Redeemed.

Reforged. But not the same. -Broken-

[indefatigableme]

hoping i could bring change for her

Rexiled, hopeful

[indefatigableme]

I just want to take this moment and thank You, God, for all the guidance and strength for us making it this through this far. I ask for your forgiveness for the sins we’ve done behind our parents and to ourselves. I ask for more strength for the both of us to keep this relationship strong and healthy stronger than it is right now. God, I love this person and I know she loves me too so please, help us and guide us in our paths in order for us to stay together. Please give us the knowledge and wisdom for us to make good choices. Please give us the strenght and courage for us to do things the are worth the risk. Help us to be closer to you as we grow closer to each other. I hope all goes well for us with You. Even if all hope is lost, I still have faith. I have faith in humanity, in the universe, in us and in You, lord. God, please graciously here our prayers. We ask this through your name, Amen.

Rexiled, a letter to God

[rexiled]

how am i even “worth it”?

Rexiled (via rexiled)

“how am i even “worth it”?  You’re worth it.

[indefatigableme]

I’m like your shadow During the day, always there Following you, with you Ready to catch you in any angle I’m like your shadow In sadness, in darkness I’ll surround you, embrace you I’m always there for you I’m like your shadow Mimicking your moves What you feel, I somehow feel too With you.. being human I’m like your shadow Even if you say I don’t have to I’ll still be there for and with you I choose to be your shadow Just like your shadow That’s how much I’m attached to you I got your back and you get hugs when you’re sad What can I say.. ? I love you is all.

Rexiled, like your shadow

[indefatigableme]

You aren't right But that doesn't mean you're entirely wrong.

Rexiled, for everyone who thinks they always aren’t right

[indefatigableme]

Have faith and hope, love. We’ll make this through

Rexiled, the circumstances

[indefatigableme]

“i’m better off alone.” if that’s the case, i want to be alone too.. with you.

Rexiled, alone with you<\i>

[indefatigableme]

It’s just a matter of perspective

Rexiled, for the brighter things

[indefatigableme]

I salute those people who are in a long distance relationship.

Rexiled, missing her too much<\i>

[indefatigableme]

“Life is hard” Living wouldn’t make sense if it wasn’t.

Rexiled, living

[indefatigableme]

I am the sky.

I am the sky.

Ever-changing…

A bright and cloudy sky. Happy and easy to approach to.

A clear and blue sky. Calm and of a sense of peace.

A dark cloudy sky. Low, quiet, and gloomy…

A foggy sky. Mysterious, hazy of thoughts and full of confusion.

A night starry sky. Ever so beautiful, a sense of nothingness yet still there’s something, there’s light coming from the stars in the heavens above us.

I am the sky.

Just look up, I’ll always be there for you.

[indefatigableme]

Eyes half asleep I get up on my feet Out I go to feel the early breeze It’s chilly, it’s cold, though, it makes me feel at peace I can’t get any tired of this A hint of light in the sky around Birds chirping, what a beautiful sound The world is telling me to get ready Thus I take my bath, warm water runs on my body I clean the filth from yesterday slow and steady I dress up, I fix up, now I’m all set I eat my breakfast for the day ahead The sun is rising, it’s time for me to go I take my bag, kiss my parents goodbye I proceed to my seat in the car, school is waiting for me, now off I go

Rexiled, school mornings

[indefatigableme]

Your hair is curly I like them like that Your laughter, it’s sunny I couldn’t get tired of that The way you write It makes me amazed The art you make, I sight I couldn’t turn away my gaze When you’re there with me I feel calm with you When you hold hands with me I feel at home with us two A blessing that has been given to us You love me and I love you For us, I give the universe all my trust Oh god, I just really want to be with you

Rexiled, with you

[indefatigableme]

In life, like music, there has to be rests to balance out the melody.

Rexiled, a symphony

[indefatigableme]

Love is such a nice feeling.

Rexiled, in love

[indefatigableme]

Stay.

Stay human.

Isn’t it weird? I never knew someone could make feel like this. With only your words alone, as simple as ABC, you make me feel so much already. Joy? Sadness? Anger? Fear? Name all of it. It only takes your word alone to make me feel any of it. I’m very happy. You’re the only person that could make me feel like this. Make me feel more feelings. Surprise me. Ups and downs, wanna ride this emotional roller coaster with me?

Stay honest.

