Tomorrow marks one year that I was woken up at 3 am to the phone call that my sweet Daddy had gone to heaven. There’s so much that’s happened in the past year I would love to talk to him about or that I know he would talk to me about. I wrote down a lot of things I’d love to tell him if he were still here today: It snowed in Savannah and in Louisiana! I know you’d hate every second of it but you’d finally have a use for that fireplace. I have a new apartment that’s completely furnished and decorated thanks to you. The Kardashians have basically doubled in numbers. Taylor swift released a new CD and I know you’d be one of the first people to purchase it. There have been two Star Wars movies released and a new tomb raider movie. I got a new job, and then another new job. I really really like this one this time. There was a flash flood and I wanted to send you a picture of what my car looked like in the water because it looked just like the picture you sent me of your car when you had a flash flood. I’ve seen the swat team twice in one month but don’t worry I’ve been safe the whole time. I drove all the way to Louisiana from Savannah just for you through the middle of the night. The yellow river game ranch closed and I cried like a baby because we used to go all the time and we always had so much fun feeding the animals. I hear you all the time. I hear you in the songs on the radio, I hear you in the jokes people tell me, I hear you in the kind gestures from others, I hear you in movies, I hear you in my cries, I hear you everywhere. And yet I still wish I could hear your voice again. I wish I could hug you again, I memorized the way you felt in my arms and the way you called me Samantha. It hurts to know what an amazing grandfather you’d be to my future kids one day. It hurts to know nobody will ever receive the joy you bring ever again. I’m still trying to figure out why bad things happen to good people. I miss you daddy and it still hurts every single day. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn6Ip2en9dl/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=9ot1xu42eb27