll run from themselves until they die. It's not a cool, Bondesque life at the end. It's as pathetic as it is compulsory. A form of self harm. A growing void that destroys everything it touches.

[immolatemyself]

It took me twice as long to get home because of some asinine sports ball. I live in a country chock full of fucking children.

[immolatemyself]

The reflecting pool is famously a water closet for those who have no toilet access. Don't get me wrong, I hold these presidential memorials in no hugely high regard. It deserves to be a toilet. But it's still hilarious that what *actually* destroyed its reflective capabilities was painting the bottom.

This "developer" is only capable of developing a raging case of syphilis.

[setulose]

Trace amounts of Monica in my life

[setulose]

A statistically insignificant level of Monica in my life

[setulose]

My life manufactured in a facility that also processes Monica

[immolatemyself]

Besides the stereotype of hooking up with a secretary and age difference, Don Draper's central friction with his 2nd wife, at first, is the classic introvert/ extrovert issue. People back then didnt understand that recharging isn't simply moping with a bad attitude. Don just made it look that way with his ruminating, smoking and solo drinking. But it didn't help that Don was a depressive miserable bastard who tended to lash out which tracks for vets.

[dogpuppy]

[immolatemyself]

As a mid atlantic east coaster, I may have some authority on the subject: Hunter Biden is a typical Delaware resident. A sunburned, black tats faded to green, dart suckin beach bum. Addict or not, kind or not, simply real. Not an anomaly. I grew up with people like him. Definitely also has the garden variety cadence of someone that's in recovery. There's a nakedness around the horror of their past because true healing comes from less shame around it. I think people are so expectant of folks to have clipped pr speak that being, frankly, quite normal is "based". His dad being a genocidaire kind of removes a huge layer of humanity though. And maybe his self disclosure is legacy white washing for his dad, or an unfortunate side effect.

[immolatemyself]

Highly aggressive military tactics are being performed nearby for the 2nd night in a row. Flashbangs going off in an abandoned hospital with helicopters hacking at the sky at 1 am and now more in long Beach, announced to carry on till 2 am. It feels like they're lifting their leg on us. Such insecurity. Asses getting kicked by iran, justifiably, and so they have to violate the peace of its own citizens. Pathetic.

[immolatemyself]

LA has this odd culture of standing in line that wraps around the block for the most banal shit. Around the corner from me, every weekend, people line up for god knows how long for bread. Local businesses doing well is fine but standing in line for me outside of the dmv is a no from me. If there's a line somewhere, I usually just leave.

[immolatemyself]

The binder of life and source of consistent joy and play has been practicing ritual magick on a regular basis for the past few years. It creates an intentional routine and a channel to put emotional overflow so I can put my focus where it belongs. I don't always win the war with myself but in terms of self improvement that isn't just hollow affirmations, I've found no equal. There's also the community aspect and finding that has been just as affirming.

[immolatemyself]

Hot take: it's actually fucking weird when white people say "baby mama". It's a term steeped in misogynoir that isn't redeemed by using it against a white person. Especially when white women use it while moving their head side to side, with some "sass". We're getting WAY too comfortable.

[cryptotheism]

Bugs bunny taught me that cross dressing is not only normal, but an effective way to evade ghouls.

[immolatemyself]

American politics and incel culture's venn diagram is a circle because both proudly discuss what body count is more acceptable to live with. Brown people? Well, as long as they don't live here i guess...