Your sharp tongue, your brutal honesty, your mysterious thoughts, the way you honestly cry and the way how much you care for people. I love it. I love all of it. It leaves me no worry and no doubts, it’s all honesty. And I love people that are very honest. Tell me what you want to say, tell me everything that’s in your mind, it’s okay if it hurts me, just knowing that you show the truth is enough already to make me happy.

Stay real.

You, your presence, when you’re near, I feel conscious. I notice your every movement and I notice mine too. I feel very nervous around you. Do you feel the same too? My hands sweaty, scared of making mistakes.“Is this not enough? Is this too much? I hope it’s alright.” I tell myself. Your smile, the way you laugh, and the way you act around me? I admire it. I just can’t help it. Having you beside me, only just that, you make me feel giddy, you make feel excited, you make me feel anxious, you make me fall for you so much more. I want you to stay with me,  then let’s experience so much more together.

Stay close.

Hugs. I’ve grown to love them, along with the bright smiles you give right after exchanging them. It leaves me floating, cloudy, I feel weak. I feel exposed when you hug me. You’re the only one I see and feel when like this. I am caught by your embrace, the people around doesn’t matter to me when like this. I want to make this moment last. Holding hands. The spaces on my fingers, interlaced with yours. It feels whole. It feels true. I feel that I have you in my care. You make me feel strong. To have you hold my hand without worry, I feel loved, the world slows down. I cherish this moment. I want to stay with you.

Stay.

I want to be with you. You make me feel so much, it’s overwhelming. Your honesty is the thing that I admire. Being truthful, through your words and how you act. I couldn’t help it but feel you, you being human, it makes me feel very lucky to have an honest person like you. From there I know that I can trust you. Thank you for helping me in my darkest moments. You kept me sane when I’m too close to being not. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for being there for me. I would never want to leave you, you’re never not enough, never too much, you’re good already, you mean so much to me. Please stay with me.     “I wished for a whole lot of things, but I wished for you and me a whole lot too.” And  I wish to God to give us strength for each other to make things happen. You and me, let’s make this relationship last together.

I love you.

[indefatigableme]

#courage

          There is beauty behind sadness. In sadness, you seek for happiness. It’s something that occurs naturally. When you’re sad you always seek for something to be happy. It’s dark, it’s cold, I know it sucks. But you can’t help but, look for happiness right?  “ You start to fall out of routine, but you never seem to run out of excuses. You never seem to run out of lies to tell yourself.”  It’s true, you lie to yourself, when you’re obviously not okay, you say “I’m happy”, “I’m fine”, or “I’m okay” these usual lines. It’s a lie. You know it. But you want to be like it deep inside, you want to be like those lies that you said. Keep lying to yourself, it’s okay. Sometimes when you pretend to be like that lie for too long, it becomes true. It’s okay to be weak, we all started like that. Something to know that lies can be beautiful too.

          Inside this box, full of sadness. It’s cold, you’re frozen in ice. Every word you speak, it echoes around you. It hurts. It really does. So you choose to be quiet instead. But you just don’t know if there’s people outside that box. A thing you can do is, shout. Hear your misery, hear your problems bounce back to you, it’s reality. Accept it. Shout loud enough and ask for help. Someone will hear you eventually. They’ll help. They’ll break the box. Outside is the box is life. Just keep asking for help. People will come. Some will go away if it’s too hard, but there are people who are willing to fight till the end so that you can get out of it. Just to make you free. There are people like those. You just haven’t found them because you choose to be quiet and not ask for help. Then there it is. Those people who have stayed have finally made a hole on the box, a dent, light comes out from it.There is hope. Take it. Go for it. Take courage, struggle, break the ice, just do it. It may hurt a lot, but it’s worth it. People will help you get better after it taking such wounds just to get out.Help the people outside from the inside. Without light, ice melts slow. With the help of asking for help from other people  making that small hole, light comes in. You know how ice acts like a mirror? a glass? It refracts, it reflects, making it easier to melt, making it easier to move, making it easier to get out of that box. A small speck of light and hope can make a big difference. So ask for help and take courage to get it. It’s worth the wait, struggle and pain. Have faith.

          Life would be boring without its ups and downs. Happiness wouldn’t mean that much if there’s no sadness before it. Happiness is much more rewardable with sadness before it. 

“There’s nothing beautiful about sadness, even in a sad person.” But there is something beautiful that you can find behind sadness. It’s what is after sadness that is beautiful. The reward it gives. Happiness.