Recent Update
Davies is absolutely amazing and I’m pretty sure I’m in a coma or dead and this is all an illusion.Â
I’ve felt this strongly for people before but never so quickly. I’ve never been so sure before so soon. I feel 110% comfortable around him no matter what we’re doing, when, or where. Straight from work, freshly showered, in public, behind closed doors, around his friends and brother.....
He’s showed me nothing but consistent affection and thoughtfulness. He’s woken up before my alarms to make me breakfast, tea, and pack my lunch for work in the morning almost every day since I’ve been staying with him. (I insisted he sleep in 2 days so far even though he fought it)
He brings me snacks, and has bought me things that I mention in passing. He comes along with me to run errands, I can talk about my full day and go on about my kids and stupid little things and he actually listens and is involved in the conversation. There’s so many things....
Little things he does make me so happy. There’s so much we do similarly that are important things and I just honestly feel so right about this whole thing.
We’ve joked about a Vegas wedding or something but honestly...honestly...if I had to marry someone right now or if he actually asked me for real I would say yes. Without hesitation. And I know it sounds really stupid because we’ve only known each other for 3 months but this is so different from anything I’ve experienced before.Â
I’ve been with people who make me happy and I can see a future with but this is a different kind of assurance. It’s not just about imagining a cute family and house with someone. I can actually feel that this is different. That this has real promise and there’s no doubts, no “haha jk” kind of thoughts after joking about going to a courthouse. And I’ve been around the block enough times and have been hurt in almost every way possible so I’d like to think I’d know if this was the real thing.Â
I’ve talked to other people about how they knew they met the person they were going to marry...how they knew, what they felt...I’ve heard the usual response mostly: I just knew! Which isn’t really helpful...but I can also kinda get it? But like...what do they meeean?? I’ve also heard things like: They leave things around the house/do other annoying thing, but you just have to learn what you want to deal with. Which I’ve always felt sounded weird.....you want to marry this person because they’re annoying things aren’t THAT annoying so I guess you’ll deal with it? Eh. I want to marry someone who’s “annoying” things I don’t even see as “annoying”. Example...Davies has apologized a million times for his ADD ticks (wiggling, toe movements, tapping, bouncing, humming etc) because other people have found it annoying and told him to stop. I absolutely love them. To me they’re the most natural sign from him that he’s happy and expressing himself and I’ve begged him to never stop and always feel free to do whatever he feel like he needs to do and never hold back or think that I’m going to judge him or like him any less for doing so.Â
More updates to come.Â








