Clairvoyance

Shout out to the artist who took his heart and his soul and lost them both in the process

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Bloodstream || Knox & Jesse

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  shaking their head, a small sob escaped her as he spoke. it felt like all the emotion that was bottled up for this past year was bubbling to the surface and causing knox to explode. everytime he said loved it felt like a stab to the heart. it was past tense, not present. what were they expecting? they had broke his heart, only to do it again by telling him they still were in love with him. how could he ever still love her?  jesse was the most important person in their life and him seeing them like this just made them embarrassed about this whole thing. “I know that now I do.” they managed to blurt out, taking a step closer him. “please don’t cry.” their voice cracked, reaching out to wipe a few tears from his cheek. got they hated that they caused this, that they had hurt him like this.  they quickly moved their hand back, realizing they had lost their privilege to touch him like that. “I know that’s not what you do when you love someone but I did it and I can’t take it back. if I could I would trust me I would in a heartbeat but don’t think for a moment that I didn’t miss you every fucking second. I loved you, no I still love you so much.” taking a deep breath, knox looked at him almost desperately. 

 “I know that what I did hurt you and I’m so sorry for it.” she clenched her fist, fighting the urge to reach out to him.  “I’m sorry that I let my own insecurities get in the way of us and that I was so blinded by what has happened to me in the past that I let that impact who I thought you were.” tears were still pouring down her face. this was it, this was the moment they had been trying to bouild the courage up for these last few days. knox took a shaky breath,their eyes locking with his.“ and I understand if you can’t forgive me I do but I’m standing here now and I’m not running away this time. I love you jesse.”  

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It felt like everything was happening in one quick down fall, and Jesse didn’t know what to do, what to say, or to think. It was like his mind was folding in on itself with each word Knox spoke. He knew he couldn’t blame them, no matter how hurt he was by them leaving him in the dark with no explanation. It was something he just couldn’t do, because he understood their fears, and knew that they were the way they are because of their past. His head dropped as they stepped close, unable to look Knox in the eyes with them that close, it hurt more than he could put into words. He wanted to lean into their touch, but as soon as their skin came into contact with his, it was gone again in a matter of seconds. Unable to speak, he looked back up at them, not even trying to stop the tears that were freely falling down his cheeks. Jesse swore his heart stopped whenever Knox said they still loved him, making his breath hitch in his throat. It wasn’t much of a surprise to him, but at the same time it was, because they had both gone so long without addressing their true feelings. 

Now, it was as if the whole world stopped. He wasn’t expecting much when he came here, the least he expected was to get into an argument with Knox over everything, but it was the exact opposite. He blinked away the tears that blocked his vision, taking in a shaky breath and letting out a shaky breath. He wanted more than anything to forgive Knox, he practically already had in his mind long ago, even without knowing if they were ever going to be able to talk about their past relationship, or if they could even come as close as they are now, as they were before. He shook his head, knowing that there was no turning back now. He stepped closer, his arm reaching out to pull their small body to his; not hesitating for a second to connect his lips to theirs in a feverish rush, almost as if he didn’t kiss them now that they’d just disappear. “I love you, I never stopped loving you..” he whispered barely above a whisper, his words shaky, almost as shaky as his hands that were securely resting on Knox’s lower back. 

[curiouslydiscover]

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curiouslydiscover:

Happy birthday to this amazing human bean, Lynn Gunn.

