* SHOCKWAVE

as narrated by kat.

[instructortrepe]

“ ONLY WHEN WE ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO EXPLORE DARKNESS WILL WE DISCOVER THE INFINITE POWER OF OUR LIGHT. “

an independent quistis trepe, edea kramer and fujin of final fantasy viii muses narrated by kat.

( temp / psd )

[instructortrepe]

Hello? Hello?

Is this thing on?

Hi! I’ve been gone so long but I miss writing Quistis and I miss all the plots / ships / mighty feels.

[felicitysmoakgifs]

#HBIC

[sapphiccanaries]

Felicity Smoak Arrow 1x12 - “Vertigo”

[rpdepartment]

munday asks!!!

at what age did you start RPing?

do you RP anywhere else, other than tumblr?

on what platform did you start RPing?

what made you choose this muse?

is there any other muse in this fandom you RP?

is there any other muse in this fandom you’d like to RP?

is there a muse you played on more platforms or in different moments of your life? 

did you have a muse you tried to play, but didn’t feel connected to?

did you have muse you tried to play, but ended up dropping for various reasons? (the rpc wasn’t active, you lost interest, etc)

would you be interested into playing a crossover? if yes, do you have any limits?

would you be interested into playing with doubles? 

what do you think about AUs?

what do you think about OCs?

what do you think about roleplaying with personals?

what do you think about roleplaying with anons?

what’s the best way to approach you to start playing together?

what was your first muse?

did you ever play a muse for more than a year?

do you have ship bias?

what’s a ship you don’t want to roleplay at all with this muse? (except Bad Illegal And Gross Stuff, of course)

what do you think of your muse’s popular fandom ship?

what do you think of your muse’s canon ship, if they have one?

would you play a OC x canon ship?

would you play a crossover ship?

do you play smut? do you play it only with characters you’re shipping with, or are you open for “one night stands”?

are you multiship?

are you interested into poly relationships for your muse?

is your muse canon divergent in any way?

what are your honest thought about your muse’s canon?

what are your favorite RP tropes to play? (angst, hurt-comfort, etc…)

do you regularly play crack?

do you regularly do dash commentaries?

what are your thoughts on dash commentary?

what are your thoughts on reblog karma?

if you aren’t a native english speaker, do you play in your first language too?

do you feel similar to your muse in any way?

do you feel different to your muse in any way?

what’s the best inspiration for your muse?

what’s a song that reminds you of your muse?

[ OBLIGATORY FREE SPACE!!! Ask anything you’d like! ]

[instructortrepe]

( @burntchild continued.. )

It’s an odd feeling for Quistis, standing there like a rabbit caught in headlights — feet feel frozen to the spot, she can hear her pulse pounding in her ears; this isn’t a feeling for home, no, this is a feeling for the field, right before everything hits the fan. This is a feeling for those slow-motion moments, the train wreck moments everyone can see coming but are powerless to stop. Adrenaline, she supposes; fight, flight or freeze. There’s no use in fighting ( barbed words would only dig the hole deeper ), no use in running ( not that she could even if she wanted to ) and she’s not sure she can take another reminder from Xu — she may not say the words but the meaning is clear each and every time there’s a mention of the other shoe dropping … I told you so.

And so she’s frozen to the spot as Seifer helps himself to the bedding from the guest closet, takes more than a few moments before shaky steps carry her to the foot of the stairs. There should be a conversation, she thinks, to clear the air and yet words fail her. How does she even begin to bridge the gap? How can she explain why all of a sudden, that trauma had hit her like a truck. It makes no sense, not when she’d been able to lean on him ( literally… ) on the trip back from the train station.

“I could use a little help,” and of course she’s aware that to help her upstairs, he’ll have to touch her and yes, she’s acutely aware that to flinch away from him again on the stairs will likely mean a fall she can’t afford, “If you don’t mind.” Perhaps it’ll be different this time? She knows it’s coming, almost planned, almost safe. “But we really should talk about this,” left hand strays toward the crutches, “I don’t think it’s wise to let it fester overnight.” Because inevitably it’d grow legs and a tail, morph into something more, something bigger, than it is. It’s awful, of course it is, but it’s still fixable, is it not?

