It's Real For Us

22. female. scientist. united states.

[masterpieceavenue94]

i am confident i am over you. so much that some mornings i wake up with a smile on my face and my hands pressed together thanking the universe for pulling you out of me. thank god i cry. thank god you left. i would not be the empire i am today if you had stayed.                       but then. there are some nights i imagine what i might do if you showed up. how if you walked into the room this very second every awful thing you’ve ever done would be tossed out the closest window and all the love would rise up again. it would pour through my eyes as if it never really left in the first place. as if it’s been practicing how to stay silent so long only so it could be this loud on your arrival. can someone explain that. how even when the love leaves. it doesn’t leave. how even when i am so past you. i am so helplessly brought back to you.

milk and honey (via masterpieceavenue94)

[infinitelyalways]

The struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow.

I sure hope you’re right

[infinitelyalways]

happy late birthday, tarah. sending you so much love ♥

I wish I knew who this was but thank you so much sweet anon

[infinitelyalways]

happy birthday, sk. thanks for writing so many lines that hit you right in the soul.

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Hey cutie 😉

lol what

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my heart is open and willing. so take it

[infinitelyalways]

I feel like at my happiest I'm just apathetic and it's ruining me. I'm going on a trip this weekend and should be excited but I couldn't be more indifferent

[infinitelyalways]

I'm so sick of weird games. either have good intentions or leave me alone. please don't play with my feelings and waste my time and fuck me up even more

[infinitelyalways]

lately I have no one having an active role in my life so it's kinda like I'm just existing independently of any meaningful interaction and it's been this way for almost 2 months now and it's getting harder and harder to handle and idk how to make this situation improve

[infinitelyalways]

whenever I'm alone with my thoughts for more than like an hour I pretty much self destruct and it's become an issue

[infinitelyalways]

i hope that one day, someone decides they want to stick around in my life, at least for a little while.

[infinitelyalways]

You are beautiful & adorable, successful, and seem to be a truly wonderful person - someone will be very lucky to have you and anyone who doesn't see that doesn't deserve you. I hope you find someone suitable very soon, but in the meantime I wish you happiness and serenity through the (relatable) struggle!

I want to cry, thank you so much sweet anon :'( I wish I knew who you were. But thank you again so much. this means a ton

[infinitelyalways]

I don't have many people in my life anymore and I feel so isolated and lonely in every way possible

[infinitelyalways]

I downloaded sarahah without expecting any messages, let alone nice ones and now I’m so emotional and also dying of curiosity bc no one talks to me but people think these things???

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I’ve been feeling like garbage lately and yesterday I finally felt ok enough to take a selfie so here

[infinitelyalways]

I'm at a point where I will be ok if you don't want me but god do I really want you to

[infinitelyalways]

I feel like what I'm looking for in another person is impossible to find