It’s been a bit of a week (month, year or two), and I’ve kept busy this weekend because sitting still isn’t my jam and movement usually helps me sort out stuff only, I don’t really feel sorted. Just tired.
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It’s been a bit of a week (month, year or two), and I’ve kept busy this weekend because sitting still isn’t my jam and movement usually helps me sort out stuff only, I don’t really feel sorted. Just tired.
You might think the hardest part of Ragnar would have been the mileage and all those freaking hills but you’d be wrong. For me, the hardest part was waiting at an exchange and hearing Tom Petty’s “Wildflowers”... a song that was played at my brother’s memorial service, a year ago this weekend - almost to the day. I burst into tears in that church parking lot. He always says hello through music. Before our last race, I heard one of his favorites - Stevie Wonder’s “Sir Duke” - on the way to the starting line.
So the hills didn’t get me quite as badly as Tom Petty. And I don’t even like Tom Petty.
So many ads for TurboTax up in here.
Yep. I’ve zipped through all of Mortified Guide in far too short a time and I wish I’d savored it a bit because HILARIOUS. Anyway. Getting a jump start on the week and my to do list. Last week was a nightmare so I’m trying to get ahead of it (whoohooooo Inbox 758!). Happy Sunday, y’all.
MCI —> MDW, check.
The post-Ragnar blues is a thing. In my case, it’s probably exacerbated by the fact that my travel plans went haywire and now I’m at some gross hotel in Kansas City, Missouri, hoping that the Universe doesn’t mess with my travel plans to get home tomorrow. Ragnar was a bucket list race for me and the experience was so much more than I could have hoped. It wasn’t just the beautiful scenery, lack of snow, and badass medal. It was the team of people who not only were unfailingly supportive of each other, but ridiculously fun to be around. I couldn’t have asked for a better group of people to spend 30 hours in a van with. Running with @existentialtread was like riding an awesome roller coaster and wanting to immediately get right back in line when the ride is over. Can’t wait for the next one.
FAQ
What is this? This is a side tumblr where we will document the exploits of team Existential Tread, our entry in the 2018 Ragnar Del Sol.
What’s Ragnar? It’s a relay race. A team of 12 people runs about 200 miles over a two-day period, including overnight. Each of the 12 runners runs three legs, which vary in length from 3 - 11 miles. On average, each runner will run about 16 miles total.
What’s Del Sol? They have a bunch of Ragnars. Del Sol is the one staged around the Phoenix metro area, February 9-10.
Who’s doing it? Several tumblrs (some who are retired): @schmidlap, @hopefulmisanthrope, @thechristaland, @inmi, @filmchris, and our friend Jeannine who, sadly, doesn’t have a tumblr.
That’s only 6. You said 12. Yes, we signed up as a “six-pack,” and any day now we’ll be paired with another six-pack of hopefully equal age, skill, and chill level; it’s unlikely they’ll be anywhere near as cool or attractive? Some crazy people run the whole thing as a team of six. That’s called an “ultra.” Ultra crazy, if you ask me. ouch.
How does the relay work? We rented a big-ass van, as will the other six. So we’ll drop Runner 1 off at their start point, then drive up to their end point. When Runner 1 gets there, s/he’ll hand the baton to Runner 2, and the process repeats through all six in the van for the first six legs. Then, the other van takes over for Runners 7-12, and the first van goes to where Runner 12 will finish to start the cycle over again. This repeats 3 times. 36 legs total.
You run at night? Yes. Everyone will have an overnight leg. We’ll keep the van close by for safety. I think we’re in the suburbs at that point, so it will be on lit streets and hopefully not too creppy. I have heard stories of coyotes tailing runners in this race, though.
How many teams? Last year there were almost 500 at the start. 14 didn’t finish, and another 6 were disqualified. They spread us out with different start times, so it’s not crowded on the course, like most races. This should be a lot of solitary running. Works for me.
What about the course? This one is mostly on streets. But they don’t close them, so it’s like a weekend run where you use the shoulder or the sidewalk. They make us go through all kinds of safety training and wear vests and lights, so, hopefully nobody gets squashed.
Dude, that’s the desert. Yeah. And you’re mostly on your own for water, though on the longer legs, they do offer some. But that’s why there’s a van.
Can people come and cheer? I think they only allow it at the finish, but we’d love to see you there. Not sure what time we’ll be there yet.
What’s wrong with you? This sounds insane. Look at the list of people up there doing this. It’s gonna be fucking amazing.
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We’re doing a thing.
Home. Thank god. Also: the air above every state between Colorado and Illinois was very bouncy and so the fact that I didn't have a nervous breakdown on the flight is owed entirely to airplane vodka.
I realize how ungrateful it sounds to say I wish I hadn't come to California and I wish I hadn't wasted a week of vacation time on this trip - but I wish we had stayed home. I am every bit as on edge as I was before this trip (with the bonus of being completely buried when I get back to the office) and then some.
