warning: this chap is fully written, with no texts/tweets. it gets a little angsty tbh
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yn froze as she saw oikawa walking towards her, and she panically looked around the room for an escape. she noticed kuroo talking to some of his other friend in the corner with dyed blonde hair, kenma. she beelined over to the two boys, grabbing kuroo’s drink out of his hand and taking a large gulp of it.
“yn what the fuck.” the taller male glared at her.
“sorry. really needed that. hey kenma.” she turned to look at the shorter boy. he nodded back in acknowledgement before speaking up.
“maybe, i don’t know yet. i just really need to be drunk.” the two chuckled at her response, leading her over to the kitchen-turned-bar.
“does it maybe have to do with a certain boy? perhaps our setter?” kuroo whispered while wiggling his eyebrows. yn smacked the back of his neck, pouring herself a drink. a strong one. she noticed the boy in question lingering near the kitchen, causing her to duck down a little bit to hide behind kuroo’s tall frame.
“i’m actually going to shoot myself. i hate myself.”
“hey oikawa!” kuroo called over his shoulder, to which kenma took as his cue to leave. yn’s eyes widened at his actions, looking up at his face in shock. the urge to follow kenma was strong. kuroo looked down to wink at her, while turning to follow kenma as oikawa walked over.
“you’re fucking joking.” yn muttered under her breath.
oikawa had no idea she had been invited tonight. sure, all of her friends were here, but they definitely would’ve told him she was coming. he wondered how mattsun and makki had gotten her to say yes, as she seemed to avoid him other than when they had their nightly encounters. though recently, she had been ignoring his existence entirely, much to his dismay. seeing her walk through the door caused him to freeze up, with his heart beginning to beat rapidly.
of course, she attempted to ignore him. he had been sort of following her whilst mingling with his friends and teammates, keeping an eye on her as she floated around. it wasn’t until kuroo called him over to where they were in the kitchen that he got a chance to talk to yn. his eyes lit up when he heard his name, and his heart began to beat even faster than before. he watched kuroo and kenma walk away, leaving yn staring in his direction with a blank expression on her face. he grinned at her and waved, coming up to greet her.
“hey! you enjoying yourself?”
“uh, yeah, i guess so.” she replied unsure. his ego immediately deflated, remaining silent at her response. “actually, can we talk? maybe in your room?”
“oh! yeah, sure, follow me.” he grabbed her hand, leading her down the hallway towards his room. this didn’t go unnoticed by their friends in the room, of course. kuroo and bokuto shared a knowing look, and then turned to meet mattsun and makki’s gaze across the room. all four of them had the same smirk on their face. turning the handle, oikawa ushered her into his room, closing the door behind them. she was no stranger to this room, spending a large number of nights in this room over the past year. yn sat on the bed, and oikawa following, sitting next to her.
“you couldn’t wait until everyone left, huh?” he broke the silence with a joke, with a crooked smile on his face. she turned to look up at him, with narrowed eyes.
“no, i came here to have an actual conversation with you, about our little arrangement.” his smile immediately disappeared from his face.
“do you have feelings for me, oikawa?” his heart stopped at her question, and his body froze as a result. he took a few moments to gather his thoughts before responding, sighing before he did so.
“since this whole thing began.”
yn inhaled sharply, looking down and away from oikawa. she hadn’t even noticed that she had been fiddling with her hands, but he placed his own on top of hers.
“i don’t know if i can keep doing this casual thing oikawa. it’s not fair to you at all.”
“look, we can work this out-”
“i just don’t know if i can do a relationship right now. i don’t wanna get hurt again.” she spoke quietly. he sat there stunned for a moment, tensing up at her words.
“i wouldn’t hurt you, yn.” he murmured. he noticed a teardrop fall from her eyes, and he gently lifted her chin to face him.
“whatever has happened in your past, you can talk about it with me, i’m always here to listen.” he spoke softly while wiping her tears with the pads of his thumbs. she leaned into his touch and closed her eyes.
“i don’t know, oikawa, i just-”
“tooru.” he cut her off with a firm tone.
“please, just call me tooru.” he spoke with the same tone of voice. the two sat in silence for a few minutes, before yn broke it.
“you can trust me, i promise.” he pulled her into his side, rubbing her shoulder with his arm. she nestled herself into the crook of his neck, and he kissed the top of her head in response. they sat like that for awhile, with the party acting as background noise.
“i don’t know if i can be the girl you deserve.” yn finally admitted. tooru was shocked by her statement, wondering what the hell went wrong in her past relationship for her to think like this.
“you’re the only girl i want. yn, i want you to be honest with me too. do you have feelings for me too?”
“that’s all we need then, sweetheart. we can figure it out, okay?” his words caused her tears to fall at a faster rate, causing him to pull her in tighter. he pressed kisses to the side of her face while he held her, his heart hurting at the sound of her crying.
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yn finally came to terms with her feelings
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