“You don’t have to sleep on the couch, you know,” slowly, carefully, Quistis navigates the bottom two steps with only the barest of winces as her leg puts up a fight, “You won’t be comfortable. Our room is free, I’ve been sleeping in the guest room, so…” Oh, well, that’s not her finest work; a mis-step? “I just mean that you’ll be more comfortable in there than on the couch, you know the front window has a draft.” Chalk awkward up alongside all the rest.

Breathe, Quistis, and try again.

“I’m making such a mess of this. I don’t want to make things awkward and I’m not trying to make things any worse than they are,” another step, “Tell me what you’re thinking?”

[instructortrepe]

“  every time i touch you, there’s a moment where you look like you think it will hurt. ” -burntchild

Ah, the disconnect; there’s relief in having Seifer home, in the return of a pinch of normality, in taking a step ( however shakily, given circumstance ) away from chaos for a while but there’s no denying the way she flinches at his touch. It’s involuntary, a reaction without an off switch, something Kadowaki had warned her would be likely and yet still, perhaps stupidly, Quistis brushed those warnings off. Deny. But it’s futile, is it not? A wasted effort, when all is said and done? Seifer knows - gifted though she is in stretching truths when she has to, in lying with a straight face whenever warranted on assignment but Seifer? He knows. There’s no dressing it up, no denying it, nothing to be gained from a swift change of subject; he’d only see through it and all they’d have to show would be a deeper hole to,climb out of.

No. No. The only way out is through.

“Because it did,” try as she might, as much as she wants to, Quistis can’t bring her gaze up to meet his, “I’ve not slept in that room since…”

Since that one night changed everything.

“I can still hear the lamp shattering, I can still feel your hands at my throat and I know you weren’t really there. I know that. I don’t think the look in your eyes will ever truly leave me, no matter what Kadowaki says.” Stop, Quistis. Breathe. Take a second. “Seifer, I thought I’d kissed those crutches goodbye months ago and now I can barely walk upstairs without them, I spent weeks in Xu’s spare bedroom while you were in that place and as much as I fought against every single hurdle they put between us, the look in your eyes…”

Vacant, empty, dissociated. The first disconnect; it’s a moment burned into her memory, something to be replayed time and again. And it’ll pass, it will, as all things eventually do, but there’s a road to travel.

“If I look like I think it’ll hurt, believe me when I say that I wish I didn’t,” finally, finally, Quistis drags her gaze upward to meet his own, “And also when I say that I’m glad to have you home. I just need time, Seifer, Kadowaki says to take things one day at a time.” How often have they chosen to ignore the doctor’s advice until forced? Now it feels like a much-needed lifeline. “And I know how highly you rate her advice so consider this a request from me instead. Please. Be patient with me. Can you do that?”

( @burntchild )

[allthingsmusings]

autumn/halloween sentence starters! 🍂🍁🎃

masterlist of autumn and halloween themed sentence starters! some are original, but most are collected from other posts.

​❝ i made pumpkin cookies! want to try one? ❞

❝ did you cut yourself carving the pumpkin? let me see it. ❞

❝ stay still i’m almost done with your costume. ❞

​❝ let’s paint pumpkins. ❞

❝ hurry up! we’re going to be late for the costume party! ❞

❝ help me decorate! ❞

​❝ let’s open some windows, okay? ❞

​❝ it’s starting to rain… ❞

​❝ bring a jacket! ❞

​❝ do we really need to go to a pumpkin patch? can’t we just buy one at the store? ❞

​❝ let’s go pick pumpkins! ❞

​❝ it’s chilly out here, you need a coat. take mine. ❞

​❝ you sound sick. are you sick? ❞

*sneeze* ​❝ sorry, allergies. ❞

​❝ wanna go out for halloween? ❞

​❝ looks like it’s time to rake the leaves… ❞

​❝ let’s go get hot chocolate then go for a walk. ❞

​❝ let’s go trick-or-treating! ❞

❝ let’s go jump in the leaves! ❞

​❝ come in here where it’s dry! ❞

​❝ it’s dark?! already?! ❞

​❝ ooh it’s chilly out. ❞

​❝ please, enough with the pumpkin spice. ❞

​❝ good morning. no, don’t get up, it’s raining, let’s stay in bed a little longer… ❞

