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this is chxrli btw i lost my blog so i'll just go back here ig

i miss weed

look it’s not like i’m not desperate too i just don’t have it in me to beg anymore i think. i take things at face value a lot. he gave me closure. i can take no for an answer. he wants me to move on, i’ll try. i would rather not obviously. i hope luci can win him over. i really want to be with him. but i can’t force it. luci’s the one who likes to try and try and try until it breaks him. i’m more of the ‘fine! be stubborn. see where it gets you.’ type. luci’s the masochist. not me.

i wanna say i’m more the like…. either concerningly obedient immediate pliable doll mode sub. or the kind of dom who treats you like a kinky fucked up medical examiner. it can be hard to describe. and then luci by comparison is obviously literally a masochist and he has a loooot of trouble being sadistic. that’s more mana’s thing. and he’s a service top. very theatrical. obviously. and mana’s very like. yandere trope heavy. ‘oh you thought you could get away that easily’ type beat. and then flips right back to the cute well adjusted housewife once the strap is off. that kind of thing.

not that anyone needs that information obviously. who’s in too deep?? you’re in too deep. shut up

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