They were looking for every reason for Merritt Lingard disappearance. The men she spurned, the people she put away into jail, the people she tried to put away into jail. The overarching question of it all was: who did Merritt Lingard, the "blunt weapon", "rueful" woman, and "cunt" as her own dad called her, piss off enough to deserve being kidnapped and/or murdered. She internalized it as well, having written all the names of the people she might have done wrong in her life on the walls of her own prison for four years to answer the question of "why are you here?". Merritt Lingard was going to resign herself to death because she believed this must be the reckoning for the life she's lived. But it turns out, the answer to this mystery was not divine reckoning for something Meritt had done, and even if it was, it's not something she would have deserved. It was because of something she had no control over, the actions of a family completely unrelated to her and a sordid history of abuse in that family she had nothing to do with. She didnt deserve it. She was just the sin eater for the bad decisions of every person around her. No wonder the show starts with Merritt (unsuccessfully) attempting to put a powerful man who murdered his wife in jail, the whole story is a repudiation of the logic of abusers: "even if I did it, you deserved it anyways".
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