❝ did you hear about the werewolf/vampire/witch roaming around this town on halloween night? ❞

❝ let’s go to the haunted house! oh, please, please, please, please?! ❞

❝ i don’t get scared. i’m practically fearless. ❞

❝ did you hear that? ❞

❝ we have to get out of here! ❞

❝ are you going to hide in my shoulder the whole time? or actually watch the movie? ❞

❝ i’m not going in a graveyard. ❞

❝ what did you get? ❞

❝ want to trade candy? ❞

❝ i got a rock. ❞

❝ don’t blame me! it was your idea to come in here! ❞

❝ what are you going as for halloween this year? ❞

❝ i just can’t wait for halloween! ❞

❝ you should totally buy that costume! ❞

❝ trick or treat! ❞

❝ happy halloween! ❞

❝ happy fall! ❞

❝ i wanna make sure that my jack-o-lantern is the best! ❞

❝ i’ll race you through the corn maze! ❞

❝ that guy in the gorilla costume has been following us for the past ten blocks. ❞

❝ aww come on! it was a prank! ❞

❝ please, please, PLEASE no scary movie marathon! ❞

❝ that wasn’t funny! ❞

❝ i keep tripping over my costume. ❞

❝ i’m not sure we should go down that street. ❞

❝ no fair! your costume is getting you more candy. ❞

❝ faster! we need to get to all of the houses! ❞

❝ forget being ‘too old’ to trick or treat. i’m doing this forever! ❞

❝ i don’t like these woods. ❞

❝ i just saw something! ❞

❝ look at that intestine cake! ❞

❝ i’m a real vampire. ❞

❝ do you think stuff really happens on halloween? like..supernatural stuff. ❞

❝ i made us matching costumes! ❞

❝ i think i just saw something move outside your window…is someone watching us? ❞

❝ you’re not going to make me carve this pumpkin all by myself, are you? ❞

❝ did you hear there’s a masquerade ball this halloween? let’s go! ❞

❝ you shouldn’t go out there! ❞

❝ s-scared? me? i’m not..scared. ❞

[instructortrepe]

Guess whose birthday it is today!

October 4th is Quistis’ birthday!  Drop by for shenanigans if you’d like! 💜

[leneemusing]

memes for that specific brand of ships

SOFTER: “  stop doing that— stop trying to hide your emotions from me.  ” “  i can’t make you trust me. but i’m gonna stick around long enough for you to realize you can.  ” “  not everyone is just gonna become another scar. some people will stay, if you let them.  ” “  i feel like i’ve been living in a storm for so long, like i’m just drifting from wave or wave hoping i won’t drown.  ” “  what happened to you? what made you so scared to stay still long enough to let someone in?  ” “  i don’t wanna be scared anymore.  ” “  even when you smile, your eyes are still sad.  ” “  you’re safe with me. you can let go. breathe. ”   “  i just want to belong somewhere again. or to someone, i guess.  ” “  the thing about never having a home, is you don’t know what to do when you’re finally given one. you just feel like you’re waiting for something to take it away again.  ” “  would you just sit still? you’re gonna get an infection if you don’t let me clean this up.  ” “  i’m not gonna hurt you. i’m just here to help.  ” “  close your eyes. go back to sleep. nothing can hurt you while i’m here.  ” “  you looked so peaceful while you were sleeping…i couldn’t bring myself to wake you up.  ” “  why do you trust me?  ” “  don’t do that— don’t shut down on me. let me in.  ” “  you were talking in your sleep again. i’m starting to think they’re memories and not just dreams.  ” “  i’m not used to letting people close. i don’t like being vulnerable— but i want to, with you. i want to let you in.  ” “  how did you get this scar?  ” “ i don’t always need you to fix everything. i just— sometimes i just want you to listen. ” “  you’re so beautiful when you laugh. i wish i could see it more, but maybe it’s the rarity of it that makes it so captivating. ”