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thepvriscvlt:

Lyndsey by Max Fairclough

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Bloodstream || Knox & Jesse

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  everything seemed to happen in slow motion. they knew that this was coming, how could they not? knox knew that at some point they would have to be honest with him, which would probably be the hardest thing they ever have to do. they wrapped their small arms around their frame almost as a saftey blanket. “I-I don’t know jesse, It just happened.” squeezing their eyes shut they tried to calm their nerves, shaking their head softly. the blonde just wanted all of this to stop, for things to go back to normal but there was no way they could ever go back to how things were. “It just came out I’m sorry.” a shaky breath left them, opening their eyes. once they gaze locked knox’s face fell, their eyes watering up threatening to spill out. it killed them knowing with just one look jesse could tear down all the walls they worked so hard to build up. “ I was just so scared, it’s so stupid. I realized how much I loved you and got freaked out, I don’t know how else to describe it.  I was just so terrified of letting someone in that once I realized how close you were I-I panicked.” 

  so many times knox had thought about what they had done jesse. leaving him was not only foolish for knox to do but it also was really selfish. they were only thing thinking of themselves and how they were feeling, knox never even thought how this would hurt him. “ I just didn’t want to be hurt again and you had the power to destroy me, it scared me.” their voice cracked loudly, a few tears escaping down their tan cheeks. “ I’m sorry, fuck I’m so sorry.”  knox tried to wipe their face, desperate for the tears to stop. 

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Jesse fell silent, watching Knox as they spoke barely above a whisper. He knew it was a foolish thing to do, to get the truth out of someone who hurt you when you only know it’s going to hurt you more. But he just needed it, no matter how much it hurt. He didn’t want to lose Knox, in any way shape or form; and with the way they were slowly burning, talking less and avoiding one another, he was scare this would truly be the end of them. Their relationship was the most valued relationship he had with anyone, and it was something he couldn’t even think about losing. Hearing them say they were scared to get close, to love him, made Jesse want to run. He wanted to run away from the truth even if he had wanted it so bad. Maybe he didn’t really know what he wanted, but the only thing he was certain of was Knox.

He swallowed hard in attempt to make the lump in his throat go away, trying his hardest to not let his emotions show; though it was proven to be harder than said. Seeing Knox cry only made him feel worst about everything, knowing that they were hurting just as much as he was. “But I wouldn’t have, that’s the thing. You know me, and you know I wouldn’t ever dare to do anything to hurt you, or intentionally make you upset,” he said, his voice cracking as tears slowly began to form in his eyes. “I would have never hurt you. I loved you.” His voice was slowly raising, and hot tears rolled down his cheek, one after the other. “I loved you so goddamned much, Knox— I mean, for fucks sake, I was scared too, for actually loving someone who loved me too— but I didn’t run. I didn’t want to run away from you and my feelings just because I was scared. That’s not what you do when you love someone. You don’t run away from them” 

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After years have passed, you can still remember it all, and It’s incredible, the way she taught the stars to dance. Sometimes, you think you can hear the moon whispering her name, and Sometimes, you know your heart does too. You can never forget it, her sunshine smile, her electric touch, her eyes, her eyes, her eyes. When all of it is long gone, you will be painting it in the wind as if it was just yesterday.

Memories

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Bloodstream || Knox & Jesse

[whoknowsxanymore]

   knox didn’t know why they had told told him how they really felt, that they were still madly and stupidly in love with him. they could easily blame in on being drunk or maybe even say they were joking but knox knew that jesse would never fall for that. he knew them better than anyone else and it was to late to go back. leaving him was one of the worse mistakes of their young life. knox was just so afraid of being hurt again that they ran away from the one good thing that had ever happened to them. in a way the blonde was finally glad it was off their chest. for what felt like forever they had buried their feelings deep with in themselves but now it was out in the open. not that it didn’t terrify knox that he knew how they felt because it honestly scared the living shit out of them. these past few day they had done their best to give the young man his space but with every passing minute knox grew anxious from not speaking to him.  they missed him. 

 a hard knock at their door startled them, crawling out of bed. “I’m coming!” they shouted, grabbing their glasses from the nightstand the blonde made their way to the front door and opened it.  “jesse?” their voice was soft cracking just the slightest, looking at him wide eyed. seeing him standing there felt like someone had just punched knox in the gut. why was he here? why didn’t he call first? clearing their throat, the opened the door a little more. they refused to meet his gaze, to embarssed of everything they had done. “um come in, what are you doing here?” 

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Jesse swore he felt all the air in his lungs dry up whenever Knox opened the door, causing him to stare dumbfounded at them when they said his name. He thought he knew what he’d say when he saw them, he had told himself all that he needed to say the whole way to their apartment. Though now he was there, it’s like everything he told himself never mattered. “Yeah.. That’s me.” he finally mumbled out, scratching the back of his neck. He studied their face for a short moment, though he avoided the eye contact. Not able to bring himself to look, knowing he’d just lose the little composure he had. His gazed dropped back to his old beat up boots as they invited him in, letting his feet lead him in. He wasn’t even sure what to say, everything was just a blur of emotions that tore him to pieces with every moment passing. 

“I needed to see you— I needed to talk to you, Knox.” he admitted softly, turning to look at Knox. They looked as if they had just been rudely awoken, but Jesse got the feeling that they probably hadn’t slept much since their last talk. He knew he didn’t. He stayed awake most nights just thinking everything over, reciting their words in his head. They loved him. Yet they left him. “Why did you tell me you loved me?” He asked, probably being a little too straight forward. “Why did you tell me after a year of you ending things with me? I mean, fuck, Knox, did I do something that made you leave?” now his voice was low and raspy, and his brown eyes searched for theirs through the dimly lit apartment. He wanted to see their face when they told him why, but he didn’t think he wanted them to see him when he gets the truth he wants.

[timotaychalamet]

Her (2013) dir. Spike Jonze

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Bloodstream || Knox & Jesse

The past few days for Jesse had been a blur of emotions, all of which he couldn’t explain or pin point what or why. The last time he spoke to Knox kept playing over and over again in his mind, and all he could think of was them. He valued his friendship with Knox more than he could say with words, yet the pain that lingered in his chest after speaking to them, or even just seeing them reminded him of what they used to be. He never got closure when Knox broke it off with him, and he didn’t ever dare to bring it up with them, not knowing if he were even allowed to question them about it. Why? Did I do something wrong? were just a few of the things he thought whenever he would think back to their break up. 

Currently, he was walking up the steps that led to the familiar apartment he had been to many times before. He could’ve swore his chest was going to leap from his chest, and he hadn’t even seen Knox yet. He just needed to know why. He didn’t care if it would only hurt him more in the end, he just needed that closure. When he reached the door, he hesitated a moment before knocking on the door, almost a little too loud. He stepped back, running a shaky hand through his messy brown hair as he waited nervously to see their familiar face.

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[atlasliife]

so i hit 200 not that long ago ( actually it was a while tbh but i’ve been a lil bit busy ) and so i threw together this shitty graphic and hoped i could thank everyone who’s been lovely and stuck with me this far. 

firstly, my babies, there are the sweethearts that i talk to all the time, and i absolutely adore you all.:

☾ @quiescvnt​: um baby i don’t think i have any words to describe everything i love about you. *insert corny i’m dating my best friend shit*.

☾ @tvlkmcdown​: your writing is perfection, and you’re lovely to plot with. dana i’m so glad we’re friends, and i’m so glad you put up with my craziness

☾ @ex-agentethan​: hi ellie imu

☾ @inexplicvble​: bless u for coming back bec i missed u a lot andi river is actually one of my favorites. it’s weird for me to think about frances without her. i thought about going back to nye once, but it would be weird if river wasn’t there.

☾ @lisztomcnia​: regina you are the literal sweetest i adore you and your writing. talking to you tends to make my day. i need avery and rain more than air (shocking since i haven’t replied in forever, i know)

☾ @monachcpsis​: wow omg i’ve known you 5ever anna thank u for not thinking i’m shitty i feel like ive grown a lot lets never think back to the early days n the dark times ever ok i was shitty then 

☾ @smxkeintheaxr​: well hello sweetie ur muses are great and ur such a nice guy, thanks for being rad jason i appreciate it 

☾ @wickeddiealone​: hi jj 

☾ @fckxillusion: i know i haven’t replied recently, but axl and gage are so cute and you write so well, i’m so glad that you plot with me and write with me

ok now my lil fawns, we’ve either had a few threads, or i just generally appreciate you.:

✞ @mumbliings ✞ @optacity ✞ @overeaching ✞ @bcnvoyage ✞ @assholcs ✞ @atragedyincolour ✞ @elctricluv​ ✞ @elxctrichearts​ ✞ @eightholyterrors​ ✞ @miisdemeanor  ✞

ok now there are my greater princes, i look up to you all a lot (you’re greater princes bec bambi’s dad is the greater prince of the forest, jsyk)

✘ @ofstonecold​  ✘ @ofchaotic​  ✘ @ofbitching​  ✘ @ofbeligerence​  ✘ @ofhaunteds​  ✘ @ofdevibe​  ✘  @emotionallycolorful​  ✘ @deflectentes​  ✘ @breathlcss​  ✘ @foraangels​  ✘ @bcbyblew​ (yes i’m aware both of those blogs are run by one person but lol idrc)  ✘  @mytheds​  ✘  @damnedfratality  ✘ @5secofsvmmer  ✘ @wild0nex  ✘ @wiltedandelion  ✘ @cyniical  ✘ @firexmeetxgasoline  ✘ @ncthan  ✘ @ncrvouswreck  ✘ @tcnights  ✘ @mctaphorically  ✘ @admirxbles  ✘ @indieconda  ✘ @blurrypoet  ✘

i know there are so many more of you guys and i swear i love you all too, it’s just that i’m really tired and wasting time right now doing this. school is eating me alive tbh.

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Adventure time || Frances & River

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frances had a hard time doing anything but think about river, in their short time in seattle. it just didn’t seem right to explore without her. especially not with the immediate connection the two had. and so, when they had received a text from the girl, the tiny brunet was more than overjoyed. there was nothing that they wanted more than to see her, after all, river had been such a sweetheart when they met. not to mention how cute she was. it felt as though tgis was meant to happen, and they weren’t sure how much they liked that. not because it was a bad thing, it was just odd for them to feel as though they belonged there. frances slipped into a comfortable binder and the cutest boy passing outfit they could find. after all, they really wanted to look perfect for river. when they finally achieved it, the giddy smile never left their face as they replied to river, explaining that they’d be there in just a few short minutes. a quiet smile slips from their lips as their hair is pulled upwards not into a bun. 

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River felt her heart race whenever she received a text back from Frances. Her stomach was practically doing flips as she read that they would be there in a second. She didn’t know how to feel, or what she was supposed to feel around them. Even though they barely knew one another, River felt an immediate connection to Frances. From the moment she saw them struggling in front of her with her baggage, she felt compelled to be there for them as odd as it might seem to others. She really did like them, and she enjoyed how she felt whenever they were near. She thought she was probably going the slightest bit mad with how much she already likes them. She sat impatiently, trying to seem as cool as she could as she waited in the small shop, watching the entrance for the familiar face. 

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Adventure time || Frances & River

The flight the night before was less than pleasant for River. She didn’t sleep, knowing the coffee she had before the flight was probably not a good idea. Though, once in Seattle, and going her separate way from Frances, just a few rooms apart, she slept like a rock for the night. But as soon as she woke up, she remembered Frances almost immediately, and wanted to see if they were awake yet. Call her crazy, after only knowing each other for under forty eight hours, she couldn’t keep her mind off the blue eyed cutie, who she planned to spend some times with during her small trip. She wasted no time to get dressed and ready for the day as she grabbed all she needed and headed for the small cafe in the lobby of the hotel. She ordered her usual black coffee, and a coffee with almond milk, remembering that was what Frances would typically order. She took a seat at a table by the window as she took out her phone, sending a text to Frances. “Hey, if you’re awake and want to meet me down at the small cafe in the lobby, I have a surprise for you.” she wrote just before sending the message, hoping to see them soon.