It's super fun to fly across the country to spend a week with people who don't even seem to like you
It's been a bit of a week. My girls are baffled by this trip. I'm baffled by this trip. The girls and I happily bailed on dinner plans to eat slices of cheese pizza from Whole Foods and avoid being around people.
I thought a lot about putting this into the talk, and then I decided it needed to be in there. So what I have noticed over the years is that many patients and many families who have one of these inherited eye diseases basically have a form of posttraumatic stress disorder. And the reason is they were minding their own business, you know, with some kind of symptom. They thought they might need some new glasses or something, and they go in to get their glasses, and somebody looks in there and sees an abnormal pigment or something, and they turn and say, well, you know, you have, fill in the blank, retinitis pigmentosa, Usher syndrome, whatever, and they say this thing, and you go, well what is that? What does that mean? And they say, well, it means you're going to go blind, and if you told someone out on the street that some doctor said that to somebody, they wouldn't believe you. They would not believe you. And yet every single patient I see has been told that at least once by somebody they see, just like that, you're going to go blind. Well, what are we going to do about it? Because, you know, you have a ruptured appendix, you're expecting the doctor to say we'll rush upstairs and fix the ruptured appendix. No, you have a ruptured appendix. Go home. What? Look it up on the web. We'll get somebody to print it for you on the way out. You think I'm kidding. They go and look up something on the web and print it out on a dot matrix printer and hand it to you and you stagger out to your car in complete and utter disbelief, and it is exactly the same as witnessing an automobile accident where somebody is killed or a combat injury or something like that. It's exactly the same, and it has all of the same symptoms associated with it. It's associated with anxiety and depression and poor sleep and these uncontrollable thoughts that you think you've got it all tamped down but you don't have it all tamped down because there are these triggers. What are the triggers? Well, some well meaning soul sends you an email because they just found this thing, you know, they were reading this thing and they found this thing that says that maybe CRISPR won't work or something, and then suddenly it just floods back to you exactly you remember vividly everything in that room that that doctor said and you're right, doctor, it's just like posttraumatic stress syndrome. But you know what? The war correspondents, the helicopter pilots, the medics, the doctors back at the far away base taking care of the soldiers, they have posttraumatic stress syndrome too, they have this too, they want this outcome as badly as you do, because when they get the question or the email and the anger, it wakes it up in them too.
My doc at a conference a few weeks ago I was crying when I heard it the first time and again now reading the transcript because my gosh, if only I had known this two years ago I would have known why everything has just been so hard
I've spent 2.5 hours in the passenger seat in the past 36 hours as my daughter with her brand new learner's permit drives...
And that still doesn't make me as anxious as thinking about work does. - I started a new half marathon training program yesterday. Getting my miles in when it's humid is a bit of torture but makes me feel a little bit badass. - I will be in California in August and already dreading the whole "getting on an airplane" thing. - I put new flooring in my living room, dining room, and kitchen a few months ago and my dog hates it so much. I've inadvertently traumatized my dog by my hatred of carpet. - Considering it's been a four day weekend, I should be cheerier today but it's essentially Sunday dread on a Tuesday so I'm just a ton of fun right now.
Here is a post because I'm writing web content and the existing content is so riddled with misspelled words and typos I've gotta figure that imma hit this out of the park just because I can spell.
Covenant and convenient…not the same things, btw.
Being an adult isn't my favorite thing. Right now I should be going to sleep so I can wake up and go to physical therapy and then go to work where I'll sit in my chair for hours on end and maybe I'll get up twice for water or to go to the restroom. In general, I'm in a tough life season and while I know that it will pass and it won't always be this way, it's kicking my ass. This is why I don't post more.
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Finally got around to writing about my trip to Iowa.
Here is a post about the things:
1 - Today I have all kinds of words rolling around in my head. The kind of blog post you write that inevitably bites you in the ass, so anyway, the words are staying in my head for now but something something being a project manager is slowly sucking out my soul something something. 2 - I've been trying to drink more water and exercise more because I am getting closer to (ugh) 40 and the effects of that first point up there coupled with the fact that I AM getting older ("You're not older than dirt, mom. A lot of the dirt is really old. You're only older than SOME of the dirt."), well, it's harder to not look like I haven't slept in four days and instead have spent my evenings eating salt by the spoonful just to watch myself bloat. 3 - I'm a ray of freaking sunshine. 4 - i am sitting at my dining table, having just finished breakfast. Not a single part of me wants to get up and start getting ready. I worked from home yesterday and was ON FIRE. I got so much done. Back to the office today. Hopefully my productivity will follow me. 5 - I want to sit on a patio on a warm day with a good cocktail. Saturday is wide open with no plans. That's how I know it'll rain all weekend.