He hadnāt expected her to agree and it shows on his face. In an attempt to hide it he turns back into the fridge, taking longer than required to get the food Noor had left for him before turning back to Imogen with as neutral an expression as he could muster.Ā āWell itās food that Noor made so you donāt have to worry about trying to stomach anything Iāve touched.ā He says, this time his joke delivered with some actual lightness. He moves to start preparing things for reheating as he listens.Ā
āYou must know that this is like my last resort - that if you were literally anyone else this wouldnāt be happening right?ā Not the best foot to start on but it was the truth and Vincent was well aware that she would see through any of his bullshit in an instant. She knew him too well. He wanted things to go back to normal, to have her stop ignoring him but now that she was waiting to hear him talk Vincentās throat was drying up. A man never lost for words he wasnāt sure what to do now.Ā āIām sorry..ā His voice is back to being quiet but he corrects himself, saying sorry again.Ā āI know that what I said was hurtful⦠That I dug my heels in on a point that was unnecessary and in the process I didnāt care if what I was saying actually had any repercussions⦠I didnāt put any thought into how I was making you feel with them.ā Apologises, sincere ones at least, were not his strength and he could feel himself stumbling already so turned back to the food as he let the first attempt get a reaction.
Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ iĀ figuredĀ asĀ much,Ā āĀ sheĀ replies,Ā eyeingĀ theĀ foodĀ heĀ takesĀ outĀ withĀ reliefĀ (Ā neitherĀ ofĀ themĀ wereĀ quiteĀ giftedĀ inĀ theĀ kitchenĀ . . . yetĀ anotherĀ similarityĀ betweenĀ theĀ pairĀ ),Ā Ā āĀ butĀ ifĀ thisĀ isĀ yourĀ dinner,Ā iāmĀ notĀ justĀ goingĀ toĀ takeĀ itĀ fromĀ you.Ā iĀ thinkĀ iĀ haveĀ halfĀ ofĀ myĀ lunchĀ leftĀ fromĀ yesterdayĀ inĀ theĀ fridge.Ā iĀ canĀ alwaysĀ justĀ haveĀ that.Ā āĀ everĀ theĀ eldestĀ sister,Ā alwaysĀ lookingĀ outĀ forĀ theĀ restĀ ofĀ theĀ broodĀ aheadĀ ofĀ herself.Ā Ā āĀ iāllĀ beĀ fine.Ā youĀ eat,Ā iāllĀ justĀ listen.Ā ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ iĀ know,Ā āĀ sheĀ answers,Ā herĀ toneĀ aĀ bitĀ moreĀ gentleĀ thanĀ itāsĀ beenĀ inĀ recentĀ weeks,Ā herĀ guardĀ letĀ downĀ asĀ heĀ tooĀ dropsĀ hisĀ defenses,Ā Ā āĀ butĀ maybeĀ thatāsĀ partĀ ofĀ theĀ problem.Ā maybeĀ anĀ actualĀ apologyĀ shouldnātĀ beĀ yourĀ lastĀ resort.Ā iĀ knowĀ youāreĀ proud,Ā hellĀ . . .Ā iĀ amĀ too.Ā butĀ iāmĀ workingĀ onĀ notĀ beingĀ soĀ . . .Ā āĀ sheĀ trailsĀ off,Ā unsureĀ ofĀ theĀ rightĀ wordĀ toĀ use,Ā insteadĀ lettingĀ theĀ thoughtĀ hangĀ inĀ theĀ air,Ā Ā āĀ iĀ donātĀ know.Ā butĀ youĀ getĀ whatĀ iāmĀ saying,Ā rightĀ ?Ā āĀ andĀ finally,Ā sheĀ hearsĀ theĀ wordsĀ sheādĀ beenĀ waitingĀ weeksĀ for,Ā theĀ wordsĀ thatĀ makeĀ herĀ feelĀ guiltyĀ forĀ waitingĀ thisĀ outĀ forĀ soĀ long,Ā forĀ sheĀ knowsĀ howĀ hardĀ thisĀ isĀ forĀ him.Ā butĀ thisĀ isĀ somethingĀ sheĀ neededĀ toĀ hearĀ fromĀ himĀ ifĀ sheĀ wereĀ toĀ moveĀ pastĀ this.Ā Ā āĀ youĀ getĀ whyĀ itĀ hurt,Ā rightĀ ?Ā āĀ sheĀ wondersĀ aloud,Ā Ā āĀ becauseĀ youĀ mightĀ asĀ wellĀ haveĀ beenĀ talkingĀ aboutĀ yourselfĀ withĀ whatĀ Ā youĀ saidĀ thatĀ dayĀ andĀ notĀ me.Ā weāreĀ tooĀ similar,Ā sometimes,Ā youĀ andĀ i.Ā iĀ knowĀ youĀ likeĀ iĀ knowĀ myselfĀ andĀ iĀ couldĀ tellĀ youĀ wereĀ projecting.Ā soĀ whileĀ iāmĀ gratefulĀ forĀ yourĀ apologyĀ andĀ ofĀ courseĀ iĀ accept,Ā iĀ thinkĀ youĀ oweĀ yourselfĀ anĀ apologyĀ too,Ā becauseĀ itĀ wasnātĀ justĀ meĀ youĀ wereĀ cuttingĀ downĀ withĀ thoseĀ words.Ā ā