DARKER:  “  every time i touch you, there’s a moment where you look like you think it will hurt. ” “ why aren’t you scared of me?  ”   “  you’d accept a caress from the same hands that leave you bruised, just to feel warm.  ” “  i’ll kill anyone that makes you hurt like that again. i’d kill them just for taking your smile.  ” “  i want to keep you all to myself. i don’t want anyone but us to know the things we do in secret.  ” “  you’re mine now. and i won’t let anyone take you from me.  ” “  would you kill for me?  ” “  i’d cut my heart out and place it in your hands if it would prove my devotion to you.  ”  “  you love me so fiercely. i’m almost afraid of it.  ” “  i know if anyone hurt me, you’d never let them see another day. and i think i like that a little too much.  ” “  i know you’re dangerous, but i also know you won’t hurt me. you bark, and you growl, but you never bite. not me, at least.  ” “  who hurt you? who made you so sad and lonely? tell me so i can make them pay.  ”   “  i don’t like the way they look at you. perhaps i’ll cut their eyes out.  ” “   “  they hurt me. now i want you to make it better. make them hurt too.  ”   “  if anyone lays even a single finger on you, i’ll cut it off and feed it to them.  ” “  yes. i killed them— but i did it for you.  ” “  i had to do it. no one gets to make you sad and get away with it.  ” “  i told you, i’ll love you no matter what. i’ll wipe the blood off your skin. i’ll clean the dirt off your hands from every grave you dig. i don’t care if you’re a monster.  ” “  you should be scared of me. i like that you’re not.  ”   “  don’t you know my love could destroy you?  ”   “  come, sit in my lap and tell me whose blood i should spill tonight.  ”  

[instructortrepe]

Starter Call!

these won't be long, they'll be short(-ish) BUT boop the heart for a starter from a friendly neighbourhood Quistis!

(don't forget to drop me a comment or an IM with your preferences if liking for a multi / sideblog!)

[emeraldlatias]

These cards sure beat talking to a wall.

[uselessmateria]

Happy Valentines Day Seiftis lovers! I’m trying to be cleaner with my lines y’all.

When I was drawing this, the song “In a life where we work out” was stuck in my head.

If life is only ups and downs Maybe you’ll come on back around Save me from what I’ve become Lord knows I can’t keep losing sleep dreaming about A life where we work out Or, on a wildly less depressing note, maybe she rolled her eyes and agreed to wear a big poofy dress if he ever actually made SeeD - and then he did. Who knows. YOU TELL ME.

[instructortrepe]

doing some tidying up around  the blog before i think about diving into the inbox over the next few days:

unfollowing archived / long-term inactive blogs to tidy things up

drafting any / all pending replies for threads / ask reply ideas

updating rules to include general sporadic activity note until further notice.  i have a chronic condition that’s currently poorly controlled due to a lack of access to specialised healthcare in the pandemic.  this means replies will be (occasionally very-) slow to both threads and asks, such is the nature of the beast.  please don’t take this as a lack of interest or a personal slight, it’s certainly not -- i’m just not in good health.

may do a short para / one-liner call to kick things off

potentially a new theme, if i can find the motivation for coding

[dctvgifs]

Honey, didn’t we go through this already? You don’t have what it takes.

[instructortrepe]

Apologies for my absence / radio silence here over the past week or so. There are a great many things just not aligning for me at the moment and it's taking a bit of a toll; feeling more than a little burnt out mentally, if I'm honest. TV and video games are about the limit of what I have spoons for lately.

Will fire out a few things when I can, energy permitting but hoping to be back to a more settled state after Christmas. Fingers crossed, that is!

As always, thank you all for being superstars!

💜 you all!

-kat

[hartofbalamb]

Laguna ♦ Irvine ♦ Squall  ♦ Rinoa  ♦ Seifer  ♦ Cid

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