I am panicking. Like I want to scream and cry and go to sleep and ignore my problems. Why? BECAUSE LIFE IS STRESSING ME THE FUCK ,OUT. I need to pay for stuff and I have to finish paying for college. I need a job. I need to do all of my homework (I have a lot of work to do, a lot, a tear inducing amount of work to do that will only be accomplished by all-nighters and caffeine overdoses). Word of adviceĀ readers, DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES PROMISE SOMETHING YOU CAN NOT AFFORD TO DO. Well duh you say, I never do that you murmur, what have you done you question judgmentally. I am in college, I have a roommate, we talked about who would bring what, we both had fridges and microwaves already, she did not have a TV, I only had a much beloved old heavy dinosaur that I was not under any circumstances going to lug up to campus. As I planned to send a text out that explained that I did not have a TV either and that we would just have to go TV-less until one of us could afford one I realized instead that my traitor fingers had texted that I promised to purchase a TV. And immediately regretted the promise because I cannot afford it, I did and do not have a job. What is wrong with me, you ask, why would you do that, you question. I do not know, I respond, I have a stupid need to please someone I had not even met yet, I continue. What is wrong with me!? Anyway I made this promise and got to campus without the TV and explained that I could not afford it right then but I would get it. Guys it has been like three months, I have yet to find a job and I have been spending money on food and stuff instead, because I am trash. I am the most disgusting smelling and vomit inducing trash there is. On top of that I still have not found a job (because I am one of those people who babysat family members for money and never got a real job and therefore does not have any experienceĀ needed to get a jobĀ (by the way what kind of shitty paradox is that?!)). I still havenāt gotten the TV I promised and I feel so guilty, I still have to pay off my student account in order to enroll next semester, I still need to get boots before the weather gets cold enough to freeze my toes off and I still need a job. Besides those things I have so much homework to do, and IT. IS. STRESSING. ME. OUT. Even though most of these are problems of my own making I do feel better now that I have ranted a bit. So thanks for reading or rolling your eyes and laughing at my plight.
hahaha just kidding I do not feel any better the election made sure of that.
