So I don't have an outlet for this and quite frankly left Tumblr because it turned into a dramatic pissing contest but this is the only place I feel like I can post without having to pretend I'm okay, so here it goes... Please skip, this is a stream of consciousness blog. Sorry to sound dramatic but I haven't been this scared in a really long time. Waiting on two day late test results. Went in for a full blood panel because my body was literally shutting down with each passing day. Given preventative antibiotics last week for Lyme's disease as a sheer guess and my symptoms are getting exponentially worse. Extreme onset arthrits, fatigue and depression. I don't know what to do. I literally feel like my body is falling to pieces and I can't seem to bring myself to tell anyone about it. Honestly sometimes I slip out of conciousness enough that I don't know or honestly even care if I'll come back or not. I think just having that thought pass my mind is what terrifies me the most.
