Braindump

This is just a place to throw down what I'm thinking and access it remotely. It's really only for me. If you stumble upon this, you're more than welcome to read it. But, I'm really only writing this for myself. I just need an outlet.

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Will this ever go away?

My hands begin to shake My heart begins to pound My head starts to ache I lie on the ground. 

The pain I’m feeling inside is still too much to bear To everyone who ever asked, I lied Every single time I said I’m fine. 

It never takes a moments break For even when I’m asleep, It.s with me every breath I take.  I fear this reminder of you is mine to keep. 

You’re the reason I wake screaming at night. and on my soul you’ve left a mark Now when I think of life I don’t think of light.  I think of the horrors that live in the dark. 

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Be still my fragile heart.

Your arms reach out

open and waiting for me.

I reach back for your embrace.

My favorite place to be.

You breathe in.

I feel the air in your chest  

It draws me nearer to sleep 

while against you, I am pressed. 

For an instant I feel safe. 

Though I don’t dare tell you. 

Not quite in love, but more than in like.

I’m in limbo between the two.

Like is a word that is said with ease.

Love burns of mutual desire. 

You know I’m afraid of love.

So you add water to the fire. 

You know how hurt I’ve been.

I beg you to be slow with me, please

I’m still more than in like, yet not quite in love 

So you let me live in the middle where I’m at ease. 

My heart is stuck in between.

Because I fear to break.

Because no one wants to pick up the pieces

of a fragile heart they take. 

At the strongest I’ve felt

I’m still a little broken inside. 

So, I gradually pushed you away

every time you tried. 

Be still, my fragile heart.

You know very little of love yet

Because love is patient, and love is kind. 

and never a harsh word or threat.

You have more to learn

So just wait, fragile little heart of mine.

Stay content between in like and in love.

Because time will show you a sign.

If this man is worth all you have to give.

Eventually,  you’ll know it all.

Because you’ll no longer be as fragile.

because you didn’t have to fall.

Because If he’s the one... you’ll see

He’s always right there to catch you.

He’ll piece you back together, one at a time.

For you, there isn’t anything he wouldn’t do.

Oh, fragile little heart of mine.

This will make you strong.

So you can handle all that love

that he’s wanted to give you all along.

[nikitaagupta]

find love. find love like the one you dreamed of as a five year old which involves flowers and dates and promises. and for a minute just forget what happened in your last relationship. find love like the one that existed in the fairy tales books your father used to read out to you everyday before bed. find love you believe in. find love you want to write stories and poems about. find love you’d tell your daughter to chase. find love you would choose without having second thoughts. find love you just don’t just have to settle for. find love worth waiting for. find love.

f i n d. l o v e.//nikitagupta (via nikitaagup)

I know I’ve reposted this before. But, I’m going to repost it again. Because, it’s that relevant. Don’t settle for ordinary. Love with everything you have, and don’t stick by someone who doesn’t love you with the same intensity that you love them. Unrequited love is overrated. Find the person who lights your soul on fire, but stays behind to feed the flames.

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Heaven and Hellfire

You’re not like anyone I’ve ever met before.You’re the perfect blend of sunshine and darkness. You’re equal parts chaos and order. You’re a kind soul, but one I look at and see pain and anger inside of. You have both the warmth of summer, and a touch of an icy winter. Those beautiful hazel eyes have seen so much loss and sadness. Yet, they light up every time I look at you. Your touch is soft, and gentle. But, you have an undeniable roughness about you. You’re a taste of heaven and of hellfire. You’re a candle that I’m afraid to blow out... a beautiful flame I could stare at for hours. One that could burn me to the ground. It’s okay though, I think I like playing with a little bit of fire.

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ENTJ Love

(Official Disclaimer)

I love that everything you do, you do to the max. You aren’t shy about going whole-hog in whatever you do. You’re bold and you don’t care about being “too intense”. Which is great, because that helps you get stuff done.

You’re a great source of unending energy. Whenever someone needs a pick-me-up, you’re the one that person goes to. Your confident energy is good for everyone around you, and it instills a smile on more faces than you know.

You’re honest and frank about your thoughts and feelings. It’s easy to tell whether or not you like someone, and there is no middle ground with you. When you dislike someone, they are acutely aware of it; when you like someone, they know there’s a reason you spend time with them. Nothing is fake with you when it comes to people.

You have a bit more of a “hero complex” than other types, which possibly stems from your drive to gain respect and power, and possibly comes from the fact that you constantly take responsibility for everything (and everyone) around you. Regardless, this complex leads to the accomplishment of truly great things, which is amazing.

I love that you always take the initiative. When you see that something needs to be done, you don’t sit around or ignore the problem, you get busy. You’re fabulous when it comes to getting things done.

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Pretty much how I feel about my ENTJ . 💛 I admire your ambition, and can do attitude and willingness to take on any challenge that comes your way.

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It’s amazing how happy you can be if you just learn to really live. Stop and appreciate the things in life that you’re thankful for, but also those that cause you stress. I’m so blessed, and very much thankful for the all the wisdom I’ve gained, the journey I’m on, and good karma that’s been lingering my way. Life is good 💛

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My newest hobby. ^ One day, I’ll stop falling down. Haha. Thank god scrubs hide everything. My legs look mangled as can be right now 😂

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So much food for just two people! I'm dead right now. Tried Korean food for the first time tonight. 💛

[wordsnquotes]

Share too much and someone can hurt you.

Dorothy Koomson, My Best Friend’s Girl

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Focus only on what you can control, and forget the rest. 💛