(@vellichvr)​ 

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Frances couldn’t help but grin, taking note of the smile on River’s face. They were so enamored by her, knowing that this would only be a momentary affair. Or at least, thinking that until the girl offered what seemed to them like an amazing idea. “I’m so in for that, honestly.” They grin, feeling their heart stutter as River’s lips curl into a smile. Frances wanted to put that smile on her face more often.  “Alright, I’ll remember that…” They smile, before ordering a green tea for themself. “I’d usually get coffee with almond milk, but I think I’d like to sleep through this flight.” They explain, paying for the drinks with an easy smile. 

River was grinning so wide she was sure the smile was permanently stuck on her face. Not that she didn’t mind. She hadn’t smile like that in so long, so she was more than happy to know someone could still make her smile that big even though they barely knew one another. “Awesome, now I know if i get lost we can make an adventure of it.” she says with a chuckle. When they told her what they would typically order, she nods taking a mental note to remember that for a future reference. “Oh? Are you scared of flying?” she asks sincerely, watching the smile on their face as they paid for the drinks. She honestly thought their smile was adorable, and she didn’t mind she’d get to see it for a while longer while they were both in Seattle. She took her drink from the barista thanking them before she turned to Frances, “Also, thank you.”

[justineskye]

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loquvcious:

Skylar had been cleaning the studio windows when he smelled something burning. “Oh no the chicken!” he gasped. He put down the cleaning supplied and immediately ran to the kitchen. Skylar shook his head, “This shit is ruined now, god dammit.” he grabbed the pan the threw the burnt chicken in the trash. He insisted on still making the chicken pasta alfredo, so he took a chicken breast out of the fridge and placed it in a bowl that had seasoning. He quickly placed the seasoned chicken on the pan so the pasta doesn’t get cold. Skylar was going to clean up again until he heard a knock on the door. He wiped his hands on his apron and opened it. He was shocked to see Matty standing right in front of him. Before Matty could say a word, Skylar quickly shut the door. He doesn’t even know why he did that, it was out of instinct. Skylar leaned his back against the door, having all these emotions run through his mind. He didn’t know what to feel. He was angry, first of all because this isn’t the only time Matty has done this. And he was happy to see him, because he still loves him. Skylar opened the door and put his hands on his hip. “Who do you think you are Matty? You just leave me alone all of a sudden again?! Do you have any idea what it’s like to be left behind? Or to feel like maybe the person you love didn’t love you back? Cause that’s how I felt, every single day. I had to wonder everyday what I did for you to leave. And do you know how much it sucks to not have my boyfriend around?! Do you know how many perverts tried to hit on me? Or how many guys touched my ass thinking they could get me to go home with them? No you don’t, and let me tell you, it feels horrible. It sucks not having you around.” Skylar couldn’t help but break down and cry.

Matty was relieved as Skylar opened the door, but that only lasted a second before it was shut in his face. he stood in shock, not believing Skylar would have shut him out like that; although a part of him could understand why he did. When the door opened again, he fell silent, listening to every word that came out of Skylar’s mouth. Hearing how Skylar talked about how guys would try to touch him and get him to hook up with them only made Matty sick. He swallowed thickly as Skylar’s body sunk to the floor, hiding his face as he began to sob. Matty sunk to his knees, wrapping his arms firmly around Skylar’s shoulder and pulling him to his chest. “R-Rusty has been looking for me– I had to get out of town– and fuck–” he said, stopping himself as he had to fight back the urge to get sick at just the others name, remembering the brutal bar fight, ending with Matty being rushed to the hospital while Rusty walked free, threatening to get him again. That was the whole reason as to why Matty left. He was afraid of getting found by the one man he was sure wanted him dead, after trying to finish the fight by hitting him and running. “I’m sorry. I’m fucking sorry, and all I can do now is try to be here for you– and be here without leaving again– if you trust me, and love me, please let me stay, don’t just throw this away.”