I could say all the negative things about the last few days, or weeks, or months.
But instead I'll say something positive.
I didn't self harm tonight.
I cried a ton. I want to cry more. My head is throbbing. I want a pain a can control.
But i didn't self harm.
It was really, really really hard. And tomorrow it might still be really hard.
But im still here. I'm trying. And that's the best I've got right now.
So that didnt last long.
Im going back on meds.
And im trying so, so fucking hard to stay positive and put one foot in front of the other but christ, it's so fucking heavy. I know im growing but i feel like